Our Story

Our Story: Drawing the Line

I can't believe that Shin is standing in front of me.

Be still, my heart. I reminded myself.

I tried my very best to ignore my thoughts about him in my mind but now, how dare this man to show up in front of me today.

"Alone?" He asked.

I didn't answer right away. I don't know what to say. I'm just stupidly staring at him.

"Andie? Are you okay? You look pale." He looks worried.

He is about to touch my forehead but I stopped him.

"Yeah, I'm fine. I'm with my mom. I'm just waiting for her." I said looking to a different direction.

"Oh really? I thought you don't feel okay. I saw you outside of this shop and I just wanted to make sure if it was really you. Do you always go here? Nice to see you. 'you take care okay?! Bye!" Then he left.

And just by that. He stole my heart once again. How can this man take my heart with him? How can he act normally when my heart is beating crazy by just talking to him?

Well, he doesn't have a feelings for you stupid girl. I thought to myself.

"Sorry to keep you waiting Ands. The line in the restroom is terribly long."

"It's okay mom. Where are we going next?" I asked.

Seeing Shin changed my mood. I want to a have a walk and destruct myself again. The line that I drew between us is somehow fading out again and I need to re-draw it and guard myself better.

It seems like it was a long day for me. We left the mall when it's nearly closing. Mom couldn't keep up with my energy and I feel sorry for her. We went to a different shops checking and trying things without buying anything from them. We got what we need anyway. I'm sure my mother thinks I'm acting weird.

After taking my shower, I lay down in my bed and check my phone. There are several messages from Jane and Bella. They are asking if I am free tomorrow. They are planning to hang out somewhere. I am not in the mood to go out but I need it to destruct myself. After chatting with them we have agreed to meet in the tea shop tomorrow to decide for a much better place to go.

I look forward for tomorrow. I can't wait to see Jane and Bella. Being an only child, it makes me happy when I have someone my age doing the things I like. I love being with my mom. She is definitely the best mom in the whole wide world for me. But sometimes, its refreshing to have someone whom you can share your thoughts, feelings and ideas and be assured that you are on the same page.

I made a mental note of buying something for my mom tomorrow. I want to give her something special as a gift. There are lots of items running in mind. She deserve more than a little gift for raising me alone since my father passed away when I was thirteen. Those were the darkest time of my life. I saw how my mother stretch her time just to work on our small business and at the same time take care of me. Because of her, our business remained in place. I almost gave up on my studies so I can help her but she gets mad whenever I asked for her permission to drop school. I can't do anything for her during that time. That's why I strive harder so I can return all my momma's sacrifices for me.

Those are the things I have in my mind when I finally drifted to sleep.