After being a b***h all my life, after losing my parents, after isolating myself from everybody, I found joy. The type of joy I used to feel when my dad took us out to a picnic, the type of joy you could only the birth of Castiel Nicklaus Shade could give me-us. Just knowing I had a lifetime to cherish my little boy was enough to get me through the fear the parenthood gave me. Caspian was as afraid as I was when my water broke a week after we'd decided on the name. But just holding our little Castiel was enough to relax us both. His soft round baby face and rosy cheeks and his beautiful blue eyes.
I continued walking into the forest, and when I finally found the spot I smiled,I reached up and climbed up on a branch of the thick oak tree. I sighed and leaned on the trunk of it, remembering
