Challenge (MxM) (COMPLETED)

Chapter Fourteen- Pushing Limits

Chapter Fourteen-

Dax

I loved Noel and I's scene. I got to push his limits farther than I have before and he never used his safeword either. I was surprised that he didn't because it's definitely more intense than the other ones we've done. Now we're in my office.

Noel is still pased out from earlier. I cleaned him up and put some clothes on him before carrying him in here. I needed to do work. I asked one of the employees to wash the sheets. They don't question it anymore. They've had to deal with way worse than pee. It was cute to see Noel get embarrassed for once.

"Dax? You in here?" Andrew asks, walking in without bothering to knock.

I sigh and put down the papers I was looking at. Andrew is the kind of friend that you've had for so long that you can't get rid of them no matter how annoying they are. We've been close for a very long time, and we've even fooled around a few times. We mutually agreed that it wouldn't work out, but now we're stuck with each other.

"What do you want, parasite?" I grumble, leaning back in my seat as he sits in the one across from my desk.

He looks over at Noel, smirking when he sees him passed out on the couch. "You f**k him too hard or something?"

"It's none of your business."

"That's a yes." Andrew pints out, smiling widely when I glare.

After a moment, he gets a more serious look and crosses his arms over his chest. "You love him, don't you?"

"I do. Why?" I get more serious as well. Andrew is never serious, so when he is, I know that it's important.

"I heard from Soda Pop that he's a bit of a w***e-"

"Don't f*****g call him that. No shaming-"

"I'm not slut shaming him as a sub. I'm slut shaming him as my best friend's new boyfriend. I just want you to be sure that he's not like Elian before you get too serious." Andrew explains.

"It's too late for that." I admit, glancing over at him. "It's serious already. If he told me that he wanted me to fly to Vegas and marry him right now, I would. You know when you feel so strongly about someone that you're sure it's the best thing you'll ever have and then someone else comes along that makes you question everything you thought you felt before? I never thought I'd love anyone after Elian, but I clearly hadn't met Noel."

"How do you know he's not going to cheat?"

"I don't. I trust him though. I really do. He's nothing like Elian. Noel is strong, confident, outgoing, and open. He's like the breath of fresh air that I didn't know I needed."

Andrew shrugs and leans back in the chair. "Elian may not have been all of that, but I'm sure you loved him. First of all, the kid was sexy. Anyone with two eyes could see that, but he had a s**t personality from the start. He was timid yet cocky at the same time. He was boring and judgemental and he tried to get you to stop being friends with me."

"You sound like you want to f**k him or something. He's attractive, yes, but everyone I date is attractive. It takes more than just being hot to have a good relationship."

"Obviously. I'm just saying that even though he was all of that, you still loved him. You introduced him to your family and took your house key back from me when he moved in with you. He must've meant something."

"He did. It doesn't matter anymore because he obviously didn't love me the way I loved him." I mumble, trying not to let it get to me.

It's been a while, but it's hard to talk about. I did love Elian. Looking back on it, I'm not sure why I was so head over heels for him. Andrew is right though. I practically ditched him for Elian.

To think I gave so much of myself to someone who didn't have a shred of love for me just hurts.

After I found out that he'd been cheating on me, it's like my whole world was crashing down and all of the feelings of self doubt I had when I was living worth my parents came back. No matter how I frame it, it still seems like it's my fault. He wouldn't have cheated on me if I had been enough for him.

"Don't think about it. That annoying little brat isn't worth it. Besides, you've got a new one that's way better." Andrew informs me, glancing at Noel as he shifts on the couch. After a second, he opens his eyes and sits up, wiping them with the backs of his hands.

"Did you have a good nap?" I ask him, checking over his body and facial expression to see if he's okay.

"Yeah it was alright. Uh... what were you guys talking about?" He asks, looking off to the side with the same look on his face that he gets whenever someone mentions Elian.

"How much did you hear?" I ask knowingly. I don't like when people eavesdrop, but I guess it's not really his fault.

"Well, I wasn't really-"

"Rule Nine."

He sighs softly and looks down at his lap. "The whole thing, Master. Sorry for listening, but I just didn't want to interrupt and then you started talking about that guy and I just... sorry."

"Andrew, could you..." I shoo him, and he nods, standing to excuse himself before leaving the room.

I turn to Noel who stare back at me for a moment before lowering his eyes. It's common for a sub not to keep eye contact with a dom, but it's not normal for Noel.

He's always seeing how many rules he can get away with breaking before I actually do something. Now he's so compliant. It's like he's trying too hard to be good. It doesn't seem like him.

It makes me sigh. "Talking about exes is never a good idea."

"He's more to you than some ex boyfriend from high school, Dax. You were going to marry him." Noel points out, glancing up at me.

"Alright. You have a good point. What do you want to know then?" I ask. I don't like talking about Elian. Nobody would want to talk about the guy that broke their heart into tiny pieces, but if it makes Noel feel better, then I'll happily do it.

"How long were you together?" He asks as I stand up and walk over to him to sit next to him.

I pull him into my lap and smile. "Two years. Almost three." I confess, kissing his cheek gently.

"He was your sub too?"

"Yes."

"And you're not a liar, right?"

"Where are you going with this?"

"You said that I'm the best sub you've ever trained. That means I'm better than he was. I just want you to say it." He admits, burying his face in my neck to leave a few kisses there.

"Yes, Noel. I was telling the truth and you're the best sub I've trained. Better than Elian too."

"How long did it take you to know that you really wanted to marry him?"

I pause, having to think back a few years. "Well I guess it was our 1 year anniversary. That was the first time I looked at him and thought I'd make him my husband some day. That didn't work out though."

I feel my eyes well up a bit, so I hug Noel tighter so that he can't see them. I feel bad. Crying to my boyfriend while talking about the moment I really fell in love with my ex fiancé. I don't want Noel to feel like he's not enough.

"It's okay, Dax. You can cry. He hurt you, and it's okay to feel that. Let it in so you can let it go." Noel suggests, not even attempting to see my tears. He just wraps his small arms around me to hold my larger body against him, petting my hair gently.

It's embarrassing. I'm supposed to be the one who's strong. I'm supposed to be the one protecting him, but instead he's here comforting me while I cry over some other guy.

Eventually, I stop crying. When I do, Noel pulls back so that he can wipe my tears and stare down at me with a comforting smile.

"He cheated on me. You know that, but I also gave him so many second chances. The first time I found out was a few months into our relationship. His ex had showed up in town or something and he slept with him. After talking about it, I decided to forgive him and give him another chance. A few days after our 1 year anniversary Andrew saw him on a date with some guy. He called me to yell at me for not telling him that we broke up. Come to find out that we didn't. I gave him another chance. I'm not sure why I kept giving him chances. Maybe I just didn't think I deserved anything more than that."

"You know I'd never hurt you like that, right? I'm not a cheater and I'll prove it to you. Even if you already believe and trust me." Noel assures me, pecking my lips a few times before holding my face in his hands. "You deserve so much more than you think, Dax. I'll take care of you."

"You know I'm the dom, right?"

"Yeah, well just because you tie me up and f**k me so hard that I see stars doesn't mean that I can protect you. You're my dom which means that I'm wholeheartedly yours. I'm your boyfriend, your lover, your submissive. I'm the warmth in your heart and the pain in your ass. Either way I'm yours. That means I get to be your protector too." He explains before pecking my lips again. "I swear I'll beat that guy up if I ever see him."

I feel my eyes water a bit, but do what I can to blink them back. I've been ignored and neglected my whole life. Anytime I was actually getting attention, it was all negative. The reason I became a dom is so that I could feel in control without the risk of trusting someone to care about me.

With other submissives they just accept my lead and never question it. They never thought about my deeper feelings, and they didn't need to either.

Noel though... he sees right through me. He wants to see me. He wants to gain my trust and take care of me. He wants to love me in a way I've never felt before. Honestly, I want that more than anything.

"Don't cry." He whispers, wiping my tears quickly with a worried look on his face. "Did I say something? I'm sorry."

"No. No, you're perfect." I assure him, wiping my face before swiftly picking him up. I leave the work on my desk and carry him towards the playroom. "Let's take a nap before we leave."

"Alright."