Jonathan
I had totally screwed up, I hadn't pushed Carly away and made excuses not to go home and talk to her about our future, about having a baby in our future. I wouldn't be here right now dwelling on the truth I was a fuckin i***t. I had lied to Star know if she knew the whole truth it wouldn't be just a punch in the face I would have no balls literally and she would've told me to stay the hell away from her feet formed and I understood that but I was scared I would lose Carly before she had gotten to her and told her the bitter truth. Kayak was right. I was disgusted and I was disgusted in myself. We usually talked as a throuple not to go and do stupid and reckless s**t because we weren't happy. I had well and truly ducked up and I don't not see any way back from this not this time,
