Waking up to this morning is not the same as any of the previous mornings; I’m not feeling disgusted anymore, I don’t feel myself submerged in the hatred anymore, and I’m not thinking about any escape plan after waking up, everything is feeling alright. But at the same time I’m also embarrassed regarding my behavior last night; I almost lost myself, I presented myself, and that man, he didn’t take any advantage of it, when he is presumed to be exactly that sort of person. Anyhow I feel light today, and the funny part is I don’t mind going back to the mansion now; I think it’s not that bad living with Gabriel, now that I know the person who resides deep inside him. But I will never exhibit my satisfaction to him that may of course provoke his bad behavior towards me again. I jump out of the
