The Last Star

Hurting from within

The Last Star

Chapter 4

Selene's point of view

I sat on my bed, thinking. If I had ever fulfilled my responsibilities, in life.

Was I a good sister? Daughter? Friend? Well, I can atleast answer that last one, I don't have friends. To be frank, I didn't want to have friends.

I thought it was irrelevant and that it was a waste of feelings and I was wrong.

That made me lonely, I had no one to love, I gave everything to my mother, when she left. I fell, I collapsed.

I couldn't function for days, I was ashamed. I felt like that one girl, who nobody loved, and I felt that everyone pitied me.

How could I start over? I thought burrying myself in studies, music and business. My father hired this guy, his name was Trevor, taught me about business and responsibilities, up until now, I refused to go about my day without him.

But, Sapphire, I feel bad for her. I thought I was there for her whenever she needed me, but I neglected her and did it again, burried myself in responsibilities. I thought solving all my problems, would make my life better, that was nothing but a dirty mindset witch was set by my dad.

One thing, that my dad taught me, was being competent, and he made me a fighter, which I both love, and hate.

Sometimes, I love being competent and fierce, being the star of every show. But being competent can result in losing yourself.

My mom told us this story, it was about a boy and a girl, both their parents were evil and were forcing them apart. One of them broke and hurt herself, when the boy realized, they thought of a plan. They didn't want to suffer anymore.

One day, the sun was setting, they were holding hands and was sitting on a bridge near the lake, they looked at each other, then jumped. They didn't find their bodies, but instead found two doves. Finally, they were at peace.

It wasn't a very nice story, love has it's limits.

I think their love reached a point where they did anything for each other. Love 'till death is a stupid vow.

Anyways, what's the point of loving someone? Does it benefit both sides? How does it feel? Is it really what it says on the novels? You see, I found these Earth novels on my father's bookshelf. They say love will make your heart flutter. It's utterly fictional.

Love is nothing but something humans created for coping with other problems. The brain creates the sense of love, the heart doesn't. Love is nothing but something RIDICULOUS!

*Sighs*

Well, I'm not wrong, take Romeo and Juliet for example. It's so stupid! Dying for love, that's so fake. And if anything, Titanic was the one book I never liked. There were clearly enough space for the two of them. So ridiculously stupid.

I mean, with all this self-reflecting, I feel like I can be a spokesperson, I should be on TedTalk.

Oh, yeah, I saw tapes on dad's drawers and they were Ted Talks, like inspiring people who had gone through something bad and they broadcast their talks online. It's pretty gnarly.

On second thought, I haven't been through anything too traumatic. Like, near-death experience.

I should probably stop this deep thinking and get going. People are probably going bonkers thinking where I had gone. You know what? I feel like I have a little more time to fit some clothes.

Okay... what about this? A chanel handbag? I heard that's pretty expensive. Well you see, this is a pretty event here on the moon, it's broadcasted through the whole solar system. I wonder what I should wear. Something glistening? Or maybe something that would make me shine but not cover my face. I wouldn't want to be a light bulb.

It's pretty nice having a day alone, but wait... I feel like I'm missing something. RIGHT! I was suppose to go to the meeting with the Minstar, wait, what's his real name? Some say it's Jeremy, maybe Lincoln. WAIT WAIT, I have to focus on the task at hand. I need to dress up and go to that meeting.

Hey Minstar, what's the problem? Oh, is there any updates on my dad?

No, I'm afraid that's what we're talking about today. He's wanted, for arrest, we haven't found out all of his crimes but, what we have right now can get him more than 50 years in prison. Might as well be a lifetime in prison. Right now, his lawyers are trying to defend his reputation.

Writer here!: Hello, yes, the justice system works the same like on Earth. So, yeah.

*Continue*

So, what crimes did he commit?

Right now, we have, fraud, money laundering, attempted murder, assault, illegal trading, breaking and entering and first degree murder, which means the murder was premeditated and intentional.

His phone suddenly rings....

I'm sorry, I have to take this, bye..

Honestly, I was trying to act tough. I was heartbroken.

How could he do all this? Murder?! Even Money Laundering?! Breaking and Entering?

My father would scold me if I took a step on someone's backyard without their permission.

Hitting someone a bit too hard would be something I would get scolded for. Him even murdering someone, was it for me.

He's a liar and everything he told me not to do. He did, he forced me on this throne and made me queen without a warning. He's a monster for this. He's not worth being a father. He's a disgrace to me, as his daughter.

I cried, bawled my eyes out. Crying is good for the soul.

I was smiling.

That's because I was hurting from within.

This agony, I'm feeling. It was different from the one I had this morning. I was happy and out-going. Now, I'm in bed, crying and screaming curse words at my own father. This isn't me?