I am not used to be scared. The feeling is new and strange. It tightens around my heart like a poisonous vine.
Life being in danger is not scary. What if I lost what I barely have? After all the patience and grinding myself to this day?
This fear was the same reason I wished to quit KJM. Kevin is older, Jina is now not stuck anywhere and they have so many intelligent people with them. They don't need me.
These fears, my insecurities and a lot of unpleasant emotions--I bundled all of it together and put it somewhere in a box in the back of my mind. Those were the emotions I hate feeling. Those were the feelings that were never supposed to surface.
I leaned my head back to the edge of the bathtub, tired, heaving a deep sigh emotionally drained. The warm water soaked my body, relaxed my m
