As much as I wanted Jamile with me, she would never deprive herself of everything that money can offer her. If she really knew who I am, would she still see me with the same eyes as she sees me when she surrenders to me? I do not know the answer to such a question, perhaps I would be surprised, but I think it would be negative.
After I spoke to Mr Astolf and by a great coincidence to speak with Rose, I feel that I have taken a burden off my back.
Now I’m here, in this apartment that Jamile never realized, but it’s one of the most luxurious and in a place where the powerful can live.
"Ah Jamile if you knew the truth of who I am". I lose myself in this thought and cry with a glass of whiskey in my hand.
It must be my fate not to have agreed to marry a loveless woman. Maybe if I wasn’t a
