He’s a Thug, but He’s My Thug

Chapter 13: What About Your Seed?

"Damn, Chicka! This the 3rd time you threw up this morning!" Exclaimed Molly as she held my hair out of my face as I threw my guts up into the toilet. "Yeah, you're right! I don't know what's wrong with me." I said to her before my face went right back towards the toilet bowel. "You been doing this since last Saturday!" Deonna chimed in from behind me as she rubbed my back and handed me a wet face towel so I could wipe my face. I took it from her and told her "Thank you." and she nodded. I flushed the toilet and wiped my face off before going to brush my teeth for the fourth time this morning and it was only 11:36 A.M."I don't mean to be rude, Anne" Deonna started off. "But your stomach has got a little bigger." I looked at my stomach and saw that I have put on some weight. I shrugged my shoulders and said "I haven't been working out in a few weeks.. So what?"

"Yeah but that has nothing to due with you throwing up every morning for the past week." Said Molly.

"Annah, are... Are you... Pregnant?" Asked Deonna. I spit the toothpaste out, rinsed, and wiped my mouth again before looking at Deonna and Molly. They looked like they were confused but in need of an answer. Is it possible that I am pregnant? No of course not. "No, I ain't pregnant!" I said laughing as I put my toothbrush down on Deonna's sink and walked to her room. I sat in my favorite fuschia bean bag chair of hers and started watching The Fresh Prince Of Bel-Air reruns to try to get my mind of the topic that they brought up but it wasn't working for neither of us. The episode they showed was the one where they found out Vivian was pregnant. Deciding that they was not going to give up so easy Deonna pulled out her sky blue bean bag chair next to me on my left as Molly pulled out Deonna's yellow bean bag chair next to me on my right. If you handn't noticed, Deonna loves bean bag chairs and neon colors. "Annah.." Molly started. "Are you sure you ain't pregnant?" I looked down at my slightly larger stomach and put my hands over it. "No, I can't be..." I started to say when I felt something hard inside of my stomach again. I flinched hella hard. Molly and Deonna placed their hands on mine. "You just might be!" Molly exclaimed. "Is your period late?" Deonna asked me. I had thought about it and told them it was some what late. They asked in unison "How late?" I swear they could be twins at times. I then mumbled "4 weeks."

"Excuse me? I didn't quite catch that." Deonna said. "Speak up, bruh!" I brought my knees up to my chest, folded my arms on top of them, and laid my head on my arms as I repeated myself louder for them to hear me correctly this time. "4 WEEKS?!" They yelled in unison again. I nodded. I heard Deonna get out of her bean bag chair and left out the room. Not that much later she came back with a 2 litter bottle of Hawaiin Punch and a tall glass. "Drink up!" she said as I saw her go over to her TV stand cabinet. "What the hell you doing?" Molly asked while reading my mind. We saw her pull out a box and walk over to me. She sat the box on my lap and I read it. "Pregnancy test?" I said out loud. She nodded. "Now drink the juice so you can take it!" She instructed me. "Why do you have this?" I asked her. She folded her arms across her chest and said "In case one of our asses get pregnant especially me! You know how I get down!" She explained. Deonna wasn't exactly a hoe but she loved s*x alot. She wasn't the type to f**k just any dude she met or knew but if she wanted to f**k she would call one of her little tenders Isaiah or DeWayne and screw them for a while but never did she f**k one one day and then the other in the same day, week, or month.

About 7 glasses of Hawaiian Punch later I finnally had to pee and bad too! I ran into the bathroom with the test and sat in the bathroom waiting for the result for five minutes. I looked at the test and popped up a pink plus sign. "s**t!" I mumbled to myself. "This can't be right." I heard a knock at the door and I knew it was Molly and Dee. "Come in!" I yelled to them. They walked in and closed the door behind them. "What's the result?" Molly asked. "It has the plus sign but I'm still not so sure." I told them. "Maybe I should take another one. Just to be accurate." They agreed and filled up my glass again with some more juice.

Two hours later and I had finnished the whole 2 litter bottle of Hawaiin Punch by myself. Deonna got me another 2 litter bottle. This time it was Fanta Orange Soda. I drank it until the bottle was half empty and took 5 more pregnancy tests that all read "positive" and I was more than highley upset. The last thing I wanted to be was pregnant. I walked out the bathroom and sat back down in the bean bag chair I had. "What's the verdict?" Deonna asked. I looked at her and said "Dee, are you sure those things ain't expired?" She nodded her head. I mumbled "s**t!" "Pregnant?" Molly asked. I nodded. "By who?" Molly asked. "Who else?" I started. "It damn sure ain't Da'Vontae's! So it must be Caine's!" I put my face in my hands and started crying. "Oh, Anne." Said Molly. "What am I gone do? I can't take care of no kid! I still have high school and college to finnish! What about my jobs? What will my family say?" I said to them. "What will Caine say?" Molly asked. I shook my head and said "I don't know." Deonna put her hand on my shoulder and said "Call him." I did as she told me and went to Caine's contact and called him. The phone rang three times until I finally heard Caine's voice through the phone and I put him on speaker phone.

"What's up babe?" Normally I would be happy to hear Caine's voice and it would send chills up my spine but my body was as still and motionless as a statue. "Hey babe." I started. "We need to talk." "About what?" He asked me. "Um, I'd rather tell you in person. Can I come over?"

"You tryinna spend the night?"

"Not sure, when can I come see you?"

"In about 20 minutes, I'm with a client right now."

"Ok, bye babe." He hung up. "Client my ass!" Said Molly as I hung up the phone. "Molly stop it. That Is my boyfriend and the father of my child!" I told her. Well at least I thought he was my boyfriend but I was 100% sure he was the father of my baby. She rolled her eyes and neck and walked away. "Dee, can you drive me home?" I asked. Normally her momma would have the car so she could drive to work but she was off for the weekend so she left Dee the keys before going over to her boyfriend's house. She nodded before asking if she would want her to stay with me but I told her no. I figured this conversation was only meant for me and Caine so it would be best if it was only me and Caine there.

About 20 minutes later exactly, Dee, Molly and I pulled up in front of Caine's house. "Are you sure you don't want me to stay?" She asked for the 4th time we've got in the car. I nodded. "I need to tell Caine by myself." She nodded. We sat in the car for five minutes and I still didn't see Caine. "You see?" Molly started. "He can't even show up to his own house on time, how is he gone take care of a baby?" I could tell she was getting angry because I heard her Brooklyn/Puerto Rican accent was comming out again. "Maybe he's just got caught up with his client!" I said to Molly trying to save Caine's ass. "f**k his clients! You and you're baby are more important!!" She yelled from the back seat. Even though she was right and I agreed with her more than 1000%, she needed to stop being so loud before the whole neighborhood, and by neighborhood I meant my family, knew that I was pregnant. A minute later we saw a 2013 matte black corvette with a yellow racing stripe on the side pull up in front of Caine's house right in front of Dee's momma's car. "The f**k?" I whispered to myself. Who was this person pulling in front of my man's house? I tensed up a little bit and immediately started to worry. The second I saw Caine get out the passengers seat I calmed down. I waited for the car to pull off before I got out of the car to great Caine. I closed the car door and Caine looked over at me and started walking to me. "What's up ma!" He said while wrapping his arms around me as I did the same. He looked in the car and saw Deonna and Molly who was still in the back seat. "'Sup Dee, 'sup Molly?" Deonna waved and said "Hi, Caine." Molly being her rude and ignorant self just said "Mmm, hello!" Caine looked at her like she just stole 8 pounds of green from him. He was about to say something but I just put my hand up and shook my head no. "We need to talk, remember?" I said to him. He nodded his head. "Yeah, I remember." I looked back at Dee and Molly and said "I'll see y'all later." "Okay, Anne." Dee started. "Be safe next time." She finnished before pulling off and driving away.

"What did she mean by 'Be safe next time'?" Caine asked me. I grabbed his hand and said, "Well that's what we need to talk about. Can we go inside?" He nodded. We walked into his house and went into his room. He sat on the loveseat and I went over to sit on the bed. "I can't believe I've conceived a little miracle here." I thought to myself as I rubbed the comforter with my hand. Caine walked over and sat next to me on the bed. "Annah!" He said snapping me out of my thoughts. "Huh?" I asked. "You said we needed to talk." He said reminding me. "Oh, yeah." I started. "Well, there's no easy way to say this, baby." "Say what?" He said looking confused. "Are you breaking up with me bruh?" I looked at him like he was crazy! Did he really just admit that he was my boyfriend? He did! I had got a little happy inside until I felt something in my stomach that reminded me of why I was here in the first place. "Of course not!" I told him. "If anything, I need you to be with me now more than ever!" He still looked confused as hell so I decided I would stop wasting the both of our time and just come out with it. "Well, babe. You remember when you said that you got me no matter what?" I asked him. He nodded his head. "Yeah, what about it?" I took a deep breath and said "Well I need you to keep up on that promise because..." I paused and took another deep breath. I don't know why this was so hard for me to say but it just was. "I-I'm p-p-pregnant." I said looking him in his eyes. He looked at me more confused then ever. "The f**k you just say?" He asked me. "I'm pregnant, Kendrick!" I said to him again. "I'm pregnant and it's your baby!"

He sat there looking angry but then I saw a smile on his face and him laughing. What the f**k? Is this man crazy? What the hell was so funny. Was he happy that I was pregnant or something? What the hell was going on with this man? "I don't see what's funny." I told him. He laughed again and said "You.. You what's funny!" I looked at him like he was retarded. "Kendrick I'm serious! I'm pregnant with your baby!!" He had this look of "Oh, s**t!" on his face before he got of the couch and started pacing around the room. He stopped and looked at me and said "For real, though?!" I nodded and he went back to pacing. "Naw, naw! This ain't right!" I heard him whisper to himself. "Maybe its just one of them food baby things you and yo' home girls be talm' about ! Righ' righ' that's what it is!" He said to me. I shook my head no. "I'm for sure pregnant, babe!" He kept pacing. "Can you sit down?!" I asked somewhat irritated that he would not sit still. He shook his head "Naw, ma! I need proof." Molly told me he would say something like that so she told me to wash off the pregnancy tests and put them in a zip-lock bag. I pulled the zip-lock bag out of my hoodie pocket and showed him the tests. He snatched the bag out of my hand and looked at all 6 pregnancy tests all showing a little pink plus sign to show that I was indeed pregnant. "Damn, Ma!" He started. "How much piss did you have build up in you to take six of these motha' fucka's?!"

"About two 2 litter bottles of juice and soda." I told him. He shook his head as he gave me back the plastic baggy of depression. He soon went back to pacing before he stopped again and said. "I know what you can do!" I looked confused and said "What?" Clapping his hands like he came up with the perfect master plan he said "You can get an abortion! Problem solved!" and sat down on the loveseat as if he was proud of his decision that he made for me. Is he f*****g for real?! I stood up and walked over to him and said "Nigga, is you crazy?!" He looked up at me and said, "Naw, I just aint tryin to raise no little shawties!" I looked at this man like he lost his mind. Matter of fact he did loose his mind. "Nigga, you got your nerve!" I started to yell at him. "The f**k you mean, Ma?" He asked me.

I was really getting pissed of at him. "What you mean the f**k I mean? Like I said, you have your nerve nigga!" He looked as if he was getting just as angry as I was. "Who the f**k is you telling me what to do with my mother f*****g body?" He looked at me and said "I'm just saying baee' we not even 18 yet and you talking about raising a baby. Neither one of us can take care of it!"

"The f**k you mean we can't take care of it?! You deal everyday, yo' ass could do it in yo sleep with ease and I already have two jobs! We both can provide for the baby!"

"It's not just that, Annah! Ain't no guarantee that we will even be together after you have this baby!"

"Regardless if we together I'ma have this f*****g baby nigga!"

"Hold up, Ma, can I finnish?"

"f**k no you can't finnish! You about to listen to me now! I should of known that your ass was gone act like this! You the typical thug! You got what you wanted but now that I'm pregnant your ass wanna renege on the s**t? Oh, but you got me right?! Yeah I bet your ass do! You claim your ass was way better then my ex but nigga you just as bad! At least he wouldn't try to force me or my body to do some s**t that I wouldn't wanna do!" He just sat there and looked at me as if he was waiting for me to finnish. I shook my head and sat on the floor. I started crying and said "I'm so stupid for letting you hit it raw!" I looked up at him again and saw that he was trying to avoid eye contact with me. "I'm sorry, Ma. I just can't do it." He said. I stood up and got in his face and said "What the hell you mean you can't do it? I don't understand how you can just sit here without no ounce of a f*****g bit of emotion! Whatever happened to the nigga who said if you ever in yo' life caught the nigga who pistol whipped and killed yo' sister Rachel you would return the favor he did her?"

"That's different, Ma!" He said. I continued cursing him out. "It ain't though nigga! Same situation just a different resolution! He killed the baby and yo' sister himself so he wouldn't have to man up and take care of what's his! The only way it makes a difference is you'd rather pay to kill my, nuh-uh, our baby! You know what? f**k you and this conversation Caine!" He looked shocked at the fact that I called him Caine. "Woah, shawty! Did you just call me Caine? Only my niggas call me that!" He said to me as I started to walk away and said, "Since you acting like a nigga, I'ma call you what these niggas call you!" and left.

I couldn't go home because I didn't feel like dealing with my family and I didn't want to call Dee just so they could pick me up and Molly just say "I told you so!" So I didn't walk, I ran all the way to Tyree house. I knocked on the door and waited for him to open it. When he opened the door he immediately saw the running make up and tears on my face and he looked almost as upset as I was. "What's wrong?" He said. Before I could answer him he took the words out of my mouth and said "Caine?" I slowly nodded my head. He opened the door wider so I could walk in and we walked into his room. He layed on his bed and held me in his arms as I told him the whole situation between Caine and I. I sat there in his arms crying my eyes out. "It's ok. I'm here and I'll be there for you and the little shawty." He told me before kissing my forehead. No later than two minutes after I stopped crying I got a call from Caine. Tyree told me not to answer it but I did anyway. "What, Caine?" I said as I answered the phone. "Can you come back so we can talk?" I heard Caine plead through the phone. I thought over it and agreed to coming back so we could talk more. Why? I'm not sure. I told Tyree I was leaving and he looked disappointed. I told him I was sorry and he told me to just be careful and I told him I would.

About five minutes later I was outside Caine's house again and I saw him sitting on the porch waiting for me. I walked over to him and said "You wanted to talk?" He looked up at me when he heard my voice and nodded. I rolled my eyes and said "Well let's talk." as I sat next to him and putting my face in my hands. He lifted my head with his finger and said "Look at me." So I did. "I'm sorry for how I acted, babe. You was right! I was acting like that nigga that killed my sister Rae and it was the same situation. From now on I promise. I got you and I got our baby! Aight Ma?" I smiled and nodded my head. He hugged me and kissed me on the lips.

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Two weeks later I was at my Father's house with Nevaeh watching her play Just Dance 3 with Glenda, the dumb b***h. That's what I called her when talking to my clique. "Anne, why don't you play with us?" Nevaeh asked. I still hadn't tell her I was pregnant yet because I wasn't ready, even though I was already showing a little I just looked like I gained some weight, not that I was pregnant. "I'm good, y'all have fun!" I told her as I sipped on some strawberry lemonade I made. "Come on Anne," Glenda started. "You look like you could loose a few pounds anyway." "Did this b***h just call me Anne like we was cool and then call me fat in the same got damn sentence and her head ain't being beat with her own Wii remote?" I thought to myself. "f**k her, Annah! She not worth stressing you or your baby out!" I got out of my seat and walked towards the kitchen to get me some cheddar cheese Ruffles and a bag of minni Snickers. I saw my Dad walk through the kitchen door with bags of more snacks in his hands. "Hi daddy!" I said to him. He looked up and saw it was me then smiled. "Sweetheart you eating again?!" We both laughed as I nodded my head. "Keep that up, you and Baby Girl gone eat me and Glenda out of a house and home!" We laughed again. "Hi, babe!" I heard Glenda say in the other room as I rolled my eyes. "Be nice!" My dad whispered to me. "I'm always nice!" I whispered back as we entered the living room again.

"I don't know why you bought some more food, fatty over there is just gone eat it up again!" Said Glenda laughing. "Ignore her, Annah!" I thought to myself. After they finnished dancing they sat on the couch along with us. Since I was pregnant I was having weird cravings. I had took a chip and put a minni Snickers on top of it and ate it just like that. "Mmm, that's good!" I said to myself. "Girl that's nasty!" Glenda said to me. "Leave her alone, babe!" My dad said to her. "No, that s**t is nasty! No wonder your ass is fat! Keep going and your ass going to look like a caramel Shrek!" This b***h just lost her mind and I was about to loose mine right along with her. I sat my snack to the side and stood up in front of Glenda. "Look, Glenda!" I started. "Just because you're only a little older than me and you're my step-mom does not mean I have to like you and it damn sure don't mean you can talk to me any way you want! Step-child or no step-child!" Glenda stood up and said "Who the hell do you think you're talking to?" "I'm talking to you!" I said back to her. "Girls, stop!" My dad said but we ignored him."You not talking to me like that, little miss princess!" She said pointing her finger in my face. I swallowed my spit and said "Get your finger out my face, Glenda!" She kept pointing and said "What you gone do?"

"Get your finger out my face!"

"If I don't little princess?"

"Get your finger out my face!" I said for the third time.

"Ooh, I'm shaking in my Prada boots! What you gone do? Have Daddy save you? This is my house!!!" I heard a loud sound and fell to the ground on my stomach. I felt my face and it stang a little. I looked up and Glenda stood over me laughing "My house, b***h!" Any other time I would have got up and smack her right back but my stomach was hurting. I grabbed my stomach and screamed in pain. Nevaeh got up and said "What's wrong with you?" "You wanna get smacked too?" Glenda said to her. Nevaeh just stood there and gave her a stank look. My dad finnally stepped in and said "Glenda, that was uncalled for!" She looked at him crazy and said "No it wasn't! She was asking for it!" She looked over at me holding my stomach and crying. "Weak b***h, I ain't even hit you in your stomach! f**k you crying for?" She said to me. I looked at her and said "Because you stupid b***h! You knocked me on my stomach!" I said to her. "And? So?" She responded. "So dumb b***h, I'm pregnant and your ass probably killed my baby!" The look on satisfaction on her face soon got wiped off with the look of shock, confusion, and fear. "Oh my God, I'm so sorry!" I heard her whisper. "Annah, you're pregnant?" I heard Nevaeh say. "We'll talk about your actions later, Glenda, right now I have to get Annah to the hospital!" I heard my dad say. He picked me up off the ground and told Nevaeh to get the car keys off the counter. He layed me in the back seat of his 2012 Honda Civic and I fell asleep.

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I woke up in a hospital room around 7:00 p.m. Nevaeh knew the password to my phone so she called Tyree, Dee, Molly, and Caine and I expected that my father called my mom. I looked around and saw Molly, Dee, Tyree, and Nevaeh. No mom, no dad, no Howard, and most importantly, no Caine. "Hey sleepy head," I heard Deonna say. "How you feeling." I sat up in my hospital bed and grunted a little before saying, "Sore." Tyree immediately rushed over to my side and grabbed my hand. "Relax, sit back!" I did as he told me to do. "So y'all know?" They all nodded their heads. "Nevaeh called Dee and I and we called Tyree." Molly said. I looked at Nevaeh and said "What about Caine?" "He said he was coming" Nevaeh said as if she was unsure of it. I leaned back and before I knew it I heard voices outside the door. "Where is she?" It was Caine! I then heard a female voice that yelled "Who the hell are you?" Momma? Oh damn! "I'm her boyfriend!" He yelled. Everyone in the room looked at me and then at the door. The door swung open and Caine rushed over to my other side. "Annah, you ok?!" Said Caine. "I'm fine baby!" I then saw my momma and Howard walk in the room. "Baby what happened?" She said. That's when I saw Daddy walk in dressed in his scrubs and a checkboard in his hand.

"Hello, Tracey. Howard." My father said to them. My mother looked him up and down and said "Hello, Victor. I'm sorry we had to meet like this." "Yeah, I am too." My Dad replied. "So what's wrong with her?" My mom asked. He looked at his checkboard and said "Well, apparently our little girl was about 2, almost 3 months pregnant!" My momma looked at me and then looked at Caine before giving us both the stank eye. "Really? By this thug?" My momma said. "Mommy, please don't do this here!" I begged her. "Annah, what you doing going around having s*x anyway?"

"I wasn't going around having s*x! He was the only one I was having s*x with!"

"Well why didn't you use a condom or some other type of birthcontrol!"

I hung my head in shame as she said "Right you wasn't thinking like always!" Caine put his hand on my shoulder and started talking to my father. "Mr. Taylor. Is the baby at least ok?" He asked. My father looked down and I heard acouple sobs. "Daddy," I started. "Am I still pregnant." He tried to bring himself together but couldn't. He shook his head no and said "I'm sorry, baby. You had a miscarriage." Next thing I knew tears was streaming down my face and I had my face covering my hands crying harder than I ever had in my life. "The first baby I was ever pregnant with and your hoe for a wife killed it before it ever got a chance to see the light of day!" I cried more as Caine wrapped his arms around me. "I don't mean to be rude, y'all but can you leave Annah and I alone for a minute?" Every one nodded their heads before walking out of the room. My mother was the first to walk out. Matter of fact, she stormed out! Everybody else followed her, Tyree being the last one out before kissing my forehead and slapping five with Caine. He closed the door right behind him. Caine pulled a chair over by my bed and sat in it. He layed his head on my stomach lightly so I wouldn't be in more physical pain. I felt something wet hit my stomach and looked at Caine. I can't believe it! He was... Crying! I sat up and rubbed the back of his head and neck. "It's ok babe." I said with tears rolling down my face. "That was going to be my first born! The f**k you mean its going to be ok?" He yelled. I nodded my head and said "I know baby but there's nothing more that we can do!" He stood up while wiping the teers of his face and stormed out the room before slamming the door behind him. "Oh, Lord! What am I going to do?" I said to myself.