Crying Moon

Mock Feelings

Sean's POV

Waking up everyday knowing that Rose is no longer here is driving me insane. I miss her scent, her tiny cold hands and her laughter. Her scent disappeared maybe a week after she left. I'm scared, I'm starting to forget what she smells like. I wonder where she is? If she's ok.

I will have my revenge for this. After I get Rose back, I'll tear that bitches head off. Rhianna had a lot of damn nerve. Even if Rose was one of my brothers consorts, (Which she most definitely was not) she had no right. Why her and not the actual bitches he sleeps with.

Sometimes I find myself blaming him, but I know it's not his fault. Sable has never been one to settle down. There's never been one person to hold his attention long enough after going to bed with him.

You'd think after over 2 centuries of living he would have found at least one person he genuinely liked romantically. Nope, s**t I think he barely likes me.

The only person who has earned every bit of the respect he's given by Sable is Liam. If Liam had been any less, I'd be upset about the fact that Sable chose him over me for the Beta position.

The fact is, though I am his brother, Liam has done more than I ever have. Before meeting Rose, I was completely absent, I tried to live among the humans, technically I'm an actor that died like I don't know, 50 or so years ago.

I met Rose when I came back from my 'adventure'. She was the bubbliest person I'd ever met. She loved to read books, her exact words the first time we talked about books were- "I love reading, Romance, Fantasy, Thriller, Action, Adventure they're all so- so- SO BRILLIANT. I'm not so big on boring books though. If I don't click with a book I won't read it, I'm very picky"

That she was, I'd seen her pick up several books, start them, she'd get half way through it and just discard it.

When I'd ask about it she'd just say something about about how either some character made the wrong choice or pissed her off in some way so she didn't want to read it anymore. Sometimes she'd only read a chapter or 2 before realizing the story just wasn't doing it for her, as she said, she was picky.

My heart started to beat faster at the thought of her. Before I could enjoy the moment of thinking about her it was ruined by my douche bag wolf, Ledger.

"Can you stop being such a little pansy? Rose is gone big deal, it's not like she's our mate." I can feel his attitude. Lycans will only ever truly approve of the mating between them and their fated mates. Any other being is just not worth the same effort. They will tolerate little flings as long as the end goal is their mate.

My lycan was of no exception. I, like my brother, didn't ever wish to meet my mate. The way my father speaks of our mother, and how she basically had him wrapped around her finger, it slightly scares me that someone would have the ability to do that to me as well.

"She IS our mate, I don't care if she was chosen for us by the moon goddess or not, I love her and when I find her I'm marking her and that will be that, understood?" I stood my ground yet again.

"IF you find her." He simply states. Before I could say anything else to him he puts up a mental block and retreats to the back of my mind.

I jump out of bed, irritated at my lycan and at myself. If I had kept her closer, watched her more carefully, I never would have lost her.

I worked all day yesterday I slept in till dinner time, so I put myself on autopilot, I shower and brush my teeth, getting dressed in some jeans and a random graphic T hanging in my closet. I go to the dining room, now usually I'd go through dinner on autopilot too, I can't stand these people, but today, Sable seemed on edge.

His aura radiated through the room as he stared at his untouched plate with his brow furrowed. His jaw was clenched and you could clearly see he hadn't slept much, capturing my attention immediately.

Even Rhianna seemed to be backing off for today after yesterday's failed scheme, I'm sure she wasn't willing to anger him even more.

"Whoa, why the long face big brother?" I say in mock tone, trying to lighten the mood a little bit. Which would usually work if his anger had been caused by something petty like father or Rhianna.

His eyes snap to mine and I am instantly frightened. His eyes are completely bloodshot, the bags under his eyes can be seen now that he wasn't staring down.

"f**k OFF" He growled out and I could swear I felt the ground shake. I look over to my father who seems to be just as torn with Sable's behavior.

I take my seat, my brother stands up, dragging his hands down his face. His hands rest on the back of his chair and he brings his forehead to meet the back of his hands. My father opened his mouth to say something but before he could Sable picks up the chair, throws it behind him and into a wall, shattering the chair. "AGGGGHGHHHHHH" He turns and begins to smash everything behind him like a wild animal. I stand and run over to him. "Sable, dude what the f**k is wrong?"

He faces me and starts yelling. "I DONT f*****g KNOW OK MY f*****g CHEST HURTS LIKE- LIKE SOMEONE RIPPED MY f*****g HEART OUT OF MY CHEST. SOMETHING INSIDE IS MAKING LARS HOWL AND TRY TO FORCE HIS WAY OUT. I HAVENT GOTTEN ANY f*****g SLEEP SINCE-" He stops and looks over to Rhianna. She genuinely looks terrified. He just growls, not finishing his sentence.

If he hadn't slept in a while that would explain why he's having a hard time reeling in his lycan If our human side is tired it's much easier to make the human go to sleep and let the lycan take over.

However I find it hard to believe his lycan is trying to force him to sleep, they only do that if the human side is trying to keep them from their mate, and that's still a rare thing.

I mind link the only person I know who could handle this. "Liam, get to the Royal dining room, there's something wrong with Sable." I swear not a minute after I had sent the link, Liam came charging through the door panting like a maniac. "Where!?" His eyes scanned the room and land on an angry, huffy, puffy prince.

I could see genuine relief flood his face, he probably thought he was hurt or something, ooops. Liam slowly approached Sable, like a human would approach a hurt wild animal they are trying to help. "Hey man, what's going on?" "Don't talk to me like I'm a f*****g child." Sable's voice was distorted in a way only having your lycan on the surface could cause.

"I am sorry Sable but right now, as your beta, I am having a hard time handling your aura." See, our aura is a way to display our wolf's strength. Any wolf can let out an aura, however, an aura can only be used for intimidation and/or submission if the one who is submitting their aura is stronger than everyone else in the room, fated mates are of no exception either. However, once marked, the effect of your mates aura doesn't effect you physically like others.

Unfortunately no one's aura comes close to that of Sable's, since he was a child not a single wolf or lycan has been able to make him submit. Not even our father. Or the other kings for that matter.

Sable seems to realize that he's releasing aura because he gradually draws it back in. Slowly beginning to catch his breath and calm down. He takes a slow, long inhale, and realeses the breath, shuddering in delight while he does. "Hmmmm does anyone smell that?" He asks as his eyes open, almost rolling in delight.

"Smell what man?" Liam cautiously asks. "It smells like- I don't even know, sun tan lotion, mixed with banana and coconut. It's the most intoxicating smell." His voice was low and deep, when he looked up I could see why. His eyes shown consistently, meaning he was probably sharing control with his lycan at the moment.

With a low hum of approval from his chest, his eyes flutter shut and his aura is gone completely from the air, allowing everyone to breathe finally.

Liam places his hand on Sables shoulder and squeezes. "You're sensing her aren't you?" That confused me even more. "Yo what the hell is going on?" I directed my question directly at my brother. He never acts like this, it was starting to worry me.

He doesn't spare me a single glance before quickly walking out of the room.

Liam follows him immediately and I'm left pissed off. What the hell is happening to my brother?

Sable's POV

After falling asleep it didn't take long for me to dream of the mysterious sexy woman that's plagued my thoughts since the first time she popped up in my head.

I thought I would get some sleep but, my mind won't seem to let me forget how much I want this woman. I woke up so many times drenched in my own semen, I finally just decided to stay awake.

I hadn't even realized I had spent all day in my room til one of my 'consorts' decided to check in on me before dinner.

My chest still hurts, but the pain is dulled somehow. I am trying to get to my room and I can hear Liam calling out to me as I race to my room. By the time I reach my door, Liam is right behind me. "Dude come on talk to me."

He was being pushy and that was a first for Liam. "I'm fine, why are you acting like this?" I reply with attitude because I'm getting irritated at just about anything today apparently.

"No man, I'm not the one acting weird. You- how do you not even realize how differently you're acting?" His voice showed concern and I genuinely felt bad. I know I'm just on edge because I haven't slept or been able to get her enchanting, beautiful face out of my mind.

I sigh. "I do see it. I just-" I put my head in my hands, deeply inhaling trying to keep my calm. "You're sensing her aren't you?" He asks again, this time completely serious.

I look up, I'm sure I had a completely desperate look on my face. "I think so." I manage to choke out.

I never wanted a mate, I especially never wanted to f*****g sense her when I never even met her. I start to get agitated thinking about that flawless face again when my thoughts are interrupted.

Two lower ranked Lycans stand holding two different trays. "Excuse me Prince Sable, Beta Liam." They both bow while the smaller of the two speaks. I look at the taller one. Her hair is the same color as the woman in my mind. Roughly the same length as well.

"What can I do for you ladies." I say as charming as possible. The smaller one spoke again. "We've been instructed to bring you your dinner since you weren't feeling well."

My eyes never left the taller female. The longer I look at her face the more uninterested I became. Her face was no where near as pretty as the one stuck in my head, her skin wasn't the same shade and her scent was way off.

I wouldn't be picky, I could see her biting her lip and eye f*****g me already. I took the tray from her hands and hand it to Liam. "My beta can have it, I'm not hungry for food at the moment." I say, while bringing my face close to hers, adding a low growl to my voice, girls go crazy about that.

I stop next to her ear, before speaking and letting my breath hit her ear slightly.

"Would you like to accompany me back to my room beautiful?" And just like that, the girl seems to be putty in my hands. Her face flushes red, and she immediately nods her head. I put my hand out for her to take and she does. I pull her to my room, ignoring the intense glare my beta is giving me. It wasn't like I was ever going to change my ways, no matter who my mate was, I wasn't going to accept her anyways.

She followed me inside, once the door was shut she pounced on me, wrapping her arms around my neck and kissing me. I grab her ass and lift her up while kissing back slightly surprised this shy lycan turned kinky as soon as the door shut.

We hit the edge of the bed and I lay her down. She tugs on the bottom of my shirt. I pull away and look down at her, for a split second I didn't see the girl in front of me. I saw the girl stuck in my head. It caused me to flinch back for a second. The girl in front of me was a lycan. Even lower ranked lycans were typically more beautiful than any other shifters. However in comparison to this woman whom I can't get out of my head, she held no candle.

I shake my head trying to get a grip and begin taking off both of our clothes. Her giggles are rather irritating so I stop them by sticking my fingers in her mouth.

I feel her core and she's already dripping wet. It pisses me off that I barely had to do anything, but I guess foreplay would be slightly inconvenient at the moment.

I pull myself out and begin to rub on her dripping folds.

She begins to moan and for the first time in my entire life I found the moans of someone I'm somewhat attracted to, to be annoying. I wished she'd just keep her mouth shut. I keep rubbing and after a few seconds, dread begins to wash over me as I realize that I'm not getting hard. Not in the slightest.

She bites her lip "Aren't you gonna put it in daddy?" She looks in my eyes asking seductively. If I had ANY chance at getting hard she just killed it. I hated being called daddy in the bedroom. I couldn't tell you why, it just never did it for me.

I lean back sighing and slipping my pants back on. She leans up with a confused look on her face, but before she can say anything I pick up her clothes and put them in her lap. "Get dressed, leave I'm tired." My voice was definite and I hoped she would just leave. I was wrong. "But, I can do something different, you don't have to do anything, just sit and I ca-" "NO" I cut her off with a loud growl. She squeaks looking absolutely terrified. "I said I'm f*****g tired, I know you aren't deaf, get the f**k out." My tone was harsh and by the look on her face she definitely took my anger and attitude personally. Tears ran down her face and her chin quivered as she scrambled to get her clothes on.

I was starting to lose my patience with her and began growling lowly, in a warning tone. She jumped, frightened and squeaked again before hurrying out of the door before she was able to put her shoes on.

I felt like such a d**k ,but I couldn't help it, all I could feel and think and breathe and see was this person. It slowly started to sink in that this wouldn't just go away, I had to find her, and I had to reject her.