The Impossible Bond

Chapter 3

Tyler's P.O.V

I saw her collapsing on the floor, breathing so heavily, I recognized immediately the feeling, The way she acted now was the way I acted when I first saw her.

I grabbed her by her shoulders.

-What's wrong with you? What's happening?

-I ...can't breathe...I need my.... inhaler.

I froze. I started to run out of the room and look for someone to help me. I saw my beta's mate.

-Caroline! Come up here please, now!

As I watched Caroline give her first aid, I kept thinking and came to the same conclusion, she had nothing to do here, she would make me look weak, my pack would not follow me. The person who had to help me was the one who would bury all my chances to become what I was meant to be. 

After Caroline calmed her down, I stood by the door all the time and watched Caroline approach me.

 -What's wrong with her. I asked. 

-I'm not sure, it seems like an asthma attack.

-Seems?

 -Yes ... I am not sure but I think she had a panic attack.

-Ty, I don't want to interfere with your business. But who is she? Why did you bring a human to your house?

-I will talk to you later Caroline, I trust your discretion not telling anybody what you saw here.

-Sure.

As Caroline left the room. I kept watching at what supposed to be my mate, I could feel my wolf sad but I was furious. I needed to separate myself from this bond. I need to not need her, how could I? Look at her, she is looking like an ant, waiting to be crushed.

Harper's P.O.V

I opened my eyes and felt my body very heavy, for a few seconds I felt immobilized, I realized that I am not in my apartment and in a fraction of a second all the events went through my head.

I looked around but there was no one, I was alone, I searched for a few seconds the room, it looked like a fairly large bedroom, the furniture seemed quite expensive. Then I heard a voice.

-Are you up? 

-Caroline gave you a sedative.

There he was, against the wall, watching, coming closer to me.

-Look, I said. I think you got the wrong person, please let me leave. I can't help you.

His eyes went darker, his face changed, he got closer and bend to reach my height.

-Do you think I don't know that?!! You can't help me! I wished I could get the

wrong person! But no! there you are. He trows so clothes at me.

- Go take a shower and come downstairs, don't try to run you will not get too far.

I took a shower and put the clothes he gave me a light blue long shirt and some jeans. Somehow I felt so obedient when he told me to do something, maybe was because of my lack of interest in everything.

As I descended the stairs I saw a huge living room with a diffused light and 3 quite large red sofas. There was my kidnapper whose name I didn't know yet and two more people, A tall blonde girl with black eyes and a handsome blond man.

-Are you sure? Asked the girl as she looked at me.

-Yes. said, my kidnapper.

The girl came closer to me and she kind of sniffed me. I took a step back.

-Yup, definitely human. she said. Look at those eyes she is a feisty one. She put her arm around my neck. 

-I like her Ty, she smells nice.

-Tell me about it...Let me alone with her.

The woman and male left, we were both alone again he was so furious I could feel him. This whole situation was so weird. What was really happening? Is this the world we are living in it? Creatures like this walk and human shape, blended between us? Who blended with who? Them with us or us with them? I wanted to stay just to tell me more about this.

-Sit down, Harper.

-I am okay, I said. I prefer to stay up. I feel more okay like this.

-I need you to move in. 

What was he saying? 

-No. I said, don' t get me wrong, This is a nice house but is not my style, I like more dark and tight places, whole this space is not for me.

-I am not asking you, I was informing you. You will stay here, you will have your own room and all the things you need. I will become the alpha next week and I hope you will learn some things until then, the last thing I need is that my mate will know nothing about our customs.

The whole situation was weird but maybe this is what I needed.

-Is this forever? I asked. You know I have a family too, what will I tell them?

-Your family must never know what we are, we can pretend to be a couple in front of them as I don't have any intention to stick with you. You are just a human and I accept you just because I need to do this. You can have your own life and I will have mine.

He was sincere, He didn't want anything to do with me, I was quite plain, he looked totally gorgeous, probably if it wasn't this mate- bond thing we will not even look at each other on street. I kept thinking and I got to the conclusion I have nothing to lose, I wasn't ever falling in love again, his intention was clearly the same and maybe have some people around me will get me out of my current state.

-Okay. I said.

He looked surprised. So was I, why did I agree so easily?

-Good. he said. You will find food in the kitchen and you can sleep in the room you went to before. Tomorrow we will go take your stuff.

I grabbed some fruit and milk out of the fridge and went upstairs. I tried to sleep but I couldn't, as I laid in bed, I kept thinking. When was the last time I slept without waking up in the middle of the night 2-3 times in an hour? When were the last time I woke up in the morning and all the things made sense? Finally after hours of thinking I fell asleep for about 3 hours. The next morning I woke up and went downstairs, this time the kitchen was full of young boys all naked from above and all of them around 16-19 years. They all stop what were doing and looked at me, soon I felt a presence behind me and all of them looked kind of scared, I turn my head and there he was looking like a statue smelling like big trouble, my kidnapper. 

-Go back to the yard and keep practice. He growled. Everyone left, letting us alone in the kitchen. He went to the fridge took two sandwiches, bring one to me, and went out.

-Be ready in 10, I will take you to take your stuff ,we need to be back before 3.

We didn't talk at all, al the way I tried to steal some looks at him but he looked so concentrated all the road, furious and upset. I thought he was because of my presence. Maybe he was like this because of me. As soon as we arrived at my apartment I went up, took some of my stuff, called my mom telling her that I will spend some weeks with a friend in another town and I will come home once at two weeks. She was happy that I will finally go out of my apartment. As I get near the car, he helped me carry my bag.

-Thank you. I said.

-Tyler.

- I am sorry?!

-Tyler, my name is Tyler.

-Okay…Than k  you Tyler.

Everything happened pretty quickly, we came back the same way we left, we didn't talk all the way, in the end, what was to be said. I will use him to get out of the state I was in, and he will use me to get where he wants.

When we got back to the Maison a red-haired girl with a bob haircut and quite voluptuous shapes was in front of the entrance, wearing a tight short black dress quite low-cut, when Tyler got out of the car she jumped into his arms and starts to kiss in front of me.

I swear that if there was anything left in my heart it would have bothered me, but I ignored everything, I took my luggage from the car and went to the entrance, then I heard her voice after she disengaged her red lips from Tyler's fleshy lips.

-How is she?

-She's my mate.

-What?! How can it be? She is human.

-I will explain later Livia, go to my room.

This whole situation had somehow started to irritate me a little, in this circle of being human it looked like a sin. As I entered the house I went to the room where I will spend my time from now on, I arranged my clothes and I wanted to go down to the kitchen to grab some water for me. As I walked down the long hall, I heard some moans from the last room, it didn't take me long to realize what was happening, my so-called mate whose connection he couldn't break with me was having s*x with someone else.

I tried to hurry to the kitchen, I opened the fridge, it seemed quite a lot of food arranged in pots, I still didn't know how many people live in this house, who takes care of the food and what I had to do here, I went after a bottle of water and closed the door. As I closed the refrigerator door next was Tyler, half-naked, sweaty, with ruffled hair, wearing only a pair of shorts.

I shuddered a little but I tried not to do more than that, I looked at him and tried to pass him. but I felt him take my hand and turn me away.

-I know you heard us. he said smiling.

-I did. I am happy for you, it's good that one of us is having s*x, please enjoy it for me too.

-You don't look bothered. he said surprised.

-Why will I be? We meet 3 days ago, You will be bothered if I was doing s*x with someone else?

I could feel that his grip got more violent, his breath was heavier, in a second he pulled me closer to him, so close that I managed to see his face better, his eyes were dark blue like the sea and were outlined by thick black eyelashes, his eyebrows were strongly arched with rage, I could feel his breathing and perfume. He released my arm and smiled. 

-Be up at 8 a.m tomorrow, my mom will come you will have a lot to learn this week.

My heart was beating pretty hard, I still didn't know why, I had to admit he was a pretty attractive man but there, of course, there was nothing wrong with me, he was probably attractive to 90% of the girls on this planet, so I thought that it's pretty normal to feel that way.

This time I was able to sleep better, I put my watch to ring at 7.30, I took a shower I got dressed and went down, in the kitchen, there was a very beautiful lady probably around 45 years old, with a black hair and an angelic look, I felt instantly attracted to her like a magnet, I felt a warmth coming from her, I approached shyly when she saw me, she smiled. I smiled back.

-You must be Harper, she said.

-Yes, I am.

-Nice to meet you. I am Lily, Tyler's mom.

-Nice to meet you, ma'am. I said shaking her hand, she looked like such a warm person

-Have a seat, tell me more about you Harper. 

-Uhm... I am 22 years old, I graduated From university and...I have a bigger sister she lives in the south with her husband, and I was working as a PR at a company.

-I see, here women have to support their husbands, as a future Luna of this pack, you will have to implicate more in house chores and be supportive of your mate, attend official meetings with him and be by his side.Will you be able to do it?

I can adapt. I said 

 Everything went very smoothly after that, she explained to me slowly everything about the packs, the family, what I have to do, what I don't have to do. After the first day, I understood quite well how things were. I had to be with my mate, to help him in matters regarding the pack, being human it seems that I could not join them for various activities, this means that I will have to stay in the Maison, being a rather dubious world leaving this house alone was no longer an option as much as I could not protect myself. Somehow I understood Tyler, it seems that my "condition" was more to his disadvantage than his advantage. I will be a liability, he was right, but I was willing to change that, not for his sake but for mine, as I could not let myself depending on others. That's what it brought me to this state, I related to much on my ex, that's why when he left me I felt so alone because I was no longer me...I didn't know what to do with my life...I still don't.

Tyler ceremony to become the alpha will be this Sunday, the next days I prepared with his mother and another woman from the pack, they seemed to accept me as a human, they tried to teach me as well as they could.

The whole week I didn't meet with Tyler. His mother said that he is busy taking care of the family business and he spends most of his time with his father at the  office.

Day of the ceremony.

Three hours before the ceremony and I have to say I was starting to get nervous, but most of all I was glad I was so busy all week that I didn't think about Adam at all, I was starting to feel better, although I had tried in the past to keep my mind occupied, I had failed. I took the dress that Tyler's mother had bought, it was a long, rotten pink satin dress tight at the waist with thin straps and a rather generous slit.

I caught my hair in a low ponytail and put some make-up, months had passed since I had put on make-up, before, I really liked to put on make-up but I had given up lately. I put on my sandals, took my purse and went down the stairs, at their base was Tyler wearing a black suit with a bow tie. he and his mother were talking, I must admit, he looks very good in a suit.

-I am ready, I said. Tyler turns and gives me a scan bottoms to head.

-Is cold outside you don't have something to were on top? He said.

-I am fine, the ceremony is indoor. He looked a little pissed but we left anyway.

When I got to the hall, I noticed a lot of people, everyone was very well dressed, the ceremony was more like a party, Tyler ignored me all night while greeting everyone, I didn't care too much, I kept drinking and eating some of the god stuff that was there, Then I saw his s*x partner, as soon as he approached me I realized that something is not good.

-         I should be by his side now, not you, you're not even worthy of him.She told me as she drank from a glass of champagne, smiling and acting like she is talking to a good friend.

-You're right, I told her. Why don't you go next to him now, no one is around him.

-Don't you see it? You are here as his mate, but he is not taking you and introduce you because he is ashamed of you.

I have to say that this was on my mind all night, she was right, but I couldn't let myself feel that way, especially let her see me, I was already weak in front of everyone because I was a human, at least I could do is to keep a straight face.

-Livia no? Look at me...Do I look like I care?

She looked so furious at me.

-He was all these nights with me you know? Sleeping in my bed, He does not come to his own house because you are there, he can't stand to see you.

I have to say, that hurt a little bit, honestly, I didn't know why maybe this bond-mate thing started to affect me. I put my glass on the table and left this b***h and her poisonous mouth, and went to the ladies' room. 

I went into a toilet and sat on the lid with my hands on my head, I couldn't let all this affect me, I promised myself that if I do this I would do it to make me feel better, not worse, I decided to remain into the toilet until the party is over.

Tyler's P.O.V

I was busy all week, however late at night I did not return home, I was at Livia, I did not want my mate to hear us, my wolf seemed to be quite angry with me because I reject my mate so much, but she wouldn't feel what I felt so I didn't care too much. When I got to the Maison my mother was there, she told me how Harper is very smart and obedient and catches everything very quickly. Suddenly I heard some footsteps behind me and I turned, there she was... for the first time I saw her as she was in fact, beautiful with her hair on her back and a dress that fit her very well, my eyes aimed at the place where I should mark it was so visible that I was angry for a moment.

 -Don't you have anything to wear on top? it is cold outside.

-I am fine, the ceremony is indoor.she said, 

I was angry that she talked me back but I decided to let it be. In the car, I kept looking at her but she spaced out looking on the window. Even she was human the bond with her seemed pretty strong, I was furious that she didn't feel the same. All the ceremony I tried to stay away from her not talking and introducing her as my mate to no one, even everybody knew already that she is my mate, but secretly I watched her see what is she doing, my blood freeze in my veins when I saw Livia approaching her, I felt like a cheating husband, knowing Livia she probably told her that I spent this nights at her house, they talked for a few seconds and then I saw my mate passed me and completely ignored me. I turned my head to watch her.

People were still talking to me, but I couldn't concentrate, good minutes had passed and I couldn't see Harper anywhere, I tried in vain to look for her, she seemed untraceable. Did she leave? she couldn't ... alone, it was dangerous. I politely apologized and went to Livia, grabbed her hand angrily, and asked her: 

-What did you tell Harper?!

 -Tyler, it hurts ...she gasped I told her what she already knew ... she didn't look too upset. 

-f**k Livia ... don't make things more complicated than they are.

I let go of her hand and angrily started looking for her ... a thought of panic began to grip me. I went into the women's toilet without caring and started screaming.

-Harper ?! Are you here!?

I knocked on all the doors.

Then I saw her come out of a toilet scared. I punched the door and felt relieved.

-f**k Harper! What are you doing here?!

-Is it the women's toilet what do you think I'm doing ?!

-You've been here for 40 minutes! I yelled.

-So what? I was bored out there… and I thought that is best to be here for both of us. We were both uncomfortable Ty...You don't want me here but you have no choice and I don't like people looking at me with mercy...poor human, poor alpha, what an unlucky situation...so I figure out I should stay here until the party is over, for both of us.

She sounded so sincere and I felt so sad when she told me all that, she was right, at that moment I couldn't hold myself and I grabbed her head and kissed her.