Beyond My Dreams

Chapter 1

It really hurts loving someone who loves someone else and it hurts more because it is my bestfriend, and my childhood memories are crap and full of pain, that's when I met him the love of my life my true love who supported me and be with me, at first I didn't notice him and he's "beyond my dreams"

It was 7 minutes after midnight. Were it all began. The beating I got from my parents the time they treat me like a dog and not a human or even their daughter But I did not fight back. Why? Cause Im already dead inside.Therefore they just beat someone who's internally dead. Many admired me but they didn't know that behind this beautiful smile is a depressive one.

It was a special pleasure to see them suffering. With the business problems seeing them so stressed out and dont know what to do making me somehow "happy" and there we go the favorite child of the family my older sister the so called "perfect" but actually has so may flaws. Sleeping around like a s**t she is, getting money in one night stands, giving the best of her to some guys who will only appreciate her body and nothing else, Is this what they call "perfect". And theres me a girl who's doing her best in everything but got ignore in many ways. In school, they call me "Ms. Perfect", you know sometimes its the best to be with someone who's not related to you cause they appreciate you more than your true relatives.

The day were my problems become more tragic. Someone from my dream always comfort me, I want to meet him saying thank you for being there for me even not physically, I want to be with for the rest of my life. "Thank you for being my light through my darkest time".

I write this alone in my cold room with the moon watching me.

Now that I found the person beyond my dreams, feeling the comfort and love he gave, making my heart beat so fast and taking care of me especially when Im in need, giving me a compassionate love is all I need. Without him my life would be so crappy and sad but now that he's with me the flower that died years ago bloom again and come back with a new me.

Dear Elaine, It has been 3 years now since that day that we met unfortunately that time you wanted to end your life because you feel like you have no purpose in this world, but the day that I met you i promise myself that I will give you a purpose to live and be with you until death do us apart. The memory is still fresh in my mind and every time I relive the moment, a small smile starts to lay itself out along my lips. This then leads to more memories, all leading me back to you! So many times we all hear the same advice, "you will know when the person you have in front of you is THE one.. its funny, before you see and feel it for yourself, it's impossible to imagine how that can even be possible ... but its true, something happens in a flash of a moment, when your mind is unable to take over and your whole body just lets you know that its ok ... this person is finally THE ONE. Well... that is how I feel about you, I know I should probably be telling you all these deep, heartfelt feelings of mine face to face, here I am kneeling to you taking our relationship into next level where in you will be mine forever and I will be yours. I can delete words and sentences and correct things as I go along before being ready with my final draft of my heart felt feelings and thoughts. A part of me just felt I would rather get it out right, in your eyes, just once, rather than appear a bumbling mess of nerves when all my thoughts were seemingly locked in my heart and mind; I am sure with you in front of me for such a baring of my soul, that my nerves would have gotten the better of me and I wouldn't have been able to say even one sentence of all the feelings that I feel for you! I would like to make it up to you however, I know I come late to your life that our time together has been sacrificed for my personal gain. As a result, I believe it would be best if we were no longer boyfriend and girlfriend but rather husband and wife... Will you? I hope so, ... .I am waiting for your reply, I hope that you agree...giving you the best of me and take all the responsibilities...WILL YOU MARRY ME?

Despite the problems they faced together they still managed to be together...I choose you and I'll choose you over and over. In a heartbeat. I'll keep choosing you. To the world you maybe one person but to me your my world who completed me. Like a water I will not survive without you...I thought true love doesn't exist not until I met you the guy I never thought I would have, I would meet, your the greatest thing that happened to me your a gift that God has given to me. Its true that true love is about the feelings you have to each other, how your lover made your heartbeat fasts, how they make you feel a butterfly in your stomachs and now I learn all of this that the appearance of a person is a bonus but the feelings you have to each other is the important thing when you got into relationships. Being loved is one of the greatest thing you will feel. So I Elaine Smith will tell you the story and how I met the person I longed beyond my dreams...