Scars

Sick

Sick

I feel lonely

In this empty house

All dusty of our memories of yesteryear

I want you to come back

I have fever, flu and even malaria

I shake every second

My eyes go to the door

But who is this stranger whose presence

Will come to revive my past happiness

I want you to come back

I have a headache, sweating and immersing myself

In my sweaty bed

I have the fever of you, of your body, of your eyes

I want you to come back

My sweet heartache

I waver from the top of a cliff

Through the glass of the past

Your face has never looked so close to me

Since that time when I long for you

I have a headache, I have a fever

The fever of you

Come back please

Memories fly through my head

I want you to come back honey

Even if in a corner of my memory

I know you never really existed!

*****

Truce

My hands have bled a river of blood

For this letter to be addressed to you

I cried so many tears

Before accepting my defeat

I counted down for so many seconds

The moment of truth

I roared like a dog

So many times and howl at the moon so many nights

I won't hide

Despite my fear

I will stay strong in my pain

I will make my sadness a castle

I will put my condemned crown on my head I cry out in tears in my four-poster bed

I self-harm

I imprison my frivolous heart

I prevent myself from loving you

Because the source of my agony

Is the love I have for you.