The Strong One

Episode 9

My eyes filled with tears and soon they were rolling down my cheeks and I was silently sobbing trying not to be heard.

“Hey it’s ok to cry.” I heard my mum say softly.

“You found out a couple of weeks ago but do you know how far exactly you are?” Nan asked giving me a smile, which I returned but a bit more sad.

“2 months.” I told them.

“Honey are you sure?” Mum asked looking at my belly.

“Yes.” I answered confused from the question.

“You look to be at least 3 nearly 4, I have no clue how I didn’t notice, those baggy clothes really made it hard to.” Mum said keeping a very intense look on my belly.

“As much as i would love to be offended I will let it slide as I understand what you mean, I was quite scared of the reason why but when I went to the doctors I found out it’s because I’m having twins, they are still quite small though.” I say the last part quietly watching my family go into shock once again.

“Oh my.” Was all I heard nan say before she fainted.

After Nan was helped up given some water and put a fan close to her grandpa decided it would be best if they would lie down and then that would give me some time to talk with my parents alone.

“Alright, as much as I would like to feel disappointed at you I don’t have the heart to as not only you have been dealing with this by yourself but I also know you and I bet you have tried to convince yourself that you are not scared.” Mum said to me putting her arm around me to give me a hug.

“However you should be afraid to be scared because a teen pregnancy is scary and I bet it won’t be easy.” Dad said hugging me from the other side so I was squished between my parents hug, which really gives me security.

“Even though we support you completely we had hoped you had more time being a teenager.” Dad continued.

“We love you and will love our grandchildren too, even though the situation is not ideal.” Mum finishes.

“Honey do you mind if I talk to her alone for a minute?” Mum asked dad, he just nodded and made his way out.

“I have been meaning to ask for a while but I know you and your father would have gotten uncomfortable so I decided to wait.” Mum said.

“Ok...” I said unsurely.

“First who and when?” Mum asked, I tried my best to stay calm so my lie wouldn’t sound like a lie.

“The day I stayed home alone I decided to go out, used a fake ID and got into a bar, drank a little too much and slept with a stranger.” I said lying straight through my teeth.

“Oh Alex.” Mum said disappointment in her voice.

“I know mum, I know, however we used protection, I don’t know how it happened really.” I told her, this part being actual truth.

“It’s ok, everything happens for a reason.” Mum said hugging me then pulling back.

“We have to go buy cribs.” Mum said jumping up.

“No need.” I replied.

“What?” Mum asked not knowing what I meant.

I ended up dragging mum up to my room where I showed her my closet and she was shocked.

“I had initially only bought one crib but I bought the biggest on available, I was going to get another one but I decided to go against it and the babies can share, I read online twins end up missing the other after birth many times.” I said happy to be finally getting it out of my chest.

“Alex you have been doing this all by yourself.” Mum said in tears.

“It’s ok mum it was my decision to not tell anyone.” I said hugging her trying to show her I’m strong, and I will be strong for my babies.

“Mum can you do me a favour?” I asked mum with my puppy eyes.

“Yeah.” Mum answered distracted with all the Baby stuff in the room.

“Can you not tell anyone, not even the closest friends, and tell nan, grandpa and dad not to either.” I said hoping she would say yes so that dad wouldn’t tell Diego’s dad and Diego would come to know.

“Whatever you want, I know when I was pregnant I didn’t want to tell anyone either, you want to know something Alex, I’m proud of you, you are going through this a lot younger the I was when I had you yet you are acting so much more mature.” Mum said smiling at me showing she means it.

“Your mood swings still haven’t shown?” Mum asked.

“They have, you have no idea how hard it is from snapping at everyone around me all the time.” I said laughing lightly.

“I know what you mean, I nearly shot someone from having the last coffee.” Mum said and we both laughed.

I showed her the ultrasound pictures and the last thing I remember was hearing mum say she loves me and closing the bedroom door.

I was awoken frantically with the same dream, or was it a nightmare? I don’t know but all I can see when I fall asleep is Diego’s face making me feel so guilty for not telling him about the babies but I don’t know why I just can’t bring myself to.