The Strong One

Episode 12

Taking my babies home had to be the best thing I’ve ever experienced, they were so tiny I couldn’t help but absolutely love them.

I haven’t had much sleep, when the babies aren’t crying, I am with the thought that these babies will ask for their dad someday but every time I pick up my phone to even think of calling him and telling him everything i remember about all his dreams and all the things he always said he wanted to accomplish and I don’t want to tie him down, I don’t want him to be tied down here and then one day looking at me with hate because I didn’t let him do everything he’s always wanted.

Even though guilt kills me on the inside I keep strong and look after my babies and though they weren’t planned the aren’t a mistake.

I put my finger on my little Charlotte’s hand and she holds it tightly making me smile.

Every single time that my babies look up at me with their big eyes I can’t help but let out a little cry, I never thought that their eyes would be exactly like their fathers, at being both the babies is so rare, but even with their eyes closed their little noses are exactly the same as his too, everything ok these babies remind me of him and even though it hurts it makes me love them more.

I have went back to training but only lightly and not too long, Nan is obsessed with them so when I’m training she’s sitting with the twins at a little corner at the gym, i panic when they aren’t with me.

Dad, Mum, Grandpa, Nan, Lee spend so much time with the twins it’s pretty adorable how much they love them.

Olly called a couple of days ago and I thought about telling him as he still didn’t know but I decided to go against it as he would end up hunting Diego down and killing him which my father and grandpa did want to do too but I was able to reason with them.

When I think of how my life could have been different if my parents weren’t so supportive I can’t help but go up to them and hug them, thank them for everything they have done for me. It must have been real tough for them to find out their teen daughter was pregnant.

The thing I absolutely love to do to my babies is match their clothes, I bought many gender neutral clothes so I could do that but I also love to dress Charlotte in little cute dresses and Charlie looks so handsome with a little tie.

I hired a photographer to take pictures of the babies with I displayed everywhere and those pictures weren’t all the pictures i have because I take pics of literally everything they do, I’m so obsessed.

“Hi mum.” I said to mum who was working in her home office.

“Hey sweetie.” Mum answered.

“Where’s my grandkids.” Mum asked curiously.

“You left them alone for this long already, I can’t believe it, my daughter the one who doesn’t let anyone hold her little ones for more than 5 seconds.” Mum said being dramatic and making fun of me.

“Nan and grandpa wanted to spend some time with them and kicked me out of the living room because apparently I’m fussy.” I told mum sitting opposite her at her desk.

“You are darling but most women are with their first borns.” Mum said to my smiling up sympathetically. 

“Alright, mum I was wondering when you are wanting for me to step up?” I asked mum nervously.

“Alex for you to step up it would be best to have a second in command but I know you don’t want to tell Diego even though I think is his right to know, I also know you don’t want to replace him so when the babies are older you can try step up by yourself.” Mum said seriously as the talk now involves the gang.

“Ok thank you mum.” I said and walked out after giving her a kiss on the cheek and made my way to my babies.

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The babies are now 3 months old and I didn’t know it was possible but they got even cuter, I’m so baby crazy it’s actually mad but I can’t help it.

I decided to move to the guest house attached to the Villa as I was in need of a bit more privacy.

I did my room up the exact same basically and since the house has 3 rooms I decided to put each baby in their own room as they will need space to grow, my kitchen is quite big but certainly not as big as the villa, my living room is a good size and the thing I find awesome is that each bedroom has a bathroom and a walk in closet, so all together the house has 4 bathrooms, I have guards at all windows and doors for my babies full safety and now I go to the warehouse again and after a lot of debating I decided to take my babies with me, I have everything from a crib to a bottle there so my babies are comfortable 24/7, I am very careful however of who sees them, not many know they exist and I don’t stay too long at the warehouse too so it works perfectly.

The one thing I miss from being in the main house is my nans cooking everyday but since little she’s taught me so I know how to make many things but sometimes Nan comes over with food and I have to say it makes my day.