The Lost memories

Chapter 1

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It's been 3 months since i was in an accident but i can't seem to remember what it was but it must be serious as i can not remember much and my side is covered in one big scar which i am pretty self conscious about but that's not the only thing i can't seem to stop having these horrible nightmares when ever i try to to fall asleep all i can see is smoke and a vivid face but i can't seem to make it out to tell who it is it's so frustrated my life i like a movie it doesn't feel real at all today is my first day back to college after everything that has happened to me "Alice come down stair please" i heard being yelled from the bottom of the stair i made my way down the stairs and made my way to the kitchen "Honey are you sure you are feeling up to it" i couldn't stop myself from laughing 'Mum i haven't been back for 3 months now i think its time to go back' "I know honey but i can't stop myself from worrying about you" I smiled 'i know mum but i am fine now' i lost my memories but i have got some of them back i remember that i am studying at college my mum and my one friend who was visiting me when i was in hospital everyday but i have a feeling there is more people to remember, but anything else is a blur to me.

'Mum what's for breakfast' she looked at me with a confused look on her face "Honey your pancakes are in front of you" i felt embarrassed sometimes i can forget little things like this 'Oh yeah thank you' after i finished my breakfast i made my way to my room to get ready for my first day back at college i when straight to the shower i turned on the water and let the water run down my body once i was finished in the shower i made my way to my room to find something to wear i grabbed and pair of jeans and a rose jumper and a pair of black vans once i was ready i made my way down stairs to meet my mum as shes was the one who was dropping me off today the my nerves was starting to kick in i made my way to the living room to grab my bag and phone as it was charging "Alice are you ready to leave now" 'Yeah let's go' my mum grabbed her car keys and we made our way to her car i couldn't help the sinking feeling like i was about to pass out or something even though i am the same person and going back to the same place it feels like i am a stranger in my own head and this is all some kind of crazy dream i can't wake up from that has me trapped i felt a hand on my shoulder "Are you sure your up for going back to college" i thought about what my mum just said and if i was honest i wasn't but i can't stay at home forever i smiled at her 'Yeah i am fine just a bit nervous that's all' she looked worried but hid it well "Okay hun if your sure lets go" my mum started the car and we made our way to my i felt like i was going to have a panic attack i started to have them after my accident my phone went off. i looked at my phone it was my friend i totally forgot that she was going to meet me outside college today as it was my going to be my first day back after what has happened.

Beep Beep Beep..

PEARL: Hey Alice, how are you feeling?

ALICE: Hey Perl, So nervous

PEARL: Try not to worry i got your back

ALICE: Thanks

PEARL: Don't mention it. Where are you now?

Mum, how far away from college we are even though we remember that I am in college, but can't remember where it is. "We are 10 minutes away" 'Thanks.'

ALICE: We are 10 minutes away

PEARL: Okay then see ya soon

ALICE: Okay see ya

I looked out of the window watching the cars past I listening to the wind as it whistles through the air slowly this helps me a bit when i feel like i am going to have a panic attack my counsellor says when i feel anxious i should take deep breaths and listen out to my surroundings then that was when i saw a big building then we stopped so this must be my college its so big i am for sure going to get lost in here if i am not careful "Alice we are here now" i felt so sick because now it's so surreal and we are actually outside the building 'Okay mum lets go' we got out of the car i needed my mum by my side unit i meet Perl then i will feel a bit better about this whole situation we walked to the front of the building to meet i could feel that people was looking at me i don't know if it was because i was back or it its because i had my mum by my side i didn't like it i wanted to run back to the car but no i have to do this for myself i can't hide away for every can i.

I saw someone running towards me. She had short brown hair. I couldn't make out the face. She was close, then I saw it was Pearl. She hugged me so tight and for so long. "OMG! Alice, I have missed you so much I thought you would have forgotten me forever", I smiled in the beginning. I did forget everyone when I had the accident, but they would come and visit me when I was in hospital with pictures I could remember them. It was hard at first, but after that I started to remember their faces and not everything, but all i do know is that Perl was one of my best friends. 'How could I not remember you coming to see me every day?' We both laughed. I feel better now, a bit better now "Hey hun, I need to go now... I hugged my mum. Thank you for bringing me today. You had to take a day off work. Because she smiled, you don't need to thank me. I am your mum. I will always be there for you. I will pick you up later. Okay, she gave me a kiss on the cheek and looked after my daughter Pearl. "Don't worry, I will". With that, she left and that's when my day really began.

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