I gave up.
Yeah you heard me right. I gave up on Blake. Obviously she doesn't want to be with me. I can't do anything about how she feels, so what's the point? Everything's the point! But I cant do a damn thing about it. So I just gave up.
Now I don't try. When I see her in the halls, I don't smile. When our eyes connect, I show absolutely no interest. When she sits by me, I act like I'm clueless. We don't talk, we don't move, and its basically like an awkward post-break up situation, without the break up part. I just don't do anything. I don't make an attempt, and I think it makes it better for her. I mean I can see how much she doesn't want me. Sometimes I can feel the resentment vibrating off her, telling me she wants me dead. It hurts. So much.
Months past without anything happening
