Gillian is prickly as hell. She isn’t likely to forgive the fact that we’ve talked maybe twice in the last four years. Sue-Lin moved back to Hong Kong. Cindy got married and had a kid. The last thing I need is to rope a child into this mess. Madeline would be a good bet, but the last I heard from her was a mass text where she told everyone she was getting rid of her phone. She was on a Buddhism kick, and I have no idea if she’s still on it. I ignore Dustin’s name at first, but by the third time I see it, things are bleak enough that I linger there. He and I had a fling our freshman year. We stayed friends after we ended things, but it feels wrong somehow to call up an ex-boyfriend to ask for help. If I rule him out, then I’m s**t out of luck. But I just can’t bring myself to do it.

