Gangster Love

Awake

I lie here, awake,

the arms of another transient lover,

of you.

Once we were closer than brothers;

every night I listen, straining to hear

distant thunder of your guns.

I know they point through the darkness,

bolts of lightning flashing my name,

shot aimed at my heart.

I lie here, awake,

frightened animal hunched

your torrential storm.