When Worlds Collide

Chapter Eighteen

Lucas' POV

What's happening to me, really? Why do it feels like my heart is torn apart. My brother was saved from danger but I have to avoid Chandrea and let him be with Alex because it's their fate-they are meant for each other. 

"I don't really know. I am so confused that it's making me crazy. When Chan cried awhile ago after I said those words, my heart feels like it's tearing apart." 

Chandrea and I became closer as days gone by. I must be in denial because the worlds we are on are really different. Our worlds collided and I don't even realized that I am attracted to her at the very first place but because we are different, I can't pursue her. I can't really love her and like her because I am different.

"Why is it so complicated? Why?" I want to shout. I want to run to her to hug her and apologize but I know it's too late.

"Lucas!" 

"Alex?! Wait-what are-what are you doing?!" He suddenly grabbed my collar and pushed me at the edge of the bridge. We might fall at the river! "Wait, what's the matter Alex?!"

"What do you really want from Chandrea huh?!"

"What are you talking about?! Hey, let go of me! We might fall!"

He looks really furious and he was looking at me like he is ready to kill me anytime. "If you don't like her then why do you always cling on her?! Why do you make her cry like that?! Why let her feel special when you will eventually leave her?! Why?!"

"Wait, you don't know anything!"

"Why?! I like Chandrea. No. I love her! So you don't have the right to hurt her!"

"Wait, let go of me!"

I tried to let go of him and push him away but it was too late. We suddenly fell into the river and I suddenly hear a voice-a voice that was asking for help.

I want to live.

Save me, please.

Every day of my life, I want to die or kill myself, but this time, I really want to live. Please save me.

A boy who was also drowning. A boy who was asking for help. A boy who was dying. It was me. It was my past-the past that I almost clearly forgot.

I want to live.

~*~

Where am I? Wait-am I at the hospital?

"A--aww." I sat straight only to find our that I was really at the hospital and my head hurts. What happened?

"Mister, how are you feeling?" A nurse asked me. 

"What happened?" I asked her in return.

"Someone reported that you were drowning at the river sir." Drowning at the river? Wait-I already remember! Where's Alex?!

"Nurse, where is the other guy who was with me?!"

"Other guy? You were alone sir."

"What?! Someone was with me nurse. He was drowning as well!"

"Sir, you were alone." No. This can't be-it was clear that Alex was with me. Is he?! "Sir! You still need to be monitored! Sir!" 

I need to look for Alex. I need to see if he was okay. It was clear that he suddenly appeared in front of me and scolded me for the things I said to Chandrea then we fell down the bridge and were almost drowned at the river but where is he?

"B--Big Boss. What are you doing here?" He blocked my way going out of the hospital. What is he doing here?

"What are you doing, Lucas?"

"I need to know where Alex is! He was not found at the river with me!"

"Don't mind about that Alex. What you have to save right now is yourself. What are you thinking?! Lucas, you know what will happen to you when you listen to your feelings. You will dissipate like dust." I know but I can't live Chandrea alone!

"I know. But do you think I am afraid?"

"Lucas--"

"Big Boss, when I was drowning last night, I suddenly want to live and the first person that I thought of was Chandrea. What did you do to my past?"

"Y--you remembered everything?" Everything? So there's more than what I remembered last night?

"So there's more than I remembered last night? I only remember the 12-year old me who was drowning at the water. So there's more? Answer me Big Boss!"

"Lucas, that's not important!" What?! What's not important?! It's my past!

"You're unbelievable!"

"Hey, where are you going?! Lucas!" 

I didn't respond to him yet I paved my way to the hospital where my brother is at. Despite of what's happening, I still need to take care of my brother. I need to check if he can go out of the hospital already.

"Lucas-"

"How are you bro?" I asked him as I reached his room.

"I am feeling really fine already. Do you know when can I go home?"

I suddenly felt relieved when he asked that so I smiled at him. "I will still ask the doctor about that bro. For now, you have to rest and gain energy."

"Bro."

"What?"

"I have something to tell you."

"What is it?" This kind of conversation makes me nervous.

"Remember when I found you? You were wandering around the street and you suddenly fainted. People were looking at you because of your wings that time and there's no one to help you because of that."

"You came to me and you helped me but my wings suddenly disappeared?"

He nodded at me. "I also found something on your pocket."

"Huh? What was it?"

"It was at the notebook located at your table's drawer at your room." A notebook? Why am I not noticing it?

"I thought that notebook is yours so I am not looking at it. I was suppose to ask you what is it but every time I thought of asking you, you were busy so I can't find any time to ask."

"It might help you about your past."

"Wait, dude--how do you know something about my past?"

"When I found you, I was asking you about your parents and all you can say is you don't know them and you were just sent here. You were an angel-human that time and you were just a teen. You grew up with me as an angel-human and I think you deserve to find the answers to your questions. I know you have that questions inside you. Being an angel-human, I know it is hard for you. Before you can return to paradise, I want you to find your past and always remember that I am here for you."

I really don't know what to say. Eros accepted me without asking me anything about my real identity. He knew that I was an angel-human that time and he didn't hesitate to help me when I was sent to this place. When angels turned into humans, they will be hurt as humans and they will feel what humans feel but their wings and some special powers will still be visible and they can still use that. Years had passed and my memory were all erased when I became an angel turned into human. Now, I can remember a part of it. Eros was right. Before I can return to paradise, I need to know about my past first so I can have a peace of mind. I need to find the answers to the questions that were bothering me since then.

I focused on taking care of my brother until the day which he can be discharged came already. I spent my time at the hospital and after that day when Chandrea and I exchanged hurtful words, she didn't come to the hospital. She became busy on her ballet practice for their performance of Giselle. I wish I can watch her but I know she is happy now. Alex will not let her anyone hurt her. I guess this is the end of my mission. I already sent her to her fate. Weeks had passed already and my brother also went back to his work already after taking a long vacation. 

Now, I am going to find the answer to my questions. I am going to find the place where this picture was taken. I was with a girl at this picture, sitting at a huge rock and the background was a beautiful seaside. I need to find out who was this girl and what's our connection with each other. 

Chandrea's POV

Hey! Open the door! We are already leaving! I am not coming back! Open the door! I need to talk to you! I have to give something for you! We might not see each other again! Open the door! Please! Hey! We might not see each other again! I am leaving already! Hey! You don't want to open the door?! Okay fine! I hate you! I don't want to be friends with you anymore!

"Whoa--what was that dream?!"

I sat straight and looked at my phone. It was still dawn. It's still early yet I woke up because of a dream. Was that me? Am I that girl who was knocking at a wooden gate and shouting out loud?