Taming The Alpha's Daughter

Secrets

School sucked now. I had to go to all my classes, no skipping. And on top of that I had to keep 2 guards with me at all times AND 2 guards had to stand outside the door of the classroom. It made everybody uncomfortable (especially me) and it really pissed Joshua off.

At lunch the guards were nice enough to stand back away from the table against the wall, so that me and my friends could feel that we had some sense of privacy.

“So they stand in the classroom behind you, just watching you all day?” Mar said staring at the 2 tall muscled men standing behind our table.

“And 2 by the door just in case.” I said pointing to 2 standing by the cafeteria doors. There was a table of girls ogling over them by the door.

“Its incredibly honorable, protecting the future Alpha.” Pete said looking at them with pride. 

Such an ass kiss. Typical.

“I don’t get it. If a girl says she doesn’t want something, and you don’t get it for her, why does she still get mad? Danielle is making me crazy!” Bentley is typing furiously on his cell phone.

Mar and I giggle, Nicky sighs.

“She’s playing hard to get, Bent. You have to play along!” I laugh at him.

“I thought I already had her! Why do I have to keep playing these games? Its f*****g exhausting! When can I just mark her and she can do things for me.” He looks so frustrated.

I roll my eyes. I inhale a familiar scent and look to see my favorite person. He has his hand behind his back with a giant smile.

I stand up and wrap my arms around his neck, he wraps his free arm around me and leans down to kiss me.

“I have come bearing gifts!” He said with his adorable smile.

“You have, huh? What gifts might those be?” I say holding onto his shirt.

He pulls out a small bouquet of yellow daisies and a box. The box looks like it comes from a bakery so I am already excited.

I take a deep inhale of the daisies and smile at him. “Daisies again, Shawn. Keep this up and I will be expecting them often.”  I turn to the box, putting it on the table. Upon opening it, I find some mini donuts, cinnamon sugar. I laugh and look at him to which he laughs. He pulls me to him and kisses me. “I can’t just watch you eat fries every day of your life, Xan.” He says. He sits on the chair, pulling me to his lap and I begin to enjoy my donuts. He talks to my friends as usual, they have all taken him as one of us now. 

How could they not? He’s so likable. 

I thank the Moon Goddess again for blessing me with him. Maybe she’s not wrong all the time after all.

As usual, Shawn carries me to 6th period, enjoying my onslaught of kisses. Its a bit stranger now though with a posse of brute guards walking around us like the secret service. Pete still walks behind us, uncomfortable as ever. He still doesn’t like to watch someone he has looked at as his little sister make out with someone he looks at as an ass chasing football player. But he’s coming to terms with it. I’m proud of him.

When we get to class, Shawn sets me down and kisses me. He sets my backpack down behind my desk then kisses my head after I sit at my desk. He pats Pete’s shoulder and heads to his class.

I already feel the glares of Joshua.

Pete leans over, “Don’t let him bother you, Xannie. Remember we have the guards here watching. He can’t touch you now.”

I smile at him and hold his hand. Pete is such a great person. I was blessed to have him as my Gamma.

I look at Joshua out of the corner of my eye and see him leaning over to talk to Jackson. I scoot closer to Pete. Pete looks back at me then over at them. He wraps his arm around me, pulling my chair closer to him.

I could feel the tension in the room rising. The guards behind us must have too, I felt them take a couple steps closer.

‘Is everything ok, daughter? Larry says you are feeling threatened. Is it Alpha Joshua again?’ My dad mindlinked.

‘Its ok, daddy. Pete is here and the guards are all here. He just makes me nervous. I want to rip his face off.’ I linked back.

My dad laughed back in the link, ‘I understand my little Alexandria. Such a pistol. Stay close to Pete. And stay away from that sad excuse of an Alpha. We just have to get you through graduation and we can wash our hands of him.’

I turned my attention back to the teacher who looked very uncomfortable by having a bunch of grown men hovering around her classroom. I held onto Pete’s arm for security until I could get back to Shawn.

Unfortunately I wouldn’t be able to skip last period to see Shawn’s football practice today. I hadn’t been to Study Hall in so long that I dreaded it. I walked in and of course, there was Joshua and Jackson. 

How are they in so many of my f*****g classes? It made my body actually start to heat up with anger. And as if it couldn’t get worse, they sat by Aaron the perv. And they all acted buddy buddy together. Asshole. I should have the traitor locked in the damn dungeon for this.

I put my earbuds into my ears, checking to make sure my guards were behind me. I draped my hair over the side of my desk, scrolling through my phone, finding what song I wanted to start my nap to. I laid my head in my arms and closed my eyes.

Soon after I opened my eyes to a notification on my phone. I smiled, expecting a text from Shawn. 

He misses me, I just know!

It was an unknown number.

‘Hey Xan. Its Dustin. I know we haven’t talked in a while. I haven’t been able to stop thinking about you. I just want to know you’re ok. I miss you.’

My heart dropped to my stomach and I felt the color drain from my face. I was frozen in place. The rush of memories of Dustin and I came flooding back. His touch, his kiss, his hold he had over me. Even when I had a mate. He had this pull on me. Will he have that pull on me over Shawn?

Dread washed over me now. I can’t lose Shawn. I loved Shawn.

But did I love Dustin?

I know I loved Shawn. But did I love him only because of the mate bond? I didn’t have that bond with Dustin and yet I still had such a strong connection with him. It was like I loved him without being forced to.

No. Stop, Xan. You’re overthinking this. Just stop.

‘Hi Dustin. I’m fine. Hope you’re doing well too. I have a new mate and I’m happy. I think its best we just don’t talk to each other. Sorry.’ 

I type it. But I couldn’t send it. My heart hurt at the thought of sending it. My heart hurt at the thought of hurting Dustin.

‘Send it, Xan. We can’t risk losing Shawn. He’s special. He’s more than we will ever need.’ My wolf told me.

She’s right. I press send. And I feel a tear fall. I’m crying. For Dustin. Why? 

I wipe my eyes and look up. Aaron, Joshua, and Jackson are staring at me. Not even trying to hide it. They don’t look concerned or surprised. In fact, I can’t even tell what they’re thinking. They look as if they’re just watching my actions.

Such assholes.

Suddenly all 3 look to the door at the same time. I turn to see what they’re looking at. Its Shawn. He looks concerned. I smile at him. He comes over to me and picks me up in a tight hug.

“What happened? I could feel your sadness, baby.” He whispers into my ear.

“Mr. Farrow, is everything alright?” The teacher asks.

He lets me go and gives his most charming smile. I have to smile to myself. He’s irresistible. “I’m here to check on my mate, Mrs. Hopp. I won’t take up too much of your time. That's a promise.”

She gives him a look and nods. She looks back to the guards behind me. I think she has drooled over them the entire class so far, I’m surprised she even noticed Shawn come in here.

Shawn turns his attention back to me, sitting on the seat beside me. I look over to Joshua. He is sitting back in his chair with a confused look now. Jackson and Aaron are still just watching. I turn back to Shawn.

“Its nothing. I got a message from someone. It ended up being a wrong number.” I gave a nervous laugh.

He gave me an odd look. “That's strange. What did it say?”

I froze. 

Shit. Why am I such a horrible liar? 

“Um. It just said someone was sick.” I looked down at my phone. He’s gonna know I’m lying. I don’t want to lie to him. Why am I even lying to him?

I look back up at him and he looks a little hurt. 

Yea, he knows.

“Ok. I need to tell you the truth. I can’t lie to you. But this is kind of complicated.” I start to sweat.

I turn to Mrs. Hopp, “Miss, is it ok if I talk to Shawn in the hallway real quick?”

She looks at me then Shawn then the guards then back to me. She nods.

 I turn to the guards. “Guys, can I have a moment, please?” They look hesitant, but knowing there are 2 more in the hallway and the main threat is in the classroom, they agree.

I pull Shawn with me to the hallway. I sit on the floor in front of a group of lockers, he sits beside me.

“Just be honest with me baby. I will always be honest with you.” He grabs my hands and kisses them.

I take a deep breath. “Ok, so you know Derek was my first mate.” I hear him let out a low growl in his chest but cover it up with a cough. I want to smile. He hates being the over possessive mate. He wants to be the sweet and loving kind. He nods. “Ok, do you remember the other rogue he always had with him. The blonde one. His name was Dustin.”

Shawn thought about it for a minute. “Kind of. I think so.”

I took a deep breath again. “Ok. I kind of…..” I bit my lip and looked up at him.

“Ok you’re scaring me, Xan.” He looked worried.

“I kind of started to fall for him.” I said quickly before I lost my nerve.

He leans back a little, surprised. “Your mate’s friend?”

I nodded. “He never knew.”

“Did you guys…. Do stuff?” He asked. I can tell he is still surprised.

“Kissing, touching. We never let it go more than that.” I said looking down. 

I wanted to do more, he didn’t. But I don't want to admit this.

“Wow.” He said, thinking it over. He leaned back against the wall, his  long legs were bent up, his arms dangling off them.

“What are you thinking about?” I ask, afraid of his response. Terrified of now being rejected. Was he afraid if I would cheat with his friends. I thought back to the forest. Shawn, Tim and I. And what we had done.

“That was different, don’t think about that.” He mumbled.

“What?” I asked confused.

He reached over and grabbed me hand. “That night in the woods. Me, you, and Tim. I know you always question it. I can tell. Don’t ask me how. But that was before all this. Same thing with you and Derek and Dustin. Whatever you did or I did. It was before us. We’re mates now. But you have to be honest with me Xan. No lies, please.”

I take my phone and pull the message up and show him the one he sent and the one I sent back. I let him read it.

He looked up at me and gave me a weak smile. “You ok?”

“Yea. I just wasn’t expecting it right now.” I felt awful. He knew I felt sorrow for Dustin. I crawled into his lap and he wrapped his arms around me, kissing my head.

“I love you so much Shawn. I’m sorry I tried to hide this from you. I just didn’t know if I was ready to talk about it with anyone yet.” I admitted.

“Xannie, I am your mate. We share a soul. Our bond can’t grow if you don’t let me into your world completely. If you hide from me, how can I find you?” He held me and rocked me back and forth, feeling so tiny and safe in his arms. I listened to his heart until the bell rang.