It was finally Saturday and I was ecstatic about this damn party! Shawn and I would head over early to help decorate, then Mar and I would head to the store to get groceries while Nicky and Shawn would get some s**t set up in the back yard for beer pong and other stuff. I decided to just bring my clothes and makeup to Nickys and get ready there with Mar. I couldn’t wait to show her my dress. Once I told her it took a lot of convincing to get Shawn to let me wear it she was excited to see it. When we got to Nicky’s I was basically bouncing in my seat with excitement. I swear I had started to look more and more forward to these parties because I didn’t get to hang out with my friends as much anymore. It was mostly just Shawn and I now and as much as I loved him and being around him, I miss

