Love and Possibilities

He Wants to Keep Her

His phone rings and he pulls it out of his pocket. He answers it when he sees who it is. “Hey Charlie, what’s up?” Luna leaves the room, giving him privacy knowing it is his best friend.

“What the hell is going on? Maria just called me and was freaking out about gunshots, bodyguards, a woman as a gift and you yelling at her?”

Alexei makes his way out to the patio and walks around as he talks to his friend. “I’m sorry, Charlie, I was meaning to call you and let you know what was happening but honestly, so much has been happening it slipped my mind. Some woman called and threatened me on Monday night. Luna decided to send a couple of her bodyguards to protect me and Bella Lucia decided to send me, um, well, a special friend of hers to help me in the studio and on my website. And then today the woman who we think made the phone call was on my property and shot at the bodyguards, injuring one of them. Luckily it wasn’t anything serious.”

“Holy Crap, Alex. What did the cops say?”

“Uh, well, Luna wants to handle it for now.”

The phone is silent. “Charlie?”

“I’m here. Why didn’t you call the cops, Alexei, a crazy woman has a gun and shot at your house and injured someone. You need to call the cops.” Charlie almost never calls him by his real name. He must be really worried.

“Erin is okay, it just scratched her arm and Luna really wants to handle this. We are safe at Luna’s so she can’t get to me or them. Please, Charlie, I want to let her handle it for now.”

Charlie lets out a long breath and changes the subject making Alexei's head spin. “So tell me more about this gift. I don’t think you said everything you told Maria.”

Alexei really wished Maria hadn’t opened up her mouth to Charlie. “It’s nothing, Charlie. So, you know I’m dating both Luna and Bella Lucia, right?”

“Yeah, I kind of figured that out.”

“Well, they are a couple and they want to make me their third.”

“Holy cow, a threesome? s**t, you are the luckiest damn person I know!”

This is why he hadn’t wanted to tell Charlie. “Anyway, they were busy this week and they knew I was having a hard time with this crazy woman so Bella sent me a special friend of hers to keep me company and to work on my website. So um, the thing is, Bella Lucia and Luna, they’re into D/s and b**m and the special friend, well she is a submissive, and they gave her to me until I don’t need her anymore.”

“Seriously?”

“Uh, yeah.”

“And she’ll do anything for you?”

“Charlie…”

“I mean, okay, I can see why Maria’s upset but damn, more power to you, Alex. You go from zero to ninety in three seconds. Oh crap, don’t let your mom find out, she’ll pick a switch off that tree in her backyard and beat you with it.”

Alexei winces. “Yeah, not on my to do list trust me. Are we good?”

“Yeah, we’re good. I’ll let everyone know that Friday’s have been postponed for now. Keep me in the loop, okay?”

“I will, thanks Charlie.” He taps his phone and heads into the main room and finds Luna.

“Everything alright with Charlie?”

“Yeah, Maria called him in a panic about everything. She isn’t too happy, especially about my gift. She’s a feminist and the thought of a woman being gifted hit her the wrong way. Plus the whole death threats and shooting made it worse.”

Bella Lucia comes into the room like a whirlwind. “Lexei.” She practically jumps into his arms. “Luna told me what happened, are you okay?” She takes his face with her hands and looks into his eyes.

“I’m fine, Bella, Erin is the one who got hurt.”

“Is she okay?” Bella knew Luna’s favorite bodyguards very well as they had helped her at her place on many occasions.

“Yes, she is fine. Tessa is on her way to stitch it up for her and should be here any minute.” Luna maneuvered behind Alexei and they were both pressed against him. It was the first time the three of them had been together since he said he would try and the feel of them both pressing against him is making him twitch and grow in his pants. He takes a long slow breath trying to get his body to relax. Luna bites his shoulder and back and he moans. Bella nips at his chest.

“Fuck.” He whispers. Electricity is thrumming through him as they both touch and bite him.

A throat clears and they all three step apart.

“Excuse me for interrupting but I was summoned to stitch someone up.” A tall and lean blond woman wearing a dark grey pantsuit and her hair swept up into a bun is standing just inside the main room from the foyer.

“Yes, Tessa, thank you so much for coming, right this way.” Luna leads her upstairs to find Erin.

“Should we go up and give Erin our support?” Alexei steps further away from Bella feeling overwhelmed at the thought of what had just about happened between them.

“I’m sure she would rather not have an audience. Luna will hold her hand. She cares a great deal for her and Bailey. Why are you moving further away from me, Lexei? I’ve missed you.” Bella frowns..

“I’ve missed you too, but that, that was rather intense.” He's breathing deeply trying to maintain control.

“In a bad way? It seemed like you were enjoying it.”

“Yes, just overwhelming. Oh s**t! It’s Wednesday, I missed my f*****g appointment with Grant, my therapist. How the hell did I do that?”

“You have had quite a bit going on, Lexei, do not be hard on yourself.”

He pulls out his phone and calls Grant. The receptionist answers. “Bethany, I’m so sorry the appointment slipped my mind. Is there any way I can get in today?” He waits. “Great! Thank you so much, I’ll be there at two o'clock.”

“Okay, let me get Luna, she will want to send extra guards with you. Do you want Megan to ride with you? She is still yours. She will be able to soothe you in any way you need or want on the way there and back.”

“This is so weird. How can you be touching me one minute and then offering to send your pet to take care of my needs the next?”

“First, in this moment she is your pet. Second, if I go with you, you will take care of me and what I’m feeling and if she goes with you, you will let her take care of you. Yes?”

She was right. He would take care of Bella’s feelings while processing a lot before and after seeing Grant. “Okay, I get it. Then yes, I’d like Megan to come with me.” Although he wasn’t quite sure why he wouldn’t be trying to take care of Megan’s feelings, but then he realizes he actually would be because he knew how much it pleased her to serve him so he would let her. In giving her what she wants he will be taken care of. His head is spinning. How did his life become so complicated?

Luna pulled two other bodyguards who were in the building and had them take Alexei to his appointment. They were in a black Range Rover and he and Megan were sitting in the back. She was snuggling him when exhaustion overtook him.

He wakes up to Megan nudging him softly. “Alexei, Sir, we are here.” When he lifts his head up she says, “I’ll wait out here with Anthony and Gabriel.” Luna had sent two of her male bodyguards this time.

“Okay, I’ll be back in about an hour.” He kisses her head and steps out of the car as Anthony opens the door. He was a bit dazed from just waking up.

“I’ll be going with you, Sir.”

“Fine.” Alexei doesn’t think it is necessary but he doesn’t try and talk him out of it. They walk into the building  and step into the elevator. There is a woman with a hat and sunglasses on. He nods to her and presses the button. She gets off on the floor below Grant’s and then the elevator drops him off at Grant’s office. He is still thinking about the woman in the elevator, there had been something familiar about her but he couldn’t figure out what.

“Alexei, you can come on back.” Grant says.

Later he walks out of Grant’s office feeling more dazed than when he went in. “I’ll see you next week at the same time, Alexei.”

“Yeah, Grant, next week.” Anthony walks with him to the elevator and they head back down to the main floor. No one is in the elevator this time. They get out and walk to the SUV. He feels something and turns around. He sees her, the woman with the hat and glasses, looking in his direction from the end of the building. She takes her glasses off and then her hat. Her flaming red hair flows down around her shoulders and his mouth drops open. He had been in the elevator with the woman who had shot Erin. He jumps into the car and Anthony looks at him frowning.

“Is something the matter, Sir?”

“That woman at the end of the building, the one with the red hair, that’s the woman!”

Anthony looks both ways to each end of the building. “I don’t see anyone, sir, are you sure she was there?”

“Yes.” He hisses. Anthony closes the door and gets into the driver’s seat. He pulls out his phone and speaks into it. “1845 Lincoln Ave. She was just spotted. Yes, ma’am. We are headed back now.” He pauses. “Don’t worry, ma’am. I will get him back safely.” He put his phone away and he quickly maneuvers them out of the parking lot and back toward the city.

Megan crawls into his lap and wraps her arms around his neck. “How was your session?”

“Exhausting.”

“Can I do anything to make it better?” She feels him pulse under her and she smiles. “I would love to take care of that for you, Sir.” He hesitates and then nods. She slides off of his lap and he leans his head back. She quickly unbuttons and unzips his pants and pulls him out. She looks up at him. “You relax, Sir.” And her divine mouth works her magic most of the way back to Luna’s.

Back in the Penthouse he goes upstairs to find Erin. Alexei wants to see her and make sure she’s doing okay. He knocks on the guest room door and he hears her say come in.

“Hey, Erin, how are you doing?” Her eyelids are droopy.

“Doc, gave me pain killers. Told her didn't need them.” She mumbles.

There’s a wide gauze bandage over her wound on her arm and she’s lying on the bed propped against some pillows wearing sweat pants and a white, tank top. He lightly squeezes her hand. “I’m glad you’re okay. Get some sleep, Erin, and I’ll check on you later.”

“Yes, sir.” She giggles and he stifles a grin. He will take it to his grave that she giggled. He didn’t think she would like knowing she had done something so unbecoming a bodyguard. Or maybe he would tease her with it later. Time would tell.

Clara meets him in the Main room. “Mistress Luna wanted me to tell you that she and Bella Lucia would be busy until tomorrow afternoon. She wants you and your guests to be comfortable and to make yourselves at home.”

Luna is gone, that has Alexei feeling conflicted. He wants to spend time with her but he still has fears around it. “Thank you, Clara, since she won’t be here, would you mind finding an outfit that covers more of you?”

She sighs, “If it will make you happy, I will.”

He chuckles, “Thank you, Clara.” I’ll be in the art room if anyone needs me.

“Yes, Sir.”

As soon as he steps in and closes the door he feels peace wash over him. Yes, this room will do as a substitute for his sanctuary, his art studio at home. He pulls the easel over closer to the window and then sets up the table near enough he can reach it while painting. He then unwraps the palette, brushes, palette knife, and then realizes he needs a couple of glasses of water. He makes his way to Luna’s kitchen and finds Clara working on dinner.

“Clara, I need two containers I can use to put water in for my brushes.”

“Of course, Sir.” She pulls out two large glass jars. “Will these do?”

“Yes, those are quite perfect actually, thank you.” He puts water in each of them and makes his way back to his new studio. He makes sure that everything around him is covered by the drop cloth and begins throwing paint onto the canvas. With each color, each stroke, each line, symbol and mark he allows himself to explore his feelings about what Grant had asked him.

How do you feel about commanding Megan?

It isn’t about her.

How do you feel about commanding Megan?

Grant never lets him get away with anything.

Powerful. He whispers.

And how does that make you feel?

Megan makes him feel so much. He wants to protect her, please her, take care of her. He shares that with Grant.

The way Luna and Bella Lucia feel about you, don’t you think?

For brief moments he had let himself think about that as well.

Yes, I think so.

How do you feel now when you think about kneeling in front of Luna?

His gut churns. He knows he isn’t ready but he understands now why she wants him to kneel at her feet. What he feels when Megan kneels before him rushes through him again.

I’m not ready yet, but I can see myself getting there, maybe.

And how do you feel about Bella Lucia playing with Megan in the future?

He thinks about that. He knows Megan would be greatly disappointed if he says she can’t play with her. Now that he knows how it feels to command her will he ever want to give her up? Would Bella be willing to share her with him?

That is something I still have to think about. I think I may want to renegotiate with Bella regarding Megan.

Alexei slaps more paint on and swirls his fingers into the paint on the canvas as his stomach churns at what Grant had asked him next.

And the last question I asked you last week, have you thought about that?

He had and he knew Grant was on the right track especially after his outburst at Maria.

Yeah, you may be right. Why would I want to get that close to someone when they can so easily be taken away from me?

Nothing is ever guaranteed, Alex, nothing. Do you really want to miss out on love because you know someday you will lose them? Nothing is forever, everybody dies. What we do until then, how we love, how we let others love us, that is what is important.

He spends hours painting until he hears a light tapping on the door.

“Come in.”

Megan steps in and kneels immediately. “Sir, I’ve been asked if you’re hungry and would like a plate brought to you.”

He steps back from his painting and wipes his hand on a hand towel that had been part of a package on the table.

“Have you eaten, pet?”

“No, Sir, I was waiting for you.”

He feels guilt radiate through him. She belongs to him and he hadn’t taken care of her. He steps to her and strokes her hair. “I’m sorry, pet. I lost myself in my painting. Next time, please come to me when you’re hungry if I’m in here. I don’t want you going without because I’m distracted. Understand?”

“Yes, Sir," She looks down and then back up at him. "I was afraid to bother you, Sir.”

“I appreciate you being considerate  of my space, but I don’t want you to suffer because of me.”

“Yes, Sir, I will knock sooner next time.”

He takes her hand and helps her up and they head to the kitchen. Clara is wearing a normal black and white uniform and she is pulling on it and fidgeting.

“Sir, I can warm up your plate if you’re hungry.” She says as she twitches and wiggles.

“Warm up two, please, Clara.” He notices how uncomfortable she is. “And Clara, you may change back into what is comfortable to you.” 

She beams at him. “Thank you, Sir. I’ll have your food out shortly.”

“We’ll be in the sun room.” He knew there was a small table and chairs out there and a lovely view of the city. Still holding Megan’s hand he leads her out. He remembers the first night at Bella Lucia’s and gets an idea.

He pulls out a chair. “Sit down, Megan.”

She obeys him as always and it still amazes him. “Clasp your hands behind your back.” She brightens realizing he wants to play. Her breathing hitches in anticipation as she clasps her hands behind her back and looks at him expectantly.

He sits and pulls her chair to face him. His fingers trace over her lips and she keeps them closed. “Open your mouth, pet.”

Her mouth opens slightly and an electric rush zooms through him. He traces the inside of her lips with his index finger and then slips it into her mouth. “Suck on my finger.” She sucks on his finger and her tongue curls up, licking along the length of his finger. He moans and pulls it out. Clara brings their food out and sets both plates in front of him.

“What would you like to drink, Sir, we have orange juice, wine, and ice water.”

“Two ice waters and the wine. Thank you, Clara.” It amazed him how quickly he was getting used to commanding these women. The rush of power invigorates him. He looks away from Megan for a moment as Clara brings their drinks. She is beaming as she sets the drinks on the table and he notices she is wearing her favorite choice of outfits again.

“You look nice, Clara, I’m sorry I didn’t see that before.”

She preens and her chest and bottom push out. “Thank you, sir.” She purrs and then leaves them to their late dinner.

He takes a bite of mashed potatoes. They aren’t bad. He wonders how Clara would feel if he takes over the kitchen. He lifts Megan’s fork and holds a bite of mashed potatoes in front of her mouth. She opens and he gently guides it in and her lips close around it as he carefully pulls it out. She moans.

“You like me feeding you, pet?”

“I enjoy pleasing you, Sir, and I can see how this pleases you.”

“Can you, now?”

She smiles and glances down at the bulge in his pants. He chuckles, “Yes, that is rather difficult to hide.” He takes another bite and then feeds her another bite. “You please me, Megan. I have found this whole experience with you to be so unexpected. I never knew…” He hesitates.

She leans in but doesn’t say anything or try to touch him.

“I never realized how this would feel. I think I’m beginning to understand what Luna and Bella enjoy about commanding their subs.”

She beams at him.

“Tell me.” He commands.

“Does that mean you will allow Bella Lucia to play with me again?” She says hopefully.

“Megan, tell me something. How would you feel if I negotiate with Bella and you become both of ours?”

Her eyes water but no tears fall. “You want me to be both of yours?”

He sees she’s upset and he pulls her onto his lap. “I’m sorry, Megan, I’ve upset you. Of course I will give you back to Bella. I know that’s what you want. I won’t deny you your pleasure.”

She sniffs and puts her face in the crook of his neck and mumbles, “You misunderstand, Sir, I thought you were just putting up with me because you had to, you really want me?” She is curling into him.

“Oh pet, yes, I want you very much and part of me wants to keep you to myself but that would be selfish and I know how much you and Bella mean to each other so I thought, if you were okay with it, I’d ask Bella if we could share you.”

Her arms wrap around his neck and she sniffs some more as she kisses his neck. “I’d like that very much, Sir.”

“I’m very glad to hear that, pet, very glad indeed.”

He carefully puts her back in her seat. “Now, back in position.” She immediately puts her hands behind her back and he grins as he strokes her hair. “You are so obedient, so eager to serve. You are a delight, Megan, and you are teaching me so much.” He continues feeding her and himself until they are both full. He picks her up and carries her to Luna’s room as he had been informed that was where he was to sleep. He quickly undresses them both and then spoons around her. “Go to sleep, pet, it’s been a long day.”

She whispers, “Yes, Master.”

Fuck. That shot through him like lightening. He holds her tight against him. “Sleep now, pet.”