Kat
580 Words
Dear Diary,
There may be some tears but I’m leaving Australia for good. It’s a definite! I will miss and never forget this place, but I need to get away from Claudio. It’s so funny … if someone woulda told me five years ago that I’d be so disgusted by just the mention of his name, I would not have believed them.
When I was thirteen, my father, Jackson Brazilson died. I took his death really hard (who wouldn’t) and all of the sudden, I meet Claudio Felix. At the time, he was about fifteen. He was attractive, he was popular, he was in high school … and all I wanted was to be with him. So, when I was fourteen, we started to date. I realized later on what was already obvious to my mother … I got with him to replace the grief of my father’s death.
Believe it or not, I was in love with him. I would do anything for him, and I did. I felt like he was my life. During that time, my mom and I weren’t so close. When I was fifteen, I found out I was pregnant. I was a little scared but extremely happy cuz I was in love and about to have a child with the most wonderful man (next to my father) on this Earth! I thought he’d be as happy as I was … if not, happier. Instead, when I told him I was baring his child, he dumped me. He just … flat out dumped me. The very next day … and I do mean the very next day … I saw him kissing some other girl. I was devastated. Here I loved this boy, lost my virginity to this boy, dedicated my life and time to this boy to find out he was just that … a boy; a little boy who had no problem making a child but didn’t wanna take care of one. I felt so alone. I had pushed my mom away so that I could start a new life with Claudio when in all seriousness, I was looking for a male figure to depend on and look up to now that my daddy was gone. Luckily for me, my mom already saw it coming and held no grudges because when I was sixteen and I gave birth to my daughter, she was standing right by my side.
I had been thinking of names since the day I found out I was pregnant. I settled on Meralei for the first name, but I needed help with a middle name. My mom and I had combined both our names (Rebecca and Kataleena) and named my baby girl Meralei Caleena Brazilson.
It’s been a little over two years since Claudio and I split, and I haven’t seen him once but … call it women’s intuition. I have this weird feeling … like any day now he’ll be around, and I don’t want him anywhere near Meralei. My daughter does not need that deadbeat poppin in and out her life whenever it’s convenient for him tryna play daddy for a day. We are doing just fine without him and to further cement that … I’m moving us back home … to Jupitervale.
Sincerely,
Kat
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