The badboy kissed me

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Blake's POV

It has been two days since Aggie woke up and I can't bring myself to tell her about the miscarriage,yet I don't want her to find out from anyone else but me. I have tried so many times to tell her but chicken out,but today is her last day at the hospital,she is getting discharged from the hospital tomorrow morning,so I want to do it today.

" Babe, you know that I love you right?" I asked her preparing myself to tell her.

" Blake just come out and say whatever you want to say,you have been asking me that question for the millionth time now, what did you do?" she asked turning around in my arms so that she faces me,we were laying in the hospital bed.

"What makes you think that I did something babe?" I asked laughing nervously.

"If you didn't do anything then why do you keep asking me that question?" she asked curiously.

" Look babe, I know you love me, and I love you too,so just say what is bothering you because as much as you have been trying to hide your nervousness, you are failing miserably and you are scaring me." she said putting her palm on my cheek before kissing me softly.

" I am sorry baby about what Lucy did,am terribly sorry that I wasn't there to protect you,"I said a lone tear escaping from my eye.

" Hey hey look at me,it isn't your fault ok? and besides, I wouldn't be here right now if you didn't come for me, right?" she said wiping the tears away.

" Maybe if I come earlier I would have been able to safe our babies." I said and she froze. I realized what i had just said and looked at her,tears welled up in her eyes,her mouth moving up and down but nothing came out.

" Am so sorry baby, I truly am." I said pulling her closer to me.

" Wh....wh.... what ?" she said her voice breaking,her hand went down to her stomach.

" My b... baby." she said lowly.

"They were two baby, and am so terribly sorry, I know how happy you were......."

"My ba... babies." she said turning away from me hugging her knees to her chest.

"Baby please say something, please baby we will get through this together, please talk to me." I begged turning her around again.

"I want to sleep,am tired." she said closing her eyes.

"And please, give me some time alone." she said not opening her eyes.

" Baby please, don't shut me out. please talk to me........" I said sadly,her not looking at me making feel even more worse than I already was.

"please open your eyes baby, please look at me." I begged taking her face into my hands.

" please go Blake, I need to rest." she said still not looking at me,I sighed heavily before leaving the room and sitting outside.

Aggie's POV

I sobbed lowly laying a hand on my stomach,my heart felt like someone has ripped it out of my chest before stabbing it over and over with a knife.

The door opened and closed,the soft footsteps came closer to me.

" Aggie am so sorry about the miscarriage, I really am sorry." Ellison said from behind me. I didn't say anything.

"I understand how you are feeling right now, believe me I do,and I know for a fact that being alone is not going to help you but make things worse." she said making me turn to look at her.

"What do you know about loosing a child.?" I asked her.

"I had two miscarriages three years ago,so I know that you need Blake with you,he is falling apart from thinking that this was his fault." she said and I looked at her speechless.

"For the past three weeks,Blake never even went outside of this room,the farthest he has gone from you is when he went to the bathroom.you need him just as he needs you right now." she said before nodding her head once and left the room.its not like am blaming Blake or anything because am not,I know it's not his fault,but I can't help but think if we had stayed in the city,maybe, just maybe this would not have happened.

"May I come in.?" Blake said appearing by the door. I didn't need to say anything,he sat down on the couch next to the bed.

"Agnes I know you may be blaming me for what happened,I am blaming myself too but I want you to know that I love you and I would never hurt you like that,"he stated,I so wanted to comfort him,let him know that I wasn't blaming him but my hands and mouth went against my heart.

"I am terribly sorry that things went the way they did." he said standing up and kissing my head before he hurriedly left the room, leaving me alone. I wanted to stop him from leaving,I wanted him to know that I needed him but I couldn't.

Blake's POV

I am not blaming her for blaming me,I would blame me too if I was in her position,but what she doesn't understand is that I also lost my babies,am also mourning for them and I need her like I need fresh air for my lungs.

I walked inside my office and went straight to the private bar that was hidden in the back of the office, taking the strongest whiskey and gulping it down,it burned my throat as it went down, cooling my insides down,I slumped down on the couch taking another gulp after the other.

"What the f**k man?" Si said entering the office.i took another gulp before looking up at him,my vision a bit blurry.

"What do you want, Simon?" I asked rudely feeling the effects of the alcohol already working in me.

"You mate is crying her eyes out while you are f**king busy drowning yourself in alcohol." he said trying to snatch the bottle away but failed.

"She doesn't want me there,she is f**king blaming me for the loss of our babies,our babies Si,and I am also hurting, ok?" I said taking a sip of my whiskey. he sat down next to me sighing.

" Blake,you need to be strong for both of you, besides,I don't think she blames you,if she did then she would have told you,you know her.". he said and I looked at him,my head spinning a bit.

"I hate Lucy so much,I want to kill her."I said standing up ready to leave.

"Where are you going?" he asked me standing up too.

"I am going to kill that b**ch."I stormed out of the office ready to kill.

"s**t,Blake stop,you can't do that while you are drunk." he said running after me.

"What's going on?" the voice said that I could identify as Luke's.

"Just help me with him,hurry up."Simon said running after me into the dungeons.

"Don't f**k with me Simon, leave me the f**k alone,I am going to kill that sl*t." I said as Simon got hold of me,Luke joined and some of the guards joined too.my wolf was ready to kill.

"Alpha calm down, please calm down." Luke said holding me tightly against the wall. I growled loudly taking deep breaths.

"Please calm down Alpha." Simon said as he saw me calming down, their grip on me loosened and I stormed out of the dungeons huffing. I went up to my room and sat on the bed angrily.

"Uncle Blake,where is momma.?" Ellie asked entering my room.i sat up straight looking at her.

"Ellie please call me daddy my angel ok?" I asked holding her hands.

"Are you my daddy?" she asked and I nodded my head yes.

"Ok daddy,can we please visit momma." she asked innocently.

"I also want to visit momma my angel but........."

"Please daddy,I want to see momma." she begged me and I sighed.

"Ok angel,but momma is angry with daddy,so I will just take you there and leave,then pick you up again later." I said and she smiled hugging me,it was an innocent hug but it meant more to me,that she accepts me as her dad.

We found Aggie in the bathroom and we sat down waiting for her, she came back wearing tracksuit,her hospital gown folded neatly.

"Momma!" Ellie said running towards her and hugging her,you would swear that they have taken a week without seeing each other,I smiled gently.

"My love,how is my big girl doing?" Aggie asked smiling widely at her.

"Am good,but daddy said you are angry,why are you angry momma?" she said and Aggie looked at me frowning.

"Daddy?" she asked still looking at me.

"Yes, daddy told me that he is my daddy." she answered her back playing with her hair.

"Ok baby,momma is not angry ok,she is just hurt." she said going back to her bed taking a small bag of clothes.

"I asked the doctor to discharge me today and he agreed,I signed the papers already and I was about to leave now." she said nonchalantly.

"Why didn't you tell me to come and help you pack up?" I asked taking the bag from her.

"I can do that by myself,it wasn't a big deal." she said taking Ellie's hand leaving and I followed. she was still weak so I held her free hand when we got outside.

"Can we please talk about this babe, please." I asked her after settling in our room.

"What's there to talk about?" she asked sitting on the bed.

"Baby,we have just had a miscarriage,that together with you being kidnapped." I answered her back trying to stay calm.

"And talking about it won't erase it,so what's the use?" she asked looking down at her hands.

"F**k Agnes you are so stubborn."I said pinching the bridge of my nose.

"Then leave me alone Blake. I am not forcing you to be here,am I?" she asked looking back up at me.

"How are we supposed to get over this if instead of talking about it and letting it pass we fight like some crazy couple?" I said frustrated.

"Blake you are drunk,you left me at the hospital to go and drink and I didn't stop you,I also want to sleep,please don't stop me." she said getting into bed and pulling the blankets over her head. Woman are so confusing sometimes,she asked me to leave her alone,I left and now she is angry that I left her when she asked me to. I sighed loudly throwing myself on the bed,I pulled her to me and she sobbed lowly without pushing me away.

"I am sorry baby, I truly am." I whispered into her ear. "I promised we will get over this, together." she hugged me tightly as her sobs intensified. I let her cry until she couldn't anymore.

"Do you think that we will get pregnant again?" she asked hiccuping.

"Do you want to get pregnant again?" I asked chuckling softly.

"I would like to have at least four kids." she said and I smiled at that,this woman is amazing.

"How did you know that I want four kids?" I asked.

"That's good then because I want to get pregnant as soon as possible." she said giggling softly.

"As soon as your health is back to normal,we will start with that." I said kissing her head.

"Am sorry, I was rude to you."she apologized.

"I understand babe, don't worry about it."I said,

"I love you."she said.

"I love you more babe,get some rest,I want you to get well soon so that we can start making babies." I said chuckling and she giggled before closing her eyes and sleep.