WARNING: Chapter Contains Sexually Explicit Material
“Baby. I’m so sorry you had to see that!” Before I could even lay my eyes on him, Shawn had me wrapped in his big, strong arms. And as mad as I wanted to be at him, I needed it. I inhaled him, taking him in until my lungs burned. My hands grabbing desperately onto his shirt, I pushed my body into his as much as I could.
I missed him. I needed him. I hadn’t felt whole since he dropped me off yesterday.
We didn’t say anything to each other, because there wasn’t much else to say. We both knew why he did what he did. In a way, he wasn’t wrong. Tim was purposely walking this fine line for some reason, trying to stir the pot. He got the rise he wanted finally.
After our long hug, Shawn cupped my face in his hands. He held me like I was something so precious to him, I knew I was.
“I’m sorry for who I used to be. I will spend my life making up for it if I have to. I promise you that.” He said before kissing my forehead.
“You don’t have to, Shawn. Don’t apologize for who you were. Please.” I reached out and grabbed his shirt again.
Please don’t f*****g cry again, Xan. Its like you’re starting to suffer from Danielle-itis.
He looked into my eyes puzzled.
“I met you because of who you were, whether I like to admit it or not. I get it. You’ve probably slept with every she-wolf in this school, possibly some of the humans. It doesn’t matter to me. I love you Shawn. As long as you stay true to me from the day we became mates, that’s all that matters to me. I have my own demons too. Its not like I was a nun before we were mates.” I reach up and touch one of his curls. I’ve missed those damn things. “We’re good together. Let’s just stay that way, ok?” I smile and pinch his cheek. He smiles. Goddess, he’s so handsome.
He leans over and kisses me and I feel the electricity. Its like a drug that I haven’t had all day and need to survive. I kiss back harder. He picks me up and wraps me around him, holding me against the lockers. I grab onto his curls while his hands are firmly grasped onto my ass. Our kiss feels like it lasts forever but still doesn’t feel long enough.
An eternity wouldn’t be long enough with Shawn.
Finally someone clears their throat.
Shawn and I pull away from one another and stare at each other, full of lust and out of breath.
I look over and see Danielle, looking away nervously.
I look back to Shawn and smile. He smiles back and slowly sets me down. He walks Danielle and I out to my car, before getting in his Jeep. I tell him I’ll see him in a bit for our dinner date.
On the way home, Danielle admits she’s nervous about being in my house alone. I ask her if she would like me to drop her off at Bentley’s and she says yes. I don’t know why that dickhead couldn’t come get her, but whatever. I drive her over there instead. I tell her to let Mrs. Davis know I’m sorry for not coming in since I need to get ready for my dinner with Shawn, but I would make up for it. I head home to pick out something cute to wear.
I pinned my hair up and took a quick shower to just rinse off any sweat from the day. Plus the dirt from being on the ground.
Afterwards, I picked out what I was sure would drive him wild. A plain stretchy black mini tube dress with long barely attached sleeves that sat under the shoulder. I wore tight thigh high black heeled boots. I knew from the last time I wore tall boots, he was a fan. Surely he would love this. I left my hair down in loose waves and did a cat eye look and my red lipstick.
If this didn’t bring him to his knees, I didn’t know what would.
I thought about what I was going to make him do to make up for his little football bet deal. I smiled.
He was about to step into the world of Xannie Paradis, VIP style.
He linked me that he was there to pick me up, so I took a deep breath and headed out.
Am I nervous? Really? This man had already seen me naked more than once! Why am I nervous?!
When I stepped out, he was waiting by the passenger side to open it for me and holding a bouquet of roses. He looked handsome as ever in a dark maroon sweater with the sleeves rolled to his elbows and a pair of dark jeans. His sweater almost matched his hair! It was adorable. But what was even sweeter was his face when he saw me. His eyes widened and his whole face lit up.
I smiled.
When I made it to him, he wanted to make out with me but I told him he would mess up my lipstick so only small smooches. So then he started to just smooch me over and over and over. He was wearing more of my lipstick than I was by the time he finally got back in the car. He kept telling me how beautiful I was, how lucky he was to have me as his mate, how he would make it up to me for hurting me. All the promises.
I had brought him to his knees. I win!
I smelled the roses he gave me and asked if they were his. He said no, he had to buy those ones. He wanted to make sure he bought me the most perfect red roses. I blushed which in turn made him blush. It was adorable.
He couldn’t keep his hands off me, constantly touching me and playing with my hair. I kept giggling like a school girl. I know, pathetic. But it was really nice though. We needed to have date nights like this more often I think.
We got to the restaurant and he got out and trotted to my door. I really wanted to just get out by myself, but I waited to let him open the door. He was trying very hard to be a real gentleman tonight. I did a double check to make sure I had wiped all the lipstick from his lips before we went inside, giggling as I did. He just stared into my eyes the whole time.
The restaurant was a local favorite for date nights. It was Italian American food like spaghetti and meatballs and such. The hostess seated us, Shawn never taking his eyes off me. He bumped into a waiter and almost knocked over a tray of drinks. When we got to the table, he insisted on sitting on the same side as me instead of across the table. I laughed and rolled my eyes but cuddled up to him as we read over the menus, discussing what sounded best.
I ordered the fettuccine and he went with a steak and spaghetti.
Digging into the breadsticks on the table, we fed each other and snuck kisses, me having to wipe my lipstick off him each time. I kissed him on the cheek, leaving a giant lip print and he insisted I leave it there. For the rest of the night he called it his ‘mark’. Yea, that's how mature we are.
His hands ran all over my body all night, even while we ate, he kept touching my legs and my hair. When we were done we ordered a piece of tiramisu and fed each other. We were so absorbed in each other we didn’t even talk about any of the stuff we were supposed to, but I didn’t mind. I loved being with him. I loved him. It made every problem in my life disappear just being next to him. Before I knew it, dessert was over and it was time to go.
Shawn said he wanted to take me somewhere else real quick. I said ok. I was having so much fun being with him, I didn’t want the night to end yet.
He drove me out to his favorite spot in the woods, where he loved to take his Sunday morning runs. There was this beautiful little creek that had a bunch of little waterfalls. We laid on the front of his Jeep and stared at the moon and stars, listening to the water trickle down the small waterfalls.
“So what is it that I have to do to make it up to you, baby?” He finally asked. He was smiling so brightly, I couldn’t wait to see his reaction.
I reached up and played with his curls. “Well Shawn Farrow, you and I are going to have a Xannie night!” I can imagine how evil my grin was because he started to look a little nervous.
“I’m not gonna have to wear heels am I?” He asked. We both laughed.
“Nope! Better!” I rolled onto my belly getting close to him. His eyes darted to my breasts. I slapped him. “You and I are going to the human city and we are swimming!”
His entire face dropped. “I don’t think thats a good idea Xan.”
I laughed and then pinched his cheek. “Are you telling me that the bad boy of Pine Springs High School is afraid of humans? Tell me I must be dreaming!”
“I’m not afraid of humans, Xan. I’m afraid of you leaving Dark Moon right now.” He said concerned. He grabbed my hand and kissed it, holding it to his chest after.
“You worry too much, Pete Jr. Everything has died down now. Besides, we can wait a little while until Shawny feels safe.” I said, pouting my lip out at the last part.
He smiled at me. “I can see why Pete wants to strangle you every day now.” We both laugh.
He pulls me to him and envelops me into a deep and passionate kiss. I have missed these moments. His hands run down my body holding me close to him while my hands hold his face to mine. He pulls my legs around him and sits up, pulling away from my kiss and looking at me with a smirk. He slowly slides off the hood of the Jeep and takes me to the ground, laying us down carefully. He kisses down my neck, making his way to my marked spot, sucking on it. It sent shivers down my spine and made me moan in pleasure. He made his way to my breasts, appreciating each one. Gently squeezing each one, licking circles around my n*****s, nipping them, sucking them and then kissing each one gently. He licked his way back up to my lips, devouring them while he pushed his hips into mine.
He pulled away and looked into my eyes again, that playful spark showing itself. “I want to taste you Xannie. I crave the taste of you always.” My breath caught in my throat.
His rough hands began to pull my dress up as he sat up. He removed his sweater and I whimpered as I took in how incredible his body looked under the moonlight. I bit my bottom lip so hard, I could taste the metallic blood. He pulled my body to him by my hips, causing me to gasp. He smirked down at me. He lifted my dress more and slowly pulled my thong off, his fingers lightly grazing my thighs before coming into contact with my boots. He then lowered himself between my legs and buried his face into my p***y, licking and sucking mercilessly. I cried out, my body jerking in shock from the sudden instantaneous pleasure. His mouth covered my entire labia, as he ran his soft tongue around in swirls, sucking as he detached himself. My legs shook in ecstasy and my hips rocked trying to find some sort of rhythm to this sensation.
He held a thigh up with one hand effortlessly, digging his face into me even deeper. I felt his tongue enter into my p***y, making me cry out his name. My hands found their way to his hair, grasping his curls, hoping he would make me c*m before leaving my space. He flipped each thigh over his shoulders, moaning as I pulled his hair. He pulled back and looked at my p***y, trying to figure out what he wanted to do to me next. I looked down at him, waiting for him to continue, my breath still rapid. He pulled my p***y lips apart and licked delicately on my c**t, staring up at me. I closed my eyes and arched my back, moaning and pulling his hair again.
“Look at me Xan. I want to watch you c*m. I want you to look in my eyes.” He said. I nodded looking down at him. He gave me a small smile. He was so handsome.
He lowered his head back down and began to lick and suck again, but this time pumping 2 fingers into me as well. I could already feel myself heating up. It was like electricity building up in my core, threatening to shoot through my body. As much as I wanted to throw my head back, I held it still, watching him and moaning to him, calling his name as he made me feel like I had entered heaven itself. I cupped my breasts and played with them, making him furrow his brows slightly and moan. He began to finger f**k me harder and faster. My legs began to tremble, my moans becoming longer and louder. I could feel my juices running out of me and splashing from his knuckles onto my thighs. I parted my thighs wider as my o****m took me, screaming Shawn’s name. He immediately let go of my p***y with his mouth and got up, taking off his pants. I couldn’t help but feel impatient even for the small amount of time it took for him to do so. He climbed back over to me, entering me quickly and I gasped. He kissed me so deeply, I could taste myself on him, and it turned me on a little knowing that it was me he wanted. I wrapped myself around him and he grasped my hips, pushing into me. He lifted my bottom off the ground as he kneeled, my ass resting on his thighs. He pushed into me so deep as he stared into my eyes. Holding my cheeks so that I couldn’t turn from him. It was so intense and intimate. Our breath on each other’s faces, his sweat dripping down onto me as he tried to get as deep into me as he could. I couldn’t say or do anything but cry out for him and grip onto his arms with my nails.
Finally with his last deep thrusts into me, grunting and breathing heavily, he made an almost angry expression changing to pain and then to relief. His release into me had been so intense, like he needed it. After, he stared into my eyes with pure love. He kissed me, exploring my mouth with his tongue and then leaning his head against mine, both of us trying to catch our breath.
“Goddess, I can never get enough of you, dammit.” He said, leaning his head into my neck. I giggled.
I wrapped my arms around him, enjoying the two of us together again.
“Lets not fight again, ok?” I said.
“Never. We shall make love instead.” He proclaimed. I laughed.
“I think you should be Alpha instead. I like your rules.” I giggled.
“Well my first order as pretend Alpha is that you must love me forever. And also short dresses and tall boots every day.” He said smiling.
“Goddess you are so kinky!” I pushed him off, looking for my thong.
We got dressed and I mindlinked Bentley asking if Danielle needed a ride home or if he was gonna continue to be a dickhead. He said they were at my house right now.
Shawn pulled up to my house to drop me off, nervous that Bentley was in my house. But I reassured him that his mate was in my house as well. I still invited him in, to which he obliged (Shawn and his adorable possessiveness). We had to clean our clown faces up since we were both covered in red lipstick (he would not let me erase his ‘mark’ though) and he had to pick some leaves out of my hair. I still had dirt on the back of my dress and you could tell we had been rolling on the ground.
I think he secretly loved it.
When we walked in, Bentley and Danielle were sitting in my living room. Not even together. They sat on separate parts of my sectional watching tv. It was disappointing, I was hoping maybe they would have missed each other a little bit.
Bentley looked at me and Shawn like we were insane. Then looked at what I was wearing and his eyebrows shot up.
Really, Bentley? In front of my mate and your mate? You’re never gonna change, huh?
“Hi Danielle!” I smile. “Bentley.” I look at him disappointed.
He looks unfazed, still looking at my dress and boots. Shawn has now noticed the look on his face and has grabbed me by the waist and is holding me close to him. Danielle notices Shawn do this and looks at Bentley. Her jaw drops at his lustful expression.
“BENTLEY!” She yells.
He snaps out of it. “What?” He looks at her and says.
“Why are you staring at her like that?” She looks like she’s gonna cry.
“Like what?” He acts totally innocent. Like he wasn’t just caught redhanded by every person standing in the room.
“Like you want to f**k her!” And with that, she gets up and walks over and slaps him then stomps off to her room.
Danielle, you are my hero!
“The f**k did I even do?” He stands up and holds his cheek staring off in the direction that Danielle stomped off in.
“You should leave.” Shawn says. His eyes are getting darker.
What is going on with him? Is this like some unknown wolf puberty thing I don’t know about?
“Yea, Farrow? And are you gonna f*****g make me?” Bentley starts to try and get in Shawn’s face but I step in the way.
“Bentley, out!” I say, pointing to the door.
He actually has the f*****g audacity to look down at my t**s and then make his way out the door.
Ugh! I could have just punched him right in the f*****g face!
I turn to Shawn and wrap my arms around him. He instinctively does the same, taking in my scent.
“Whats going on with you lately, baby? You and your wolf are struggling a lot. What’s changed?” I ask in his ear.
He kisses my cheek. “He’s just been pissed at me.”
I lean back and look at him. I grab his hand and we walk to my room. When we get upstairs, we sit on my bed across from each other. I reach out and touch his cheek. He grabs my hand and kisses it.
“Please tell me baby. Tell me what has you and your wolf struggling like this.” I search his eyes for his happiness. He looks guilt ridden.
He sighs. “Its just everything right now, babe. He’s always been mad that I messed around with a lot of girls. He wanted me to wait for my mate. And the fact that I’ve always had my eye on you, it only makes it worse. You saved yourself for me. Even though I was your second chance, you gave me all of you. I couldn’t give you that.” He looks down.
I scoot closer to him. “Look at me, Shawn, because I need you and your wolf to understand this.” I pull his face to mine and look him right in the eye. His eyes get a murky grey sheen to them, but still have their blue. His wolf is listening in. “I forgive you. I forgive you for everything. I didn’t need you to save yourself for me just because I did for you. What I needed from you, you have already given me. Please understand that you need to forgive yourself too. The past is the past, ok?” I smile and kiss him.
He wraps his arms around me tight. Holding me to his chest, like he never wants to let me go.
“I love you so much, Xan. I promise I will always love you.” I think he is crying.
“I love you too Shawn Farrow.” I say.