The Impossible Bond

Chapter.1

I and Adam were together for 3 years, after one year of relationship he asked if I want to move in ... he was 5 years older then me and a lot more mature, even I was just 19, I immediately said yes!

I trusted him so much and I loved him more then I thought I could love someone, he was the center of my universe, I used to think that we have the perfect relationship.

When friends of mine talked about how unhappy were in their relationship I was so relieved that we don't have this kind of issue, I have really thought that I have found my soul mate. I and Adam we complete each other, we were different, I used to think that this was the key factor that was keeping us together, I was never more wrong. After 3 years and 4 months of a relationship, things started to become very hard between us, the man I used to know seemed more secretive than ever and looked more like a stranger to me. At first I thought maybe is just stress because of work, when I finally took the courage to talk with him, he served me the crap that everyone does...

" is not you, is me “... 

“I don't feel connected anymore I want to break up"

Seriously ... if someone had taken a picture of my face from that moment, you could easily find my picture in the dictionary next to the meaning of the word “shocked.”

At that moment the earth slipped beneath my feet leaving me with nothing to hold on to, I felt as if I had swallowed a brick and my stomach had now begun to weigh at least 44 pounds. I could see his lips moving but could not hear at all the words coming out from his mouth...My ears started burning and my eyes filled with tears, I was living the nightmare of my life... I could not believe it. I cried for two months, I lost weight...and finally, I moved out of his house. .He succeeded to get to all my vital organs, all the love for him transformed in Poisson that now was running through my veins, killing me very slow but sure.

After all the data I was able to collect from my love-life, I got to the next conclusion: Men are not capable of loving just one woman, they are so full of love that they have to share...they are not selfish. What a joke! I wanted revenge! Various feelings tried me for a long time, at some point I wanted revenge, then I thought it was a bad idea... I knew that all this thoughts in my head will eventually make me crazy…I was never more lost, my soul was out of my body...what was moving out on the streets was nothing then an empty shell.

My parents forced me to go to a psychologist, they were afraid that I will end up taking my life, but I was so out of this world that this thought has not even crossed my mind...

I felt so hollow...

Words like "you are young- you have all the life in front of you" were not getting to me, nothing seemed to find its way to me. My psychologist recommended that I should try to go on long walks in the park, maybe run, listen to some music...running was out of the question because I had no energy...

For a couple of days I tried to take some long walks, but I just stood there on a bench, staring and doing nothing. My life took a wrong turn, all my interest in fashion, art, faded away...

I started to neglect myself, what was the point to try so hard? All my plans of future collapsed under my stupidity...all my hopes were gone, because of just one man my life was over. I had created an emotional addiction without knowing and that seemed to be the end of me.

Tyler’s P.o.v

It was a chilly morning, nothing out of ordinary, I was out for a run…before I take the role as an alpha I must have some time with me and my wolf. After I spent more than two weeks in the woods just in my wolf form, the council made me choose a small town that I will have to spend the next week of solitude. I choose my mother's town, a small town near the woods and far from the craziness of the big town, it's supposed to be part of the initiation ceremony, it's supposed to help me. 

Wolfs are blended in people community these days, we make business together but we never disclose our true form, only a very selective and discreet circle of humans know about us, most powerful and rich families are from wolf packs.

As I got near the park I took a look and I was happy that it was almost empty, just two runners and a woman on a bench. I was right to choose this town. After I passed the two runners I realized they were like me, we greeted each other just by our looks and a slight movement of our heads. Soon after that, a cold chilly feeling crossed my spine, I felt empty all of sudden, as I was getting closer to the woman the feeling became more intense,  I could not run anymore, my feet weight so much, what was happening to me?

As I got closer to the women on the bench my breath keep getting worse, I took a glimpse at women on the bench, she was a girl maybe in her twenties, long brown hair, slim figure, pale skin almost unhealthy, but clear, big dark eyes nothing out of ordinary ...she kept looking straight, not a single move, the feeling started to get more and more strong just as I passed her... it was coming from her, I was sure, but what was it? 

For a second I thought that maybe she could be my...? 

No!

 it was impossible, I could tell she was human, I knew I was unmated and I was 24 already...but a bond with a human? I never heard of something like this and the feeling was nothing like I heard it's supposed to be...

 I felt nothing like the intoxicating smell you should feel, no physical attraction, nothing ...I wanted to look more at her but I felt so alert like I needed to protect my life.  I was furious and I started to run again...after a few miles I felt so breathless like I was an asthmatic I felt like the air was not coming through my lungs, I put my hands on my knees trying to take a deep breath and I turned my head to see if she was still there, but she was gone, my eyes went dark and my blood started to boil, I could feel the heat spreading through my body, after a few seconds  I heard my wolf:

" find her!"

I started looking for her, I tried to trace her smell but I was having such a hard time breathing, I could barely move, my wolf was furious so was I.  Who was that girl? Why is this happening to me? Why did she have such an impact on me?  I could not believe that I lost it for a few seconds... something was not right. 

After a few minutes of wandering around, I started to feel better, my breathing was getting back to normal again, but the girl was nowhere to be found... I took my eyes from her for about 5 minutes...and she disappeared, my morning running was a complete failure...so was that whole day, after a few hours the thought of her not being there started to pop out in my mind ...maybe I imagined things, maybe this whole process of me becoming the alpha was giving me a more hard time than I thought.

I was restless the whole night, my wolf was awake, agitated moving in my head, growling, alert, like waiting for something bad to happen and so was I.  I have never experienced this kind of distress, being and wolf I  never got sick, never felt week...and for a few seconds, I thought I will die because of lack of air.

 The next day I went there again and waited for about 4 hours, the girl never showed up... I went back home, I took a shower and went out, I have to say that what happened yesterday had a big impact on me ... as I was waiting in my car at the traffic light, I saw her…the reason for my restlessness, walking on the crosswalk with her hair pulled in a bun, wearing a hoodie, and a pair of loose jeans, looking like a homeless. 

My heart started to beat very fast, my breath becomes heavy…my hands clenched on the steering wheel, I pulled over the car and started to chase her...a wave of strong wind started to blow and her hair got lose... in a few seconds there it was...the feeling of not being alone anymore and then I felt it...

The intoxicating smell of vanilla and bergamot, so sweet, so soft, so feminine. I was petrified...and then I heard my wolf: 

“Mate!”

Harper's P.o.v

My mourning routine started, as usual, 10 minutes shower, brush my teeth,  grab some clothes, eat something, and go back to sleep.

I took unpaid leave from my job and my plan was not to come back. Luckily my sister and her husband let me crash in their small apartment that they used to rent. They let me stay here for free, all my family is worried. If could feel something this day I will feel bad for my family. I know that has passed more the 3 months from my break-up...I still think: What did I do wrong? 

Adam assured me that there is no other woman, and somehow I believed him. So what was it? Why we become so alienated, I really thought everything was perfect. After sleeping for around 4 hours I noticed that I run out water, I grabbed some cash took my hoodie, and went out to buy some.

On my way back  I was so distracted and I did not see the light was red when I crossed the road, my hair went lose because of the wind and I crossed the other side without checking. I could hear horns, for a moment I panicked and I was finally awake...I wanted to run but I felt a something colide with my right hip and soon after that sharp pain, my bottles of water fell out of my hand...in a few seconds I was down on the road, I felt so confused just only after another few seconds passed I realized a car hit me. It was not serious, I could feel all my limbs, it only brushed me. I tried to keep it together but I heard a door slammed,  the driver of the car that hit me got out starting to shout at me:

-“You crazy b***h!! What is wrong with you?! Are you blind? Can't you see is green for cars?! Are you trying to put me in jail?!”

I tried to get up but the pain in my right hip was really sharp I could feel the whole area heating and pulsating. I tried  to shook off the dust and somehow managed to get up on my feet. I tried to ignore the man, trying to gather my water bottles, but I  I felt a sudden grip  on my shoulder soon I was turned violently.

-“You have some nerve!” Where do you think are you going ?Are you on drugs?!. 

The man kept yelling shaking me, at this moment fear began to make its presence felt, I tried to release myself from his grip but it was futile. Soon I saw his hand in air, he was going to punch me.

“ You b***h!” I closed my eyes waiting my face to connect with his punch, but it never happened.

A tall young man wearing dark jeans, white shirt and leather jacket stopped him. He had very beautiful features, dark full hair, short on sides and longer on top, very messy but somehow every piece of hair seemed to be right on their spot shinning, his body was very well proportionate, his face was so well made, full lips a very deep look, blue dark eyes that were shaped by dark and full brows. 

He stopped the man, he seemed very angry, I could see his nostrils enlarge as he was getting closer, he definitely scared me more than the man who drove the car, and just tried to punch me. I took some steps back, he grabbed the man from his collar and he pulled him closer to his face.

-“Don't you f****g touch her! Let go of her or I will hit you right here! I am not going to repeat myself!”

His voice was so deep and husky it almost sounded like two people speaking at the same time. Everyone returned at their car, his presence was so heavy. He released the man and looked in my direction...

In that moment I froze I tried to take some few steps back but he grabbed my wrist, he was squeezing me so hard that I could feel the blood stoping circulating in my hand. He was dragging me and hitting my bottle of water with his foot from his way, when we got on the sidewalk, the man went back on his car and kept talking, he was definitely scared, so was I, I tried to release from his grip but he released me causing  me lose my balance and made me shake a little bit trying to get back on my feet. He went his hands through his hair and slowly getting them down on his face.

- “F**K!!! What's wrong with you??!!”

He grabbed both of my hands, shaking me violently, one bottle of water was still in my hand, he took the bottle from my hands and hit the ground with her, the bottle broke causing all the water spread on the road.

-“Are you trying to kill yourself?!!”

-“No...I just, my voice sounded like I was trying to speak after I screamed all night at a rock concert.

-“I knew it! You are trouble! You, humans, are all trouble! so weak, I don't need you, weakling! I reject you!!”

And he left, as I stayed there, there were still people looking at us. For the first time in months I felt awake but so confused, What was that? I watched him got in his black sport car with tires creak under the concrete. What just happened? Did he mistake me with someone else? Why was I rejected? Somehow I felt dumped again...But how could I be? I don't know this man...