We meet Again

LONELY

Tears kept streaming down, Eric's face. Ocean kept staring at him, not knowing what to say to him.

It's been years now and Ocean felt like he was looking at his old self.

"I'm so sorry, I didn't mean for this to happen. I never expected this to happen, that I was going to fall in love with you. I can't help it, I really can't help it. I'm so sorry, that I had to confess my feelings for you, I'm sorry.' Eric kept sobbing and Ocean didn't know what to say and just kept staring at him. Ocean and Eric both met at a gay club. Ocean wanted to try new things out after being celibate for so long, he couldn't help it and wanted to try new things out and escape his boring lifestyle. He graduated from high school and got admission into a university with Makai. They both got along and enjoyed the school life on campus. There was one thing, Ocean couldn't forget about Ethan. There was a day, he saw someone that looked exactly like Ethan. He threw away his books on the floor and ran rapidly towards, the person and as soon as he held the person's shoulder and the person turned his head and glared at Ocean, snd that was when Ocean knew that It wasn't Ethan. But, the person looked exactly like him, he missed him so much and what they had together and he wondered if they had stayed together more often, will he still missed him, the way he misses him now. God, he loves him so much. Throughout his school life, Ethan was always on his mind and how could he handle that. Makai thought it was strange about Ocean's behaviour, the way he normally behaved wasn't the way he behaves now. But, he decided to get patient and see for himself, what was bothering Ocean. They both graduated from the university with flying colours. Ryan and Shawna came along for the graduation too, since they didn't apply for the same school with Ocean and Makai. Ocean's mother was so proud of her sons and how successful they've become and they've made her proud. But, Ocean's mother noticed how strange her son was acting towards her, although he did everything he asked her to do and greets her every morning. He was still not the same cheerful person, he used to be and he was more quiet than usual. She asked him if there was anything wrong with him, Ocean said that they was nothing wrong with him and no matter how she tried to convince him to talk to her, he still insisted that there was nothing wrong with him. They both went on, as the days, weeks, and years went by. After Ocean graduated from school, he applied for a job and got it instantly, which pays a big amount of money. Ocean was able to rent his apartment since his house was far away from the workplace and renting his tment will give him time for himself and figure out, what he wants and how to plan for himself.

Months passed, every day Ocean comes back from work, enters his apartment, take his bath, eat his dinner and thought of what to do, the next day, including signing and filling up some documents.

One day, one of his colleagues at work wanted him to go to a bar with him. Since they now as in that, he agreed to go out with him and what surprised him was that it was a gay club.

"What are we doing here,' Ocean asked. He never knew, there was something like this around here, he kept looking at the whole place.

"Quit it. I know you are gay and there is no denying that Ocean,' his colleague said as he winked at him.

"How did you know,' Ocean asked, was he that transparent. He was not so sure about that, even his best friend doesn't know his s****l orientation, despite the years they stayed together and no matter how he tried to tell him about it. The words ended up being stuck in his mouth and he walks away without saying a thing to Makai. He's not even sure Ryan or Shawna knows about it, despite them being so close to them. Guess, he hid it so well and tried not to make it so obvious about it.

"I'm gay too, so I can know when someone's gay,' Miguel said.

"You are kidding, right. Just say, you are..."

"No! I'm not kidding and I know what I'm saying.'

"Wait a sec. You mean, you are..."

"Exactly, and I've always seen you, the way you look at some people's butt and there's that want in you and especially men,' he still winked. "You don't give a f**k about those ladies drooling over you and you always try your best to avoid them,' he proudly said. And, fold both arms on his chest.

"But, that doesn't mean or rather tell that I'm gay,' Ocean said, as he rolled his eyes at Miguel.

"Oh. Should I go further..."

Ocean shook his head. "I think, you don't know what you are talking about, I have some documents to fill first thing in the morning. I don't have time for all this,' he said and began walking away and what Miguel said, stopped him.

"How about we have a one night stand, Ocean?'

"What!!!!

"You see since you've started working in the office and especially on the first day I saw you. I've always wanted you on my bed and I guess you know what that means. You are twenty-eight years old and this is not your first time having s*x isn't it.' He said and walked forward towards Ocean and looked at him with both hands in his pocket.

"So, you've been watching me and to the extent of even finding out my age, and I'm even surprised you are gay with the way you flirt with ladies all the time,'

"Oops, sorry my bad. I'm bisexual and not gay. So, should we lodge a motel,'

"Why do you want to sleep with me, Miguel?'

"You are sexy, Ocean.' He answered and smiled.

Ocean sighed, as he thought about the whole thing. He's a bit lonely right now and he is twenty-eight years old. It's been a long time, he's got laid and this proposal was surprising and good too. Come to think of it, the company was and nobody was staying with him or visiting him at the moment. Makai was always busy with work and comes over whenever he's free, including Shawna and Ryan. The three of them are working and so busy too. Maybe, he needed some company and besides he's been stressed lately. He always releases himself in his room or the bathroom almost all the time imagining Ethan in his head and sometimes watches gay p**n too, to release himself. Most of the time it was Ethan. That's how it had always been for him, all these years.