It’s been my fourth day being grounded in this room. Gabriel taunted me on going to another hunger strike because he knew I wasn’t up for it now; I have zero potential to let myself go on a war with myself and I definitely can’t let myself die on account of the rage that I have for this man right now, life is not worth wasting on him. So I have decided not to let myself down anymore; I will try to stay calm, keep myself sane, read a book, take a warm bath twice a day, wear beautiful dresses, eat the food thankfully rather than wasting it and take a good nap. Because I have learned something from this event that no matter what I do I will only make myself suffer, that man is not going to move a bit from it he will continue to torture me and when his cruelty is enough for me then why I also
