I Just Wanna Break Up

Unemployed with Internet

I quit my job again. I liked it there but at the same time, I didn't like it. Customers are always a headache that the only days I didn't have one was when I was training. It was much more fun then, you just watch and get excited. I got bored a after a few months again. I choose to work in the Big City 'cause everything other than work there is easier. Everything is just a few steps away (I guess that's why I don't thin down a bit).

Now that I don't have work, I went back home again cause it's cheaper and I don't get to do anything (literally because I'm always asleep and no one would wake me up). I have some money but my only priority is the internet. I've got quite a lot of books I can read here and on my phone. I don't think I can go by a day that I don't have an data since I'm prepaid and most of the people here are on prepaid.

And since I'm bored, and done almost everything I could think of on my phone, I downloaded a dating app. I could just look at the pictures and swipe right or left If I'm not interested on how they look. It's gets fun judging people sometimes. Good thing they don't know what I'm really thinking but I think they already know it because some people don't put their pictures up and just put their dog...not that I mind dating the dog instead.

I've already swiped left a couple of times and right on some. And there was this user Ray, he wasn't the best looking but it's okay cause his description seemed like he was an honest person. Although I was contemplating on swiping right because it might be hard to hurt such an honest person and also to leave that kind of person....but I swiped right anyway.

Just a couple of minutes layer, the app notified for a match and I checked who it was, it was Ray. I smiled and evil laughed a little cause I just do that sometimes, unconsciously. He left a message too.

"Hi"

"Hello :)"

"How are you?"

"Haha, I think I'm good. How about you?"

"Hahaha, you're not sure if you are? I'm quite fine thank you for asking"

"Haha, 'cause I don't think I am..."

"Hmmm"

"Haha"

"I guess everyone is"

"I know right..."

We kept chatting for a day and we just got along until I asked him about what his opinion on gays is ('cause most of my besties are gays and I want him to meet them).

"What are your opinions on gays?"

"Hmmm..."

"Really? You're thinking about it??"

"Haha, not so much. I'm not really fond of them."

"Oh! okay."

"Haha, why do you ask?"

"Nothing...nevermind-"

"Hey...What is it?"

"Nothing, just get on with what you're doing. k. bye."

"Hey, don't leave me hanging."

I just got upset and thought "Okay, we're not even meant to be friends. He's not even handsome, how could he say that. Haha, well....Whatever. Not chatting him anymore". Okay, maybe I'm a little bit short tempered or only want people with the same opinion. Look, I know, I'm kinda weird. He actually calls me that, "weird". I'm used to having these kinds of names.

Of course he still chatted me asking what happened, what did he say wrong and I got so full that I told him I don't like people whose not "fond" of gays. Well, it turns out that there's more to it and he's fine with them as friends a but not someone to date. We kept chatting again until it got to the point that I asked him:

"Haha, yeah. Do you think I'm gay?"

"Haha, not sure. Are you?"

"Ahh. Okay."

This is one of my trap questions, I'd usually unmatched them immediately 'cause when did I ever look gay? I'm 100% girl. Even my face says so. But I didn't do it. I was still contemplating on doing it. He's too fun to chat with. Why did play it this way? hmm. I have to think of something to make him talk again yet I couldn't think of anything and it was great because he messaged me first again. He's already getting used of my attitude. Kinda hard to think how could he cope up with me. Even I myself think I get annoying most times.

"Hey....did I do something again?"

"Nothing."

"Then what?"

"Just hurts how you could even think that I'm actually gay"

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean it that way. I mean there a lot of gays nowadays that actually resembles a girl."

"Hmmm. That's actually true...Okay."

"You forgive me now?"

"Yeah...sure sure."

"Have you had dinner yet? Wanna have chicken?"

"...."

"What part do you want?"

"Drumstick"

"Okay. I'll message you when I'm on my way. Wait for me at the corner."

"Okay :D"

Haha, I'm sorry. I haven't mentioned that he lives nearby. I especially swiped right on him because of that. And most of my friends are a ride away. I'm too lazy to do that. He lives a few corners away. It's just the 3rd day and we're already meeting. I am excited. Can't wait to see the difference of the picture and personally.

A few minutes later, he's already on his way and pretty close. He's picking me up so we can go over to his place. Apparently, he live's alone in a rented house because this is closer to his work and school. Although his parents come over almost everyday. So, he's here right in front of me ready to pick me up. I smiled immediately because that's just who I am. I even smile on complete strangers just to make the think I was smiling at someone else behind them. And he actually looks cute, way better than his photos. I almost told him "not bad" but didn't dare to really say it. It's quite nice to finally meet him actually.

Oh! I forgot to introduce myself didn't I? I'm Anna Dy. It's nice to meet you too. I hope you enjoy reading this. He, by the way, calls me weirdo and I'm fine with it, I actually like it. This story is like diving into my mind. It'll be quite a rocky road, I hope...