LOST 2

LOST (EPISODE 2)

I dressed up and got into school..called my friend and he told me the exact area he was at..I had only walked few minutes when I saw someone that looked like Jessica, was I dreaming? or I was beginning to see her in other people's faces?

I observed closely.. Jessica was really light skinned so you could see her from afar even if she stood in a crowd..it really was Jessica..I was not seeing wrongly, she was walking with someone,a guy, that guy, that same guy from the other day !

They were almost holding hands and just taking a stroll ..it didn't even matter to them if the sun was hot..they were obviously enjoying the stroll and didn't want it to end anytime soon.. I had a mental breakdown right there..my knees were weak,felt heavy ..felt like I couldn't walk anymore,I almost had tears in my eyes..so many questions in my head,so many scenarios playing..it felt like a stab directly to my chest.I made up my mind that day ,I was going to cut off every form of communication with Jessica... I was going to withdraw emotionally from her..I knew it was going to be difficult but I was willing to try ..I couldn't let myself be this vulnerable emotionally.. she hurt me ..and she didn't even bother about calling back to apologize...our friendship actually meant nothing to her.. I was just a "friend" she could use anytime she wanted and discard when she wanted..

Well ,over the weekend I resisted and fought every urge to call or text her and she didn't bother calling either..

Monday..we saw in class and she came to me smiling ... Really? smiling? ...

I kept a straight face, I wasn't interested in whatever she had to say ..

But to my surprise she avoided the whole issue and tried to behave like nothing happened..like we were not supposed to see ,like she didn't ignore my calls and didn't even return them,like I didn't see her with another guy when she was supposed to be with me.. My head was boiling but I kept my cool ..

I didn't want to show too much emotions ..so I calmly asked her why she didn't take my calls and she didn't return them.. she had nothing to say ..she just looked away ..

"Who was that guy I saw you with?" I finally got the courage to ask her. " he is my friend, he's in computer science department,level 200".. she replied.."he's just my friend,and he asked me to come meet him in school that day"

My head blew. he asked you to come meet him ? and you went and had to ignore my calls to be with him .. That was the last straw ..I couldn't take it anymore..I told her to avoid me from that day ..and I was going to stay away from her also ..I didn't want to get involved in whatever was going on and I didn't want to get myself hurt either.

She didn't act surprised though..like she was expecting something like that and had prepared for the worst. she stayed quiet for something and then stood up and left .she didn't say any words to me.. she had already made up her mind earlier than now..she only wanted to know my reaction.

Well ,even the friend zone I thought I had secured and was enjoying ,some guy has pushed me off it ,I had actually lost both ends.

So many questions kept running in my mind.why would Jessica treat me this way? Did she not like me enough? was I not good enough? was she expecting more efforts from me and I was been comfortable with the friendzone?,was it because the guy was higher in level than us? was he more handsome than I was? or he spends more on her than I did?

So many questions ran through my mind.. I didn't know the answers.. she had the answers but I just ended our friendship.. my whole day in class was ruined .I was so absent -minded ..even when my two friends Mike and Victor came around ..my mind was far..

I kept staring at her where she was seated.. my eyes followed her every movement..who she talked with,if she laughed..if she smiled..was she feeling bad.. I just kept staring.Well, hours turned to days and days turned to weeks and we just quietly moved on from each other.. we completely avoided ourselves..we didn't speak to each other or even greet when we cross paths... seemed like the feeling s we had for each other was more of dislike now.. I still liked her though but I was not going to take any more of that disrespect from her..I got new friends and she also did..

It was during this period I met Sandra..she was not a regular..came for lectures once in a while and was off immediately the day was over..

we sat close to each other one day and she was visibly irritated by the lecturer..he kept going round in circles and was taking too much time.. she kept sighing and cussing under her breath .. it was really funny to me..

I finally asked her what the problem was ? she just looked at me and said she was tired and wanted to go home..I told her to calm down, the lecture was going to be over soon .. meanwhile I asked her why Iv Neva noticed her in class ..

she was not too pretty like Jessica but she was way matured and direct..we got talking and at least I was a distraction for her from the boring lecture..

Finally the lecture was over and I walked her outside.. she was going home immediately,i was not yet.. but i had hopes we were going to see the next day..

Like I noticed ..she was very direct.. she had little filter in her words and was very quick to express her feelings.. we quickly got to know each other and became close friends..

My suspicions were true ,she was older than I was.. and she obviously knew.. I was her younger sisters age mate.. but that didn't matter ,we clicked ..we shared so many things in common..

Sandra also had a serious boyfriend but this time it was a different case ..I was not romantically attracted to Sandra..I just liked her as my friend..I visited her regularly and she was made sure I ate enough before leaving ..I was not going to ruin that relationship for any reason...

Quickly she became "momma" for me and my other friends Mike and Victor..we were always following her around and at her service.