For Better Or For Worse (Sashay)

Chapter Seventeen

S H A Y

As I screamed my lungs out, I felt as if every single pair of eyes were on me. You could say I was used to the attention but this time is different. I wasn't making a scene to entertain them, I was making it because I needed to get my wife back, whether or not it is under their judging and scrutinizing looks.

"Sasha," I began slowly and silently, as if a wrong move could make a bomb explode. "I know I hadn't been the best wife to you, but you know I love you. I love you, and our kids, and I could never be thankful enough for such blessings like you guys.

But..." I gulped. "You can't do this. You don't want to. I love you. Okay? There is nothing I wouldn't do for you.

Funny how earlier, I said that today is where you looked the best your whole life, when all along, I was wrong. I was wrong because babe, you looked your prettiest the day we got married. Remember? It was on the beach, there were twinkle lights everywhere, and you had this pretty, yellow dress with flowers and you wore a hairband. Our whole family was there. We were married by the shore. There were waves and they were soothing and we loved every second of it. Remember? When we were saying our vows, you told me you would never stop trying..."

By then, Sasha's eyes were filled with tears and I couldn't care less to what other people think. I know that this moment was for me and her and for us only. Her lip trembled as she decided on something. The whole world gasped as Sasha, with tear-streaked cheeks, whispered as a reply the words, "I would never stop watching as you leave."

With a happy smile, along with a waterfall of tears, I continued, "You would never stop losing your breath-"

"Everytime I see you looking back at me."

"And you would never stop holding my hand."

"I would never stop opening your door."

And we whispered together, shaky and sobbing, "I would never stop choosing you babe, I would never get used to you..."

Then everything happened so fast that my eyes couldn't even process what was going on. But I remember Sasha hiking up her dress and running to me, straight into my arms. I remember Avery and Ashley, grinning as they ran after Sasha. I remember a passionate and loving kiss that Sasha gave me. I remember Hudson falling on the floor to his knees. I remember tuning everything out as I leaned my forehead against hers, whispering, "I love you Sasha."

"I love you too." She replied, touching my cheek.

Without a care to whoever was looking at us, we grabbed each other's and our kids' hands, and slowly walked away as if we were just strolling by.

***

"Ugh. That's just bad." Sasha groaned as I made another attempt at making a Dad joke.

"No. It's really good." I said in a cocky tone. She and Avery scrunched their noses up and Ashley giggled.

"See? Ashley likes my joke." I poked her stomach. "Was it good sweetheart?" I asked her.

"No, Mom. It was horrible." Ashley said with an eyeroll.

I stuck my bottom lip up in a pout and pretended that I was really hurt by what they said.

"Mom, come on. You know it was bad." Avery retorted.

"'How do you make a goldfish age?' Really, Shannon?" Sasha cut in with a teasing glare.

"You love everything that comes out of my mouth." I retorted.

"Mm. This is true." She smiled.

She was lying on the bed on her back and I leaned in, giving her a loving kiss. Ash and Aves covered their eyes.

"Ew. No kissy! You can do that later!" Ashley shrieked with a laugh.

"I can't help it, I missed her." I pouted.

"Well," Sasha said, sitting up. "If you guys are done watching Adventure Time and interrupting our alone time, you can go to bed."

"Aw..." They dragged.

"Nuh-uh. Bed. Now." Sasha slapped their butts as they stood up from our bed.

Sasha helped them out the room and after negotiating with Avery by the doorway, she gave in and tucked them into bed. I chuckled to myself and I realized that everything is going normal so fast and I couldn't help but love the pace we're going through. I hastily stood up and followed them to the twin's room, where Sasha was probably telling them a story.

I peeked out on the door as I reached their room. I could faintly hear Sasha's reassuring voice and Angel's whimpers through the loud heavy rain. I saw Sasha stand up and kiss Avery's head, whispering something to him. Avery nodded and reached out for her, she gave her a huge hug and said goodnight.

Sasha was a bit surprised to see me standing there with a soft look in my eyes. She cradled my cheek -which apparently, she loves to do- and stood on tippy toes to kiss my forehead. She connected our lips and wrapped her arms around my waist.

I deepened our kiss by shifting my head in angle, licking her lower lip for entrance. She gladly obeyed and my tongue slithered inside her mouth, massaging her tongue. Her arms switched from my waist to my neck and she gently traced circles using her forefinger. I put my hand on her butt and she used it as leverage to wrap her legs around my waist and I carried her to our room.

Once we were inside, I went over to our bed and I gently laid her down, giving her forehead a kiss as I stood up. I locked the door and I slipped under the comforter next to her. We continued our make-out session which was getting hotter by the second.

I unbuttoned her pajama top and slipped it off her shoulders slowly and gently, taking tiny sips of her creamy skin on each inch I reveal. I looked at Sasha as I ran my hand on her now bare shoulder but her eyes were screwed shut as if she was savoring every touch and kiss I give her.

"Sasha, do you...want this?" I asked with shyness.

Her eyes slowly opened and her eyes that were always cerulean blue now turned into a dark shade of grey, clouded with lust and love.

"I've been waiting for this for a long time." She whispered.

"Yes, you've waited...but tell me, do you want it?"

"With every piece of my heart, Shannon." She said with a nod. "Take me."

I leaned in closer to her neck and lightly sucked on it, leaving a purple mark. Sasha groaned as she looked down and noticed it. "Shay..." She whined.

I shrugged unapologetically and proceeded to do it again on her breast so I reached out behind her and she arched her back, letting me snap her bra open. I slid it out of her body and I stared at it with awe. I've never seen such a perfect woman in all my life. Only she will have this effect on me.

I kissed the spot under her belly button and sucked my way up her right breast, leaving another hickey just below it. "You're mine, okay?" I whispered. She nodded in response and pushed my head back into her chest. I took her right n****e in my mouth and she groaned, arching her back a little. I reached for her left n****e and I pinched it, earning another groan from her. Eventually, I had my fill of her breasts and released her hardened n****e with a pop.

I peeled my oversized shirt off me and her hands found their way to my pajamas, fumbling on the hem and tugging it off me. Once it was discarded and gone, she smirked at the sight in front of her.

"Going commando?" She teased.

I playfully rolled my eyes at her and went to remove her sweatpants from underneath the comforter. She wiggled out of it before I could even slide it down her legs properly, but I wasn't complaining. She needs this more than I do. I ran my hands down her sides and she squirmed, bucking her hips upward, desperate for friction.

"Shay...please, baby. Take me, I'm all yours." She pleaded.

"Be patient." I whispered, sucking on the spot below her jaw.

"Shay...just-please!" She whimpered.

I gave in and hooked my fingers on the hem of her panties, dragging it down her smooth, soft legs. She whimpered and pulled me up to her lips, kissing me deeply. I took her flustered state as a signal to shove a finger inside her, making her gasp and grip the bedsheets.

I pumped harder and faster, making her wetter and allowing me to enter another finger. Soon enough, she was a panting and sweating mess underneath me. I placed gentle kisses on her neck and licked my way down her belly button. Her walls clenched as well as her jaw and she husked, "I'm close."

I huffed and went faster, until she screwed her eyes shut, arched her back and toppled her way over to Cloud Nine. She released a high-pitched moan that vaguely sounds like my name, given that it was very incoherent.

I flopped onto the mattress when Sasha's breathing became stable once again. She snuggled closer to me and released a contented sigh.

"I love you, Shay." She said, kissing my chest.

I looked down at her, grinning. I noticed that we were both sweaty and tired but to me, she was still perfect.

So as her eyes fluttered, indicating that she was on the verge of passing out, I whispered with all my heart the words, "I love you too, Sasha. So, so much."

Then I kissed her forehead goodnight.