MY ALPHA BODYGUARD

CHAPTER 18: THAT KISS

POV: Eris

It was already afternoon when we reached back to the university. The director's sermon flew like a smoke in front of me, its suffocating and irritating but I don't want to think anything for now. I just want to do my work and finish the job done immediately. I have a lot on my mind that it seem like just a sound of chastisements that I don't understand a word. What happened today is enough for me to digest.

"Thanks to this irresponsible actor, our shooting extended by one day!" Mr. Gonzales shouted at my face. All of the actors and staff's eyes were focused on me like that of a court judging the criminal for his offense.

"I'm sorry... I'm very sorry" I exhaled. Marco held Adam's shoulder firmly telling him not to interfere for it will just make the problem worst.

"We need to talk" Marco whispered to Adam while me was preparing for the scene.

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POV: Adam

"What really happened? You were gone of almost a day. I couldn't even contact both of you" Marco whined while his hands were on his waist, pissed off as if he's gnashing his teeth..

"I'm very sorry, Marco. I didn't mean to distraught you" I replied while still thinking how to explain to him what happened.

"I know he went to Lakeside and you're from that town, right? *paused* .... .... There is really something going on, huh!" he fixed his stance and looked at me directly and seriously.

"Yeah..." I nodded a bit and, "I, uhmm, how will I say this... They got into an accident... While James was taking him back, they hit a wolf on the road so... the pack attacked them the moment they got out of the car"

"What!?? Wolves!!? Are you kidding me?" he shouted enough for others nearby to stare in our direction.

"Don't worry, he's fine, uhmm, we took him to the hospital and the doctor said he's okay.."

"Fine? You sure? ...." his voice still agitated, "Don't you know he's Lupophobic... *exhaled* ..nothing... never mind" he uttered now in a low voice as if talking to himself, and then looked at Eris's whose on the scene. Marco still keep his position that I thought our conversation now ends but he looks like he wanted to know more of something. I don't want him to get involved in this mess. He inhaled long and exhaled deeply, then opened his mouth again, "What I am puzzled about is why he needed to go there alone? What does he want to know more about that place more? Is there something or someone he wants to find there? Is there something you know you're not telling me, hu, Adam?"

I avoided his stare. I clenched my fist and looked at Eris in the distance. Maybe I could tell Marco. Maybe I could trust him with my secrets. Will he believe me? "Look, I am his bodyguard..... I am sorry if I leave him last time, I mean, .... I promise, this time, I will do everything to watch and keep him safe so... don't worry" I held him firmly on his shoulder to tell him I was serious and then exited our conversation.

POV: Eris

'Will he tell me everything if I ask him? Will he answer the truth? Why are they calling him Alpha? Why and how do they know me? Did we meet before at Lakeside? What happened to me there? What kind of wolves are those?' My mind is full of these thoughts and questions that I didn't realize I finished packing my stuffs. It's already four in the afternoon and everyone is preparing to go home for our first quarter of filming ends. And we can rest for a few days before the next filming schedule starts. I'm tired mentally and physically. I deserve rest.

My voice inside my mind started to crack. My lips started to tremble and my knees also started to shake. My bosom felt heavy and full like its going to burst. Fear, stress and longingness are like boiling on rage ready to explode. I sat down on the chair on an unstable movement and my eyes started to shed tears. Emotions I keep inside since yesterday, mixed together and burst into form of tears. I cried. I wept like a child taken away his favorite toy from him. I don't know why I'm crying. I can't help it. I'm crying like my body has own consciousness and control. I wiped the tears on my wet face shakily using my fingers then palm and then arms but still can't stop the sobbing. I felt helpless and felt pitied on myself so I chuckled like a crazy man while whimpering in tears. What is happening on me? Crying then laughing? I'm really gone mad.

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POV: Adam

Few minutes after our dinner in Eris's flat, Marco bid goodbye to us and went home. Eris still didn't talk to us since from the time we left Wellwood College and even on the trip he didn't bother to open his mouth. He slowly walked to the balcony with a glass of red wine on his hand. My eyes didn't leave him and I remembered how he wept inside the tent before we went home. I want to hug him and let him feel he's not alone.

"Haaah, aaahhh... hhmm.. hmmmm huhhh" sound of helpless sobbing I heard while standing just outside the tent. I glanced at him and I can't help it but to come forward to extend comfort. Then a hand restrained me from doing it.

"Let him take his time to pull his self together" Marco calmly said. I looked at him and then to Eris.

I then walked towards him and, "Want some more?" raising the bottle on my hand showing it unto him and smiling before him. I really don't know how to cheer someone up. But I will comfort him to the best of my ability. I will accompany him until he's relaxed, until I see those smiles again from his lips.

"Hmmm" he uttered without looking at me. 'Eris, please talk to me. Ask me everything, I will answer it completely. Get mad at me. Blame me. I feel more scared when you don't talk'

"I am sorry.... It's ... it's all my fault" my voice was low, barely enough for the sound to come out of my lips. "I'm such a ....." my voice came out unsteady but still deep and firm. Eris looked at me softly and stepped closer to me, then handed me his glass and took from me the bottle of wine.

"Alpha? Silver Fang? Red Arrow? What are those?" he then drank quickly on the bottle. He spoke wanting answers like he had been lost a long time.

"...I'm giving you a chance to explain AGAIN and I need you to answer me truthfully... I know there is nothing between the two of us.." his voice cracked into tears, his expression was in full distress and confusion, "I'.. I'm..just... tired of secrets.. of mystery.. so.." crystal like tears continuously flowed down his cheeks. His grip on the bottle tightened as his breathing burst into sadness. Each breath tells me to imprison him in my arms. I took the wine from him and put it on the table beside us. I moved closer to him and wiped those tears. I felt his sadness and it was me that caused it.

"They call me Alpha because I'm their leader... leader of the group called Silver Fang. It's just like a title given to me as their leader.... like a boss ...or the president of an organization. But we're not a gang or a mafia.. I am not a bad person Eris, or anything like that.. It's more of a community with our own unique and distinct beliefs, culture and regulations but, of course, we still abide the law of this country", I explained calmly and then took his hand and held it tight enough to send him warmth. "The Red Arrow is the group that rebelled against us that create disorder on the community. They want to take me down in any way and to seize my leadership, my position with their selfish desires and evil purposes", I stated even further, though I don't.. I am still not sure how or if I should tell him about myself, us on the Lakeside being werewolves, especially he's afraid of wolves, scared of me..

"You mean... so... I am right... they are after you" he exclaimed. He wiped his remaining tears and exhaled.

"Not me alone, now that they saw you, they could hurt you too unhesitatingly but don't worry I will never let them hurt you" I stated with honesty and compassion to my mate. He doesn't deserve this mess. It is heavy in my heart knowing that it is me that bring this trouble to him. If only there's a choice or a way that I can make myself a normal man, an ordinary human, I would definitely and undoubtedly choose that and sacrifice anything to do that; for us to live a normal life, just like a normal couple living their lives in love and mediocrity.

"So why don't report them to the authorities?" he asked in frustration. If it is only that simple, I'll do it from the beginning.

"It's not that easy. They're cunning, elusive and dangerous.."

"That's why we need the help of the police!"

"No, its.. more complicated than that.. But trust me..the Silver Fang can take care of them. We are currently doing an operation of hunting them down"

"Wait... What do you mean by 'hunting them down'? Don't tell me.... you're going to kill them? Adam that's.." he was shocked to what I've said. His left foot automatically moved backward and his eyes were moving, looking some answers in the air.

"Eris..look at me. You need to trust me. They are not human.. We're uhm not ordinary human being,... we're.." I hold him on his shoulders and with my eyes telling him my sincerity. 'Now is the perfect time to tell him everything, Adam' convincing myself. If he accepted me before, he will again.

"You're what? like the 'Avengers?' 'Mutants?' TELL ME, Adam, no more secrets.." he chuckled. ".. I want trust you.. I really do ..but if what you say is true, your method is still wrong. You are putting the law in your hands.." he stated with firmness and concern.

"We have met before" I said. He needs to know, he must.

"Wha... What?" he exclaimed and looking away from my gaze. His body became confused and tense. 'What is the meaning of this reaction?' My heart suddenly seemed to stop beating.

"We first met at Lakeside, since then, special feelings for each other have grown between us. You trusted me back then, I need you to believe and.. trust me again. Eris, I will never hurt you or harm you. Though you forgot everything about us, uhmm I still... I like ...you and I know you.. still like me too" I stated holding him again on his hands. His eyes were flickering like a soon to be defective bulb in the shadow of shock and longingness. Through those years that he thirst to an unknown longing and warmth, finally, found a piece of the lost memory in the midst of foggy confusion and doubt. Courage and faith is all we need to continue to put again together all the forgotten pieces of our love between our two different worlds.

"Ahhh ahmm tha.. that's" I know it's sudden but you don't have to understand all at once, my precious mate, what's important is you. All is well, I'll stay by your side no matter what.

"I'm sorry if I bothered you or make you scared...sorry if I only tell you these just now... If I make you worried.. I ammm, hmmm, Eris I am so scared you might get hurt or something bad happens to you.. or.. or... I might lose you again" Eris took away his hands from mine and finally he looked at me in the eyes. These stares were familiar. His face slowly lightened up and his eyes smiled together with his red thin lips. I already witnessed this expression of him before, the time he accepted me as who I am, casting out all his fears and doubts and trusting on my love. He then put his hand on my cheek sending caresses that made goosebumps on my body then uttered, "I believe you" What did he say? He believe me. He trust me. These words are like echo repeatedly sounded in my mind and vibrated through my heart that made it to beat faster and bigger. I love this man. I miss him, I really do and.... to my shock he suddenly kissed me.