Broken

Black and Cindy conversation

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Three days are passed in the blink of the eyes. During this days Cindy is completely ignored Angelina and do everything by her own self.

She can eat by herself. She always done her job by herself. She always bathing along. Changing her clothes and prepare for school along. Even if she accept Nancy help but still cannot accept Angelina help.

She did not even talk to Angelina. In this during days Galif always come to pick her up from the school and also dropping her back to the home. Even if she need something she always told this to Galif.

Angelina thought that it's not good if she separate Cindy from Galif. Honestly she did not bear the hate on Cindy eyes about her. No matter how much Cindy avoid her but she still try her best to talk with her. Cindy did not reply her very much and only talk to her in important matter.

Because she did not want any kind of help from Black , so that he always turn a blank eye from this matter. And because of Angelina request he will never stop Galif to come here and talk with Cindy.

Because she did not understand how to deal with this matter Angelina also ask help from Galif thinking that he is very close to Cindy. Galif also did his best and try to set up everything between mother and daughter but it cannot work.

Finally the fourth day Angelina could not help just break down. This night Black will come back late in the night. He already told that he is having dinner outside so that Angelina could not wait for him.

She just stepped down to the bedroom and silently crying. She did not even lock the door. Crying along in the room she just scold herself. After all this is her decision to getting married with Black. In this time she did not even care of the point of view Cindy.

After all every child have a right to thinking about her own choice. How did she thought that she can say to Cindy to anyone " daddy "and she will obey her. It will never be possible. How did a child can call a person father who she did not even like. And who on earth give her the right to taking decision behalf of Cindy specially  this kind of sensitive matter.

She could not help just thought that everything is her mistake. Before the marriage she already know that Black will never give her any kind of father love. But still she marry him.

The moment Black come to the home as usual he did not find anyone to the living area. He come back to late so that this is not surprising that childrens are already asleep. But Angelina also did not get it for him it somehow surprising for him but he thought that she might be fall asleep.

The moment he get into his master bedroom find out that Angelina is only crying there. Throwing his blazer and laptop to the site of the sofa he walked to her side then pick her up from the ground. Angelina is very much upset this time.

The moment she saw him she could not help just hug him and started crying more loudly. Stroking her hair with his palms he ask her ---- what wrong. What are you crying like this.

I am not a good mother. I am fail as a mother. ---- Angelina sobbing on his chest.

Who said you this. ---- He pause give her honest reply. ---- honestly you are the best mother ever. Event you treat your step children's like your own children. How did you will be a bad mother. Stop thinking too much ok.

Cindy did not talk with me. She even did not allow me to do anything for her. She always eat by her son and doing her job alone. You know she is right. I am really a bad for mother. After Daniel death I thought that , I cannot let Cindy a incomplete family. Because I know that a incomplete family is very much painful. That is one of the reasons that I marry you because of giving a complete family to Oliver , Oscar and Cindy. But now I realise that this is the biggest mistake of my life. Cindy will never accept you as her father. And right now she started hating me. I know that you did not like her. You already told me that you did not love her like your own children. I also know that you did not even have a single care about her. But I thought that as long as I am taking care of everything , everything will be fine. But I am completely wrong. I did not even give a complete family to my daughter. Look I can sleep with you lots of time taking care about my desire , my need. But I will not thinking about my child Need. I am selfish literally selfish.

Angelina could not help just blame herself for everything. ---- before marrying you i know everything clearly. I know that you did not full filled the Emptiness of a father in Cindy life. But till I marry you. Even after marrying you I am started involving with you completely ignoring this matter that my daughter need my attention. Now look what happen with me. My daughter started ignoring me and she did not want me now. In my childhood I am always ignorant child. My father always ignore his duty. And now you are always ignore you duty toward Cindy.

Angelina pause then continue. ----- but there is nothing your fault. I need to think about this before. The moment when you treated me and I know that there was no option left for me except marrying you , this time I need to give up the custody of Cindy. If this time I handover Cindy custody and responsibility to Galif , this time I will not face this kind of situation. Cindy always happy to staying with Galif. Beside Galif is her biological uncle so that he will take care her better than anyone.

When she told this she did not even give a single look to Black. She did not blame him. She just blame to her stupidity. Suddenly she started laughing self mockingly. ---- you know that even my own father always ignore me in my childhood. How do you like will expect fatherly affection from you for Cindy who did not even have any kind of blood relation with you.

Suddenly she stopped and looked at him. ----- Black , I really did not tolerate if my children start hating me. Please do anything but solve this matter. If Cindy did not wanted to stay with me then please let Galif pick up her from here. If she wanted to stay with him then let her allow whatever she want.

Her herat torn apart when she told all of this. Black feel the sadness of her voice. He could not help just comfort her ---- don't worry about this. I promise you that this will be past soon.

You are really the example of man ego. Oliver and Oscar are not related with me to the blood. But you always accept that I will treat them better like my own children. But you will never accept my children and give him a real father love. But did you know what is the worse. That I know everything but still I cannot do anything because I am selfish. ---- Angelina said.

I did not know who you are in exactly but as a mother you are not selfish. ---- Black said.

Honestly he always considered that there was no one who can take a better care to his children except Angelina. That is the biggest reason for him to marry her.

I am. After loss Daniel , I am become too much possessive about Cindy that I could not even wanted to give up her custody at any cost. That is the reason that without thinking about her emotion I decide to marry you. Today I told you that honestly I did not wanted to loss Cindy. I thought that because of your power I will easy own her custody if there was something like that happen in future. ---- what is she saying everything is truth.

This is indeed the reason of her to marry Black. 

I know that you cannot love her but I thought that my love is enough for her. But again I prove wrong. If only mother or only father love is enough for children then nobody in the world want a Happy Family. When Cindy is with Daniel but there was no mother in her life she is still unhappy. This time I complete their family and now you are with me but still her family is incomplete. ----- Angelina said.

Sleep now. It's too late. ---- Black said.

After seeing everything to him she seems to be fever relief so that she also fill sleepy and finally fall asleep. Her head is pain very much but she did not told this to him. But Black seems to be already understood this so that he genuinely massage her head which make her sleepy. He continuous doing this until she cannot fall asleep.

The way she is crying thinking about the Black could not help just feel pain on his heart. After all Cindy is a small child. What she needed in this time only a father love. This is the first time Black regret about his decision to not giving her father love. Somehow he feel that Angelina is right here. His ego is really too much battery when did not let go a child. 

Even if he did not like her but pretending to be loved hard is not impossible right.

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In the morning Black wake up first. He did not wanted to disturb Angelina so that after getting off from the great the first thing he do to close the windows. So that the sun rays cannot come to the room and disturb Angelina sleep.

After that completing his morning duties he finally get from the master bedroom. Standing in front of the door of Cindy he hesitate for a while but finally set his mind and puss the door open. Cindy still sleeping when he enter to the room.

Black could not help Just Walk to the bed them set down beside her. First time we observe the girl colsely . Placing his hand on her forehead he genuinely rub this and call her names softly. ----- Cindy.

Cindy did not response just move her body little bit like a little kitten. Black heartache when he looking her like this. After that he genuinely loving her here and call her again. This time Cindy running her eyes and open it slowly.

This is not her usual time to wake up. But the moment she is saw Black face in fond of her she quickly get up from her sleeping position. It's look like she saw a ghost in front of her. Black never come to her room. Everyday Angelina or Nancy well wake up her from her school. Obviously she is little bit scared on Black. Beside because of Black cold expressions its natural that childrens can afraid on him.

Black seems to be understand thatCindy feel scared after seeing his face so that he tried his best to look polite and general.

Good morning my angel. ---- Black said.

G... good morning uncle. ---- Cindy is very afraid but still she reply.

Come on get up and done your morning duties. After that we are going somewhere. ---- Black said.

Cindy did not move for age and only staring him silently. Black look at her then continue. ---- what's wrong.

Did brothers will go with us. ----- Cindy is very much surprised. After all staying here for so many days Balck will never come to her room and she will never go anywhere along with black except the school.

Uncle this is not the time of school. ---- Cindy could not help just say.

I know. I am not going to drop you to the school. I am just bring you to the park. Let's go with me I have something to talk to you. Come on hurry up daddy will waiting for you. ----- Black intentionally say the name" Daddy".

Cindy look at him in disbelief then finally stubbornly reply. ---- you are my uncle.

Even if you refuse to call me daddy but still I am your legal father right now. Does not matter whatever you call me or not you are still a child. And everyone know you as my daughter. ----- Black said.

After that he call Nancy and told her to make Cindy ready.

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20 minutes later finally both of them went out from the house and after 15 minutes their reach to the park. Cindy always coming here with her father and after his death Galif  will bring her here. This is the first time she come here with Black.

Holding Cindy hand After walking for a while Black ask Cindy. ----- Cindy did you like the park.

Yes Uncle I like the park very much. Mummy and daddy always bring me here. ----- Cindy replay.

Good. Then in future me and your mother together bring you hear ok. ----- Black said.

No. Cindy did not come here with both of you. ----- Cindy said.

Black pick up her from the ground then place her to the nearby chair. After that he also set down beside her. ----- Cindy are you a good girl or a bad girl.

Cindy is always good girl. ---- Cindy said.

No you are a bad girl because a good girl cannot hurt her mother. Did you realise that how much you hurt your mother during these days. Did you know much she love you and you ignore her and not allow her to do anything for you. You did not even talk to her what happened if your mother did the same to you. ---- Black said.

Mummy is not good. She did not allow daddy to come and talk with Cindy. Mummy told me that to daddy birthday she will bring me to his place where he live now.  But when I go there there was no daddy. I know that it is very angry on mummy because she marry you. ---- Cindy said.

And who told you this. ----- Black ask.

According to Black point of view this is completely impossible for a child to thinking too much. Somehow he feel that there was somebody who field this thing to the little child brain.

No one. Cindy know very well daddy is angry. Otherwise why did not he come back. ---- Cindy innocently reply.

Because he is not alive now. Did you know where my father was. --- Black ask.

No. ----- Cindy said.

He is with your daddy right now. Both of them a death. And a death person cannot come to see us. You are just two three years old but still I told you this. When a both of our family going to the trip this day there was a plane crash. Your father and Ruby aunty both are death in this plane crash. They are now living in the God place and will never be return. ----- Black explain.

That mean I cannot see my daddy again. ---- Cindy said stand up from the chair.

Black hold her hand and make her sit down again. --- you Daddy have very important work to the God. So that he will never return here. That's why he told your mummy to bring a good father for you. That is the reason your mummy marry me to fulfill your family. Now on only I am your father. And even if you did not like me or consider me as your father but still I am your father. And the most important reality is your father will not come back here again. I know that you are hurt but did you know your mother is hurt very much. You always crying in front of us but your mother always crys secretly and no one can present to dip away her tears from her face. You are a child so that you can blame your mother anytime but she have nothing. She loved  you so much that because of you she cannot even cry in front of anyone. She is very much upset to lost her husband but still she marry me without her willing only because of you. 

Cindy listen everything sincerely so that Black continue. ----- you know that she is not your real mother. But still she caring you so much. Just because of making your family full she even marry me who she hate very much. And as a daughter what more you done. You call her bad mummy even hurt her very much. Did you still told that you are a good girl. Are you daddy is happy after seeing that his good daughter make cry to his wife. Did you really happy after seeing your mother crying. Did you know that your mother when did not sleep well still the day you stop talking to her. You can eat by yourself but you know she cannot eat anything properly and only waited for your response. You sleep well but she crying every night. Did you really want everything will be happen in this way.

This is too much for a 3 years old child so that Black finally stopped talking and waiting for her response. Cindy is really very obedient and sincere. Hearing that her mother is crying very much because of her she did not feel well and quickly replay. ----- I never wanted to hurt mummy. I am just angry on her.

Mummy is angry on you did she stop talking with you. ---- Black ask.

No. ---- Cindy said lowering her head.

Then can you steal did not wanted to talk to your mummy. I am afraid that she will be sick if she continuous crying and did not eat properly. ----- Black said.

No no. I say sorry to mummy and I also feeling mummy with my own hand. Cindy is very sorry. ----- it's obvious that he had never wanted to hurt Angelina because she love her very much.

I did not wanted to hurt mummy but.... ----- Cindy stop.

It seems that there was something who make her stop but Black is eager to know about the reason behind her this kind of behaviour. ---- Cindy why you stop. Tell daddy everything.

Does not matter how much Cindy reject to call him " daddy ". But he already set his mind that he can repeat the word every time in front of hard to make her understand that what is the reality now. And there was a childish reason behind all of this.... my children can call her mummy every time then why did not her daughter call me daddy. What's the point of this she is very good and I am bad.

I did not told you this because this is a secret. And mummy told me to never reveal any kind of secret. Beside I promise so that I cannot break it. Good child never break their promise. ---- Cindy said innocently.

Black seems to be understand something so he did not pressure her just ask her. ---- ok. Then let it be a secret. But at least told me who is the person you give the promise.

Galif uncle. ----- Cindy replay.

Sure enough her behaviour is something which related to Galif. That is the reason Balck will never let him allowed to come to his house and picking up Cindy. But because of Angelina and the relationship between Galif and Cindy , Black did not pressure anything more.

On the other hand Cindy did not like Black as her father. So that because of Galif advice she thought that if she did not talk to her mother then her mother will separated from Black. But in this time she never thought that she indirectly hurt her mother very much. now she feel regret.

Uncle Black can we come back to the home now. I wanted to see mum ----- Cindy desperately wanted to talk to Angelina.

Huh. Did you want ice cream. ---- Black ask.

Cindy eyes lit up after hearing the name of ice cream. She quickly say. ---- Yes ... yes Cindy I want ice cream.

Then let's go with me. ----- Black hold her hand and walked to the Ice cream parlour. Cindy choose to many brand of ice cream and Black by all of this but told Cindy. ----- I can buy everything whatever you want but you did not allowed to eat them together. You can eat only one in this time and others will storage to the refrigerator. You can eat this after having permission from your mother ok.

Cindy nope. Both of them get into the car and Black started driving.