When She Cries

Stage One: Attraction and Romance

Attraction and Romance, other people call it the Fantasy Phase, others refer it as the Honeymoon phase, it is because your partner can seem so perfect at this time. How long? It depends. Both of you focus on your similarities and ignoring your flaws, you spend a lot of time together, and you don't only avoid conflict but it seems like it's not gonna happen at all.

" Don't find Love, Let Love find you. That's why it's called falling in Love because you don't force yourself to fall, you just fall. ~ and yes folks, after years of looking I finally found the one. Once again this is Bella, thanks for watching, Ciao!"

Turned my camera off, I am filming my Q and A vlog, a lot of viewers were asking with regards to my posts on i********:. Gino and I are now official, officially dating. You heard that right, this couple of days after our second meet during my birthday, we spend most of our spare time together. Our favorite past time is to go on trips, be closer to nature. We had the same interest which is to travel. We both wanted no labels, and just simply enjoy each other's company.

I had discovered a lot of things about him. That he works abroad for most of his years, that he wasn't really in a real commitment he was used to dating different women every week, but one thing that greatly surprises me, is that he looks a lot younger than his age, I am currently 26 years old and he was 13 years older than me. I never dated someone with that age gap. But age is just a number right. Maybe I was really destined for someone older than me, someone who can handle relationships than I do. I have to admit, I'm not really a fan of commitments after my last break up. I see myself as someone so immature, who doesn't even know her priorities, who doesn't even figure out what she wants, I'm just enjoying life as it is. I have a stable job, a hobby which I enjoyed, and I am surrounded with much love from family and friends. But when I am with him, all of these flaws and negative personalities which I believe I have, are just gone. He overlooked and loved my imperfections. Gino had inspired me to become a better version of me. To be passionate about everything that I do.

Today we are going out on a trip to celebrate our 2 months of exclusive friendship, with no labels, no commitment, no pressure. We are set to visit another hidden gem in our town, Camotes Island, " The Lost Horizon of the South."

I heard my phone ringing, hurriedly picked it up. " Hello, Okay, I'll be down in a sec, just have to pack my camera.", I then hanged up my phone, grabbed my things, and went downstairs.

Gino was standing right outside, smiling back at me, wearing his white shirt tucked in his nautical printed shorts. He looks so cool with his Ray-Ban aviator shades and his kick-ass cap on. I slowly approached him, " Why do you have to dress up my age?" I laughed.

" It doesn't mean if I'm in my late 30's I have to dress like one, right? You don't have to compliment me, I can already see it in your eyes that I did rock this outfit." Gino jokingly said, grabbed my camera bag, " Now let me get us a taxi, so we can catch the first trip. "

We are on our way to the island, it's a 3 hours trip to the place. As we arrived at our destination, we were captivated by how clear the waters are. The place is not only known for its great beaches, but also for its natural caves, lakes, and falls that connects you to the raw beauty of nature. I can't wait to start our adventure on this beautiful island of Camotes.

We rented a motorcycle and went to the resort, Santiago White Beach. As soon as we unpacked our things, we started exploring the island. We had our itinerary planned already, we visited a lot of places and get to appreciate the beauty of the island. But what made it more special, is I'm sharing this trip with him. I made sure to capture not only the scenic views of the place but the memories as well. This was our first trip together, alone, and hopefully will not be our last.

On our last day in Camotes, we strolled along the beach of our resort. We walked along in the wide stretch of beach shoreline, it was high tide it made it look like a huge swimming pool.

He grabbed my hand and we sat by the fine sand, " You are a successful vlogger, you have a stable job as a customer service representative, did you once think of working abroad?" he randomly asked.

" Well, I thought of it before, as a licensed nurse, there are vast opportunities abroad, but when I was able to find my career in the online world, and have this job, the idea slowly drifts apart." I replied, " why do you ask?"

" Just a random question, out of curiosity, since personally, I don't really see myself working here long term. But do you consider the thought that maybe one day, with the right opportunity, you're gonna take it and leave the country?" He replied back.

" I guess so, we'll never know" I leaned my head on his shoulder.

" You know what Bella, I really enjoyed this, us being us. No worries, just fun. However, we can't just be like this forever. I know you have dreams, so as I, and to be honest as much as I love my work, I don't really see myself settling with it for keeps." He held my hand, and looked straight to my eyes, " I'll be honest, the company I had been working before, offered me a job. I was pretty sure, with no hesitation, I'll take it, but things change when the day we meet. It seems like something is holding me back."

" You don't have to think about me, I'll be more happy to support you with that. I don't wanna be the reason that you're holding back from your dreams. I know, that it may mean that we have to be apart, but the technology today, It won't really be that hard right?" I said.

" But if the time comes I decide to go back working abroad, can you consider the thought of coming with me?" He leaned towards me, and kiss me softly on my lips, " I know it has been only 2 months Bella, but I can't really control these emotions inside me, I know that you are the answers to my prayer. I have dated a lot of women, but none of them compares to you. I don't wanna lose you. "

He caught me off guard, I was just completely staring at him as he was talking. I can see the sincerity in his face but I'm not really sure if he knows what he was talking about. He barely talked about the possibility of building our futures together, does this mean that he wanted to take our relationship to the next level? The possibility of commitment scares me, especially when he asked me to go with him wherever he goes. Am I really ready to give up my career here in my country, and try to build a career in some place else?

" Stop talking, and just kiss me," He moves towards me, his face close to mine and started to press his lips against mine. We kiss under the moonlight, with the sound of waves at our feet. That moment was perfect, I don't have to worry about that now. I'll just be leaving it to fate, or where this will take us.