Scars

Silence hurts sometimes

I thought you loved me. That it was all a bad patch. That we were much stronger than all that. I thought if I asked you for a break, you would try to fix everything ... so that it doesn't come to this.

You promised me the moon, remember?

You gave me your heart, do you remember? You promised to always be there for me ... no matter what. You made me promises of love that ... I believed. You were so sincere. You lived for me.

Today, as everything seems to have changed ... Now, I am a burden for you. I haven't cried since our argument. My aching heart is tired. My voice is tired, my body is tired ... My mind is too ... But now I feel that my tears will flow if you don't call me ...

Time goes by and my cell phone does not ring .. ..I am hurting ... You are hurting me ... without wanting to. I know I told you that from now on it would be you who would call me and not to call me at night ... You said okay without retaliating ... But I wanted you to call me. ..I said things I didn't mean to provoke you.

I decreased our calls so that your lack of me is strong and that the desire to see me is vital to you ... Yet I'm afraid ... that we are moving away ... that you will forget me ... that you are cheating on me ...

I can convince myself that this would be the proof that you did not really love me and the end of our story ... that would hurt me tremendously.

This whole thing hurts me ... I don't really know where we are. I'm in pain, you know? I didn't want to get that far ... I just wanted you to sincerely apologize to me ... tell me that you love me ... but now it's too late ... I have it impression of sinking ...

Why didn't you calm me down with I love you? Why did you ignore my reproaches? Don't you love me Why did you say okay with my decision to walk away? I just wanted you to hug me, tell me you love me ... And it would all be over ... All our arguments ...

I don't know anything anymore. I no longer understand what is going on. My day has been terrible ... Your silence hurts me ...