LILA'S POV
Last night was a f*****g disaster.
I barely got an hour of sleep, my mind is is a f*****g mess, exhaustion, and the haunting image of Derrick lying in that hospital bed made me almost insane.The second I got off work, I rushed straight to the hospital to be with him.
Ava, sweet angel that she is, practically shoved me out this morning, insisting I go home and rest before work. She knew something was up. I could see it in her eyes, the concern, the silent demand for answers. And f**k, I wanted to tell her.
But how do you explain something when you can't even say it out loud? When the shame sits so f*****g deep in your bones, you feel like it's choking you?
Exactly. You don't.
My eyes burn, raw and puffy from a sleepless night. Ava had taken a whole month off work to stay wi
