Always been love

I want you

‘please have a seat.’ Sebastian said nervousness evident in his voice and that’s all it took to ease mine, knowing that I make the powerful Sebastian nervous. I nodded and took the seat in front of him my eyes looking anywhere but him. It fell silent for a while and I lifted my eyes to find him smiling at me. I gulped.

‘You look nervous.’ he said I guess trying to change the awkwardness.

‘ you too.’ I said chuckling at him with my eyebrows raised. He scratched the back his head chuckling softly too.

‘Sooo....’ he said dragging the word as if asking why I’m here.

‘ I came to apologize.’ I sighed looking down fiddling with my fingers as nerves went on high. I know I’ve apologized but I needed to be the bigger person and I wanted the job if it was still available.

‘ you already did that, I was the asshole here.’ I looked up only to be met by the guilt in his eyes.

‘ from the first time we met I was an asshole for no reason at all. When I first saw you and held you in my arms to prevent you from falling, something in me was moved by your beauty and I could tell you’re a pure soul but that’s not what I needed that time.’

‘ that’s not what I need now.’ It hurt a little that he wanted to feel nothing for me but I was still happy to know he feels the same way. All this time we were looking at each other in the eye no one willing to break the contact. I’m sure he saw the hurt flicker in my eyes because I saw guilt flashing in those beautiful eyes I once found myself lost in.

‘ I understand and I’m glad you took the words out of my mouth because I also don’t need what I can’t even put a name on and I still need the job.’

‘ and that’s if it’s still available.’ I say slightly smiling. He nods.

‘Of course it is, you were the best I ever had.’

‘ for one day? You’re joking right?’ I said laughing not believing him.

‘ it might have been one day but you did a lot than my previous assistants which shows that you’re serious about what you do and you have potential in the business world.’ Is that what I think it is? f**k yeah!!! It’s a compliment from Sebastian Condos.

‘ thank you and for giving me my job back even though I think I didn’t have a choice.’ I said eyeing him suspiciously.

‘Joe told you?’ He said amusement evident in his voice.

‘ yes, you own the restaurant but he seemed to have been meeting you for the first time that day.’

‘ I don’t go there very often, I knew that lad was smitten with you. Now he’s telling you my secrets?’ He said with a mischievous smile. He looked beautiful when smiling.

‘You mean he’s smitten with you.’ I said smirking with my eyebrow up.

‘ no no no.’ He said like he didn’t believe me for once.

‘ don’t be a homophobe now boss.’ he was red.

‘ I’d never, just that I didn’t expect that and I’m straight as a ruler so I’m just shocked.’

‘ mhhh’ I said teasing and he laughed.

‘ see Ms Marcello I like women with black hair, tan skin, curves and blue eyes.’ he said and smirked when he saw my reaction. Those were my features! How could he possibly make me feel this way after we agreed to not entertain our feelings.

‘ I think I’ll go to my station if that’s okay with you?’ I said looking everywhere but him.

‘You can go to your station.’ I quickly got up and headed for the door when I heard him call me.

‘Yes sir?’

‘ thank you for coming back.’ He said sounding genuine so I gave him a simple nod and smile and made my way out. Why does he have to make things so complicated? I made my way to Mrs Simpson’s desk because we didn’t get to talk downstairs.

‘ hi Mrs Simpson.’ I said excited to finally get to talk to her.

‘ Rory hi.’ She said getting around her desk coming to engulf me into a bear hug. She’s so warm and motherly.

‘ so??’ she said breaking the hug looking hopeful.

‘ I’m back!’ I said squealing like a baby hugging her again.

‘ I’m so happy for you baby, if Sebastian ever gets silly again come to me.’

‘ even though I think he won’t but I will come to you.’

‘ and thank you for your support. It meant a lot.’

‘ it’s nothing my baby.’ I felt like a baby again in her mother’s arms.

‘ I hate to be a party pooper but Ms Marcelo I emailed you details about a meeting we’re attending in the afternoon. The hardcopy is on your desk, I need you to go through the deal and come to my office if there’s something you don’t understand.’ He said and turned on his heels towards his office.

‘ yes sir.’ I said waving goodbye at Ms Simpson and went to my station. I indeed found the copy at my desk and I immediately went through it after checking the email and jotting down the details of the meeting. It was close to 10 O’ clock when I started and when I checked after a while it was 30 minutes to 1pm so I wrapped up my things and took my purse. I collected the company card and went to the restaurant downstairs acting oblivious to the stare of the receptionist with dusty makeup. I didn’t understand her problem at all. It was 5 minutes to 1 pm which is lunchtime and I made my way up and gave Ms Simpson her food and placed mine at my desk before I knocked at the door of my boss. I got in when he welcomed me and put the food at his table.

‘ your food sir.’ He always looked stiff when working and I wanted nothing more than to touch those rigid shoulders.

‘ thank you Ms Marcello.’ I nodded and my made my way out.

‘ could I please shorten your lunch to 30 minutes? I need your opinion on some things before we head to the meeting.’

‘ of course sir.’ I don’t eat for an hour anyways. He nodded and I took that as we’re finished so I made my way to my station. It took me about 25 minutes to eat my nachos when I remembered I didn’t get drinks for Ms Simpson and Sebastian so I threw my takeaway in the bin and made my way to the kitchen. I found the receptionist from ground floor I totally forgot her name.

What is she doing here?

‘Oh hey there Ms Marcello.’ She said too nice for my liking so I sent a small wave smiling at her. I opened the fridge to take the drinks and water for me. She was just standing there doing nothing so instead of walking away I asked her her something.

‘ May I please ask what you’re doing here?’

‘ what does it look like I’m doing?’ She said with an attitude.

‘ standing?’ I said in a sarcastic way.

‘ I’m making coffee, our coffee machine broke.’ She said shrugging and I looked at the machine

‘ did boss give you the permission?’

‘ what’s it to you? Are you f*****g him?’

‘ are you serious? How.....’ I was interrupted by none other than my boss.

‘ What is going on here?.’

‘ I was here to take some drinks.’

‘ me too but I’m asking what’s the noise about?’

‘ then I simply asked her what she’s doing here and did she get permission from you to be here.’

‘ so?’ he said looking at the receptionist now expecting an answer.

‘ our coffee machine broke sir so I came here.’

‘ how many floors are the from ground floor to this 18th floor did you skip?’

‘ 17 sir.’

‘ and you decided to come right here breaking my rules?’ It went quiet.

‘ I’m talking to you Ms.’ he also doesn’t remember her name? She looked hurt and that’s when I knew she was in love with him.

‘ I’m sorry sir I..’

‘ Get out of my sight.’ He said turning leaving me there with the girl who gave me the most dirtiest glare I’ve ever seen. I shrugged and followed after Sebastian to give him his drink.

‘ do you still need me sir?’ I saiid threading lightly with my words as he still looked pissed.

‘ yes take a seat please.’ I nodded.

We went over the business contract we were about to go to the meeting for and he kept asking me for alternatives of the offers. It amazed me how he valued my opinions and seemed pleased whenever I talked.

‘ Ms Marcello I want you.’ My head shot up quickly reacting to his statement.

‘ what?’ I didn’t mean for it to come out as a whisper.

‘ I want you to go get your things ready we’re leaving in 5 minutes.’ Oh, my heart side but I sighed on the outside.

‘ okay sir.’