Andy tried to be calm
Beatrice had told Andy that whenever he got nervous about the podcast, he should come to The Self Pub and sit inside the control room and play around with the knobs to get a feel for it. He was still upset about the fight at Ground Zero a few days ago, not sure whether it was because of the violence, or his friend’s indifference to it. Andy just felt sad.
He had some good days and others that were not so good. When he felt as depressed as he did today, he wanted to curl into a ball. He wished that there was a way to control his outlook. He tried to be optimistic, but the pain inside him made it difficult. On the worst days, his chest would hurt, his throat would feel like it was closing, and, of course, he would start to worry about the planet leaving its orbit. His
