My skin crawled with shame. I just wanted to claw my skin off or drown in a lake somewhere, maybe then I would be able to wash the embarrassment I felt away. I wrapped my arms around myself, my breath uneven as the low hum of the song playing in the car filled the air, my teeth sunk into my lower lip, the pain keeping the tears at bay.
I felt stupid, stupid enough to let my desires control me, to let my body override every warning my brain gave me, but even in my attempt to regret what had happened, I couldn’t. I could not bring myself to regret being with him, I hadn’t felt that alive, wanted or desired in so long, I closed my eyes and all I could still feel was his mouth between my legs, his mouth kissing my shoulders, his hands gripping my thigh, his heavy self sliding into me with mor
