Friends with Benefits

CHAPTER 16

Sinalubong ko ang madilim na mga mata ni

Isaiah. He's looking at me seriously. His brows are furrowed, his soft red lips pressed into a thin line, and his jaw was clenching.

He needs to fall in love. lyan lang ang naiisip naming paraan to divert his attention away from me and his sister. May banda naman siya, may basketball pero hindi yon sapat.

Bumuntong hininga ako saka lumapit sa kan'ya.

Hinaplos ko ang kan yang braso at naramdaman ko ang unti unti niyang pagkalma.

*I went on a date with him, Isaiah." Mahinahon kong sabi.

Ibinaling niya sa kabilang direkson ang kan' yang mukha at nang tumingala ako ay bumungad sa akin ang makinis at maputi niyang leg.

"You didn't even replied to me. I waited for you, Ri." Mahina niyang sabi. Napansin ko ang hinanakit sa boses niya at may kung ano sa akin ang parang biglang naantig.

A sudden wave of guilt washes over me, making me feel terrible. An overwhelming urge to wrap my arms around him and bury my face against his chest takes hold. I long for the comfort and closeness that only he can provide. Yet, amidst this desire, I realise that something has to change. Our current setup is unsustainable, and deep down, I know that we both deserve better.

Determined to make a change, I steel myself for the inevitable sadness that will come with it. It won't be easy to let go of the intensity and passion that have defined our relationship.

Bumaling sa akin si Isaiah. Ang kan'yang kamay ay humaplos sa aking pisngi. Madilim pa rin ang kan' yang mga mata kaya hindi ko mabasa kung anong emosyon ang naroon. And as I look at him, my heart aches, but I know that this decision is for the best. We need to break free from the cycle we've been trapped in and find a way to move forward.

"You seriously like him, huh?" May kung ano sa boses niya ang parang kumurot sa akin.

"Tell me, Ri. Gusto mo ba talaga siya? Do you like him enough to enter a relationship with him?"

Muli niyang tanong.

Siguradong sigurado naman ako na gusto ko si Harry. It isn't just because I was curious and I wanted to try being in a relationship, pero nang itanong 'yon ni Isaiah ay parang bigla kong nakalimutan kung paano sumagot. O kung ano ang isasagot.

Ang kan'yang hinlalaki na humahaplos sa aking pisngi ay bumaba at humaplos sa aking ibabang labi. Ang kan yang mga mata ay lumamlam at naglakbay sa kabuuan ng aking mukha hanggang huminto sa aking mga labi.

"I want to hear your answers, Ri." He whispered hoarsely.

Napalunok ako nang dumampi ang kan yang malambot at mainit na labi sa akin. His kiss was so gentle, ibang iba sa mga dati niyang halik.

"Tell me, Ri. Gusto mo ba talaga siya? Do you like him enough to enter a relationship with him?"

Muli niyang tanong.

Siguradong sigurado naman ako na gusto ko si Harry. It isn't just because I was curious and I wanted to try being in a relationship, pero nang itanong 'yon ni Isaiah ay parang bigla kong nakalimutan kung paano sumagot. O kung ano ang isasagot.

Ang kan'yang hinlalaki na humahaplos sa aking pisngi ay bumaba at humaplos sa aking ibabang labi. Ang kan yang mga mata ay lumamlam at naglakbay sa kabuuan ng aking mukha hanggang huminto sa aking mga labi.

"I want to hear your answers, Ri." He whispered hoarsely.

Napalunok ako nang dumampi ang kan yang malambot at mainit na labi sa akin. His kiss was so gentle, ibang iba sa mga dati niyang halik.

"Ria..." Bulong niya habang patuloy ang pagdampi ng magagaang halik sa aking labi.

I tightly grip his shirt as I return his sweet kisses

Ang kan'yang kamay ay humaplos sa aking leeg.

"Answer my question, Ri. H'wag mo akong lasingin sa mga halik mo."

Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero bahagya akong natawa sa sinabi niya. Mahina rin siyang natawa kasabay ng pagpulupot ng kan yang mga braso sa aking baywang. Hinila niya ako at mas pinagdikit ang aming mga katawan.

Huminga muna ako ng malalim bago sinagot ang tanong niya, "Yes, Isaiah."

"Hmm." Ang tanging tugon na narinig ko mula sa kan ya.

lang sandali pa ay isinubsob niya ang kan yang mukha sa aking leg habang nakayakap pa rin sa akin. Ilang sandali rin kaming nasa ganoong ayos hanggang sa maramdaman kong unti unti niya na akong hinahalikan sa leg. His soft, wet kisses trailed along my neck. Often licking and gently sucking on my skin. Napapatingala na lang ako at napapasinghap habang mahigpit na nakahawak sa kan'ya.

"Isaiah..." I softly moaned his name when his lips traveled on my skin slowly.

Humahaplos at pumipisil ang kan yang mga kamay sa ibat ibang bahaging aking katawan.

"W-we shouldn't be doing this." Nahihirapan kong sabi when he started palming my left boob.

"You are so soft, Ria..." He whispered against my ear. His warm breath was brushing against my face.

Ang kan' yang kamay ay dahan dahang sumuot sa aking damit, until he finally cupped my bare boob.

He was kissing and sucking on my skin while his warm hand was doing wonders on my body. His movement was so gentle, and I wasn't used to it. Sanay ako na laging marahas ang kan'yang galaw na para bang palaging nagmamadali kaya nang hindi ako makuntento ay ako na ang nagkusa.

I wrapped both of my arms around his neck, pulling him closer to my body. Ipinulupot ko rin ang aking mga binti sa kan'yang baywang and I could already feel his hard thing poking on my throbbing core. I know this isn't right. This goes against everything I wanted, but his touch and kisses were more than enough to silence all my rational thoughts.

I know... I'm such a f*****g hypocrite.

Lumapat ang aking likod sa malambot kong kama kasabay nang pag dagan ng mainit na katawan ni Isaiah sa akin. Ilang beses pa kaming nagpalitan ng halik hanggang sa namalayan ko na lang na parehas na kaming walang suot.

"A-aahhh..." I moaned breathlessly as he was thrusting his throbbing hugeness inside of me.

Mabilis at marin ang kan yang mga galaw sa ibabaw ko. He looked at me like he wanted to devour me, like a hungry animal ready to pounce. There was this intense hunger in his eyes, like he couldn't wait to explore every inch of me. It was like we were sharing this unspoken desire, a magnetic pull that drew us closer with every heartbeat.

"Oh!" Napadaing ako nang bigla niyang isinagad ang kan'yang kahabaan sa aking loob saka biglang hinugot.

Magreeklamo na sana ako nang bigla na lang niyang isinubsob ang kan yang mukha sa pagitan ng aking nakabukang mga hita. Mabilis ang galaw ng kan'yang dila na para bang haw na uhaw kaya wala akong ibang nagawa kung 'di ang umungol at sabunutan siya.

"f**k! I want to f**k you so f*****g hard, but 1also want to drink your juices!" Marin niyang sabi habang mas idinidin ang labi sa aking p********e.

Then he went on top of me again. He guided his huge maleness towards my entrance and gave me a powerful thrust. Napaliyad ako at napayakap ng mahigpit sa kan ya nang sinimulan niya ang marring paggalaw.

"Ugh! Fuck..."

He was panting and groaning like a wounded wild beast, sweat trickling down his chest, his hair tousled and wild, his handsome face was a mix of desire and abandon, every feature etched with raw need. Despite his disheveled appearance, watching him in that state of primal pleasure was utterly mesmerising and undeniably arousing.

"Oohh f**k! You're gripping my d**k so tight!"

"Aahhh.Isaiahaahhh..." Hinihingal kong ungol habang sinasalubong ang bawat galaw niya.

Ilang labas-masok at muli niyang hinugot ang kan'yang p*********i sa akin saka muling pumwesto sa aking gitna. He toyed with my soaking wet v****a with his long, slender fingers, smearing and gathering my juices before bringing them to his mouth to taste my wetness. Then he would groan sexily, as if he really loved my taste.

Muli siyang pumwesto sa aking gitna, then he rubbed the huge mushroom head of his throbbing c**k against my wet folds.

"Aahhh...haahhh..." I moaned breathlessly as I tried to wiggle against his hugeness, desperately trying to put his thing inside me.

"f**k, you're dripping wet..." Hinihingal niyang sabi.

He was freaking teasing me! Paminsan minsan ay pinapasok niya ang dulo nito pero mabilis ding huhugutin ulit.

"Isaiah, please-aahmm..." Hinihingal ko namang pakiusap habang pilit a sinasalubong ang kanya.

"Stay still, Ri." He groaned.

"P-pero Isaaahhh—Aaahhhh..."

Sobrang sarap a pero masyado niya akong binibitin. Kung sa ibang pagkakataon ay baka nasapak ko na ang lalaking 'to.

"Stay still—f**k, so good!"

I grunted at his words because they made me wetter. I could even hear the lewd sound of our genitals rubbing together.

Nang masiguradong niyang tuluyan nang nabalot ng kabasaan ko ang kan ya ay saka siya nagsimulang ipasok lit ang kan' yang kabuuan.

Humigpit ang yakap ko kay Isaiah at naisubsob ang mukha sa kanyang basang leeg nang maramdaman ko ang unti unting pagkabanat ng aking p********e dahil sa kalakihan niya.

He's just so huge na kahit ilang beses na namin itong ginawa ay parang hindi pa rin talaga ako nasasanay sa sukat niya.

"f**k! You're still so f*****g tight!" He groaned when he finally managed to enter me fully.

Baon na baon ang kan' ya sa loob ko at pakiramdam ko ay banat na banat na naman ako. And I'm not really sure if I'm really so tight, like what he was saying, or if he's just that big.

"How does it feel, Ri? Masarap ba, huh?" Paos ang boses niyang tanong habang nagsisimula na naman ang marahas na paggalaw sa loob ko.

"Y-yes." Hirap na hirap kong sagot at halos mapatili pa ako nang mas dumuble ang bawat pag sagad niya.

"Yes, what?"

Ang kan yang kamay ang nagsimula na ulit maglaro sa aking dibdib habang ang isa naman ay nakatukod sa gilid ng aking ulo para buhatin ang kan'yang bigat.

He was thrusting so hard so hard that I could hear my bed frame slamming against the wall.

Nakakatakot at baka bigla na lang bumigay ang aking kama.

"What, Ri?" Muli niyang tanong kasabay ng mariring galaw.

"M-masarap—Aaahhhh..."

Bigla siyang gumalaw at sa isang iglap lang ay siya na ang nakahiga at ako naman ay nasa ibabaw niya.

I was sitting on top of him with his hugeness still inside my dripping flower.

"Ride me, Ria. Pleasure yourself and f*****g ride me. Make your tight f*****g cunt get used to my huge d**k, and make sure your dripping cunt remembers the shape of my f*****g d**k—Ugh!

Fuck!"

His words sent shivers down my spine. It was so dirty, yet so hot that even though I'm tired and feel like I don't have the energy, I still did what he said. With each move, I felt myself inching closer to that blissful peak I craved. Nagsimula na ring sumalubong si Isaiah a para bang hindi siya kuntento sa aking bawat paggalaw.

"I-Isaiah, aahhh...haaahhh."

"I'm c-c*****g, Ri." Hinihingal niyang sabi sa pagitan ng bawat pagbaon sa akin.

I came so hard with his c**k inside me. It was so intense that my whole body trembled. Hinihingal akong bumagsak padapa sa katawan niya habang patuloy pa siyang gumagalaw mula sa ilalim ko. At sa isang marin paggalaw, kasabay ng kan' yang pagdaing ay ang pagpuno ng kan yang init sa akin.

Pareho kaming naghahabol ng hininga habang nakayakap pa rin siya sa akin. Ilang sandali kaming nanatili sa ganoong posisyon bago niya ako maingat na inihiga. Napadaing pa ako nang hugutin niya ang kan'ya. Gosh, I could feel our mixed juices dripping out of me.

Isaiah went right to my bathroom and when he came out, he had a wet face towel in hand.

Then he sat back on my bed. Maingat niyang pinagparte ang aking mga hita at akala ko talaga ay pupunasan niya na ako kaya napabuntong hininga na lang ako nang paghiwalayin niya ang labi ng aking p********e saka inilapit ang mukha roon.

"Damn, it's f*****g beautiful, Ri. Your juices mixed with my cum."

Nag init ang aking mga pingi kaya kahit medyo nangangalay pa ang aking mga binti ay pinilit ko siyang sipain.

"Tigil mo nga 'yan! You're so nasty!"

He chuckled sexily before gently wiping me down. Pero hindi enough ang punas lang kaya binuhat niya na rin ako papunta sa bathroom at sabay kaming nagbabad sa aking bathtub.

"So..."

Mula sa pagkakasandal sa kan yang dibdib ay tiningala ko siya.

Umangat ang kan' yang kamay at hinawi ang ilang hibla ng aking buhok na dumikit sa gilid ng aking pisngi.

"You're planning to said yes to him, huh."

Nakagat ko ang aking labi saka tumango.

Sumimanhot siya at umirap sa akin kaya kahit papano ay gumaan ang pakiramdam ko. Kapag gan yan na kasi ang reaksyon niya, ibig sabihin non hindi na siya kukontra pa.

"Sure na 'van?" Muling hirit niya.

"Oo, Isaiah. Totoong gusto ko si Harry and I want to give us a try" Diretso kong sagot habang nilalaro ang mga bula sa hita niya.

"Okay fine. Then, are you planning to cheat on him?"

Mabilis akong napalingon sa kan ya nang itanong niya yon. Nagsalubong naman ang mga kilay niya na parang 'di niya inaasahan ang reaksyon kong 'yon.

"What?"

"Hindi ako mag che-cheat kay Harry, Isaiah kaya bakit mo naman naisip 'yon?"

This time, lumalim na ang gatla sa kan yang noo.

"Then what about us? Are you really thinking about ending whatever this is between us?" He asked seriously, his voice edged with sharpness.

"Kaya nga paulit ulit kong sinasabi sa 'yo na kailangan na natin 'tong itigil. Simula pa lang pareho na nating alam na mali itong ginagawa natin, Isaiah"

"'What? Anonh mali rito, Ri? It's not like we re blood related para masabi mong mali!" Marin niyang sabi.

"Hindi naman 'yon! We're not lovers, Isaiah.

Magkaibigan tayo and riends aren't supposed to be f*****g each other, Isaiah, and we've been doing that for God knows how long! We've been deceiving everyone around us!"

Umingos siya at nag iwas ng tingin. Umigting ang kanyang panga habang malalim ang bawat paghinga.

Napabuntong hininga a lang ako saka umahon sa tub para magbanlaw pagkatapos ay lumabas na. Nagbibihis na ako ng damit nang lumabas si Isaiah na wala man lang kahit tuwalya sa katawan.

"Servoso ako sa sinabi ko." Sabi ko nang magsimula na siyang magbihis.

He looked at me with his dark eyes while fumbling with the zipper of his jeans. His upper body was still naked, droplets of water cascading down to his sexy V-line before being absorbed by his white Calvin Klein boxer shorts.

Mabilis akong nag iwas ng tingin nang manuyo ang lalamunan ko.

"Again, seryoso ako ron. Gusto kong itigil na natin 'tong ganito. lyong ginawa natin kanina, last a 'yon. I want to start a clean relationship with Harry."

"Pag ayoko, what will you do?" Tanong niya habanh sinusuklay ang basang buhok gamit ang mahahabang mga daliri.

Napalunok ako. Napag-isipan ko na ang isasagot ko sakaling itanong niya nga yon pero mahirap pa rin palang sabihin kapag totoo na.

"T-then mapipilitan akong layuan ka."

Nagsalubong ang mga kilay niya at dumilim ang mukha. Para bang may naapakan akong landmine sa kan'ya.

"You're not serious."

"I am." Diretso kong sagot habang pilit na sinasalubong ang madilim niyang mga mata.

Ilang sandali kaming nagsukatan ng tingin at ilang beses din na gusto kong sumuko dahil bukod sa nanghihina ang mga binti ko dahil sa mga tingin niya ay nakakabingi na rin ang lakas ng t***k ng dibdib ko.

Bumuntong hininga siya at marahas na pinasadahan ng daliri ang basang buhok.

"I don't understand why we need to stop doing the things we've always done, especially since we're still so young. Just because you want to be with him doesn't mean you need to end things between us, Ria. Naunang nagkaron ng tayo bago pa man dumating ' yang lalaki mo."

Napabuntong hininga na lang ako. Ngayon ay mas naintindihan ko na, and I also really get what Irene was trying to convey during our talk. Her brother doesn't really understand serious relationships because all his past ones were based on lust and casual s*x. He doesn't realise that being in a relationship with someone while still being physically involved with others is cheating and unacceptable. Of course, I'm not ignoring my own mistakes in this situation. May mga pagkakamali rin ako, and I'm owning up to them. That's why I want to start a clean, honest, relationship with Harry.

Hindi lang dahil gusto kong itama ang maling nasimulan namin ni Isaiah and be open to other people when it comes to love, it's also because I think we both need that space to grow and understand what we truly want. Isa pa, Harry deserves better. He doesn't deserve to be dragged into a messy situation or be cheated on. He deserves a relationship built on trust and respect, and I want to give him that.

"I want to correct our mistakes, Isaiah. I want both of us to be free to be with the people we like without feeling guilty. We both deserve a chance at honest, open relationships without the weight of our past actions hanging over us."

Muli siyang nag iwas ng tingin habang maring kagat ang ibabang labi. Ilang sandali rin kaming binalot ng katahimikan bago siya muling nagsalita.

"It seemed like you were really serious about this.

I felt if I disagreed, you would cut ties with me. It seems like you're willing to end our friendship for the sake of whatever that is."

Hindi ako kaagad nakapagsalita. I wasn't really planning to cut ties with him...

"Then what do you want me to do, Aria?"

Lumapit siya sa akin hanggang sa ilang dangkal na lang yata ang pagitan namin sa isat isa.

"What do you want me to do? Gagawin ko, Ria.

Lahat ng gusto mo gagawin ko j-just don't..."

Umalon ang kan' yang lalamunan nang lumunok siya. "Just don't stop being friends with me.."

He looked at me like a child looks at his mother when he desperately wants something.

Napalunok ako saka palihim na huminga ng malalim. Alam ko na kung ano ang dapat sabihin pero bakit parang ang sikip sa dibdib? Bakit parang ayaw lumabas ng mga salita sa bibig ko?

"Itigil na natin 'yong ginagawa nating hindi dapat."

Mabilis siyang tumango kahit pa halata namang napipilitan lang siya.

"F-fine. Ano pa?"

Muli akong huminga ng malalim.

"Give entering a serious relationship a shot. Try f-falling in love. I know it's not something you can force, but give it a try. I'm sure there's someone out there who can make you fall in love."

Napasinghap siya at hindi kaagad nakapagsalita.

Muli niyang ibinaling sa ibang deriksyon ang kan yang mga tingin habang mabigat ang bawat paghinga.

"You really want me to do that?" Mahina ang boses niyang tanong.

Hindi ako sigurado pero pakiramdam ko may halong hinanakit ang boses niya.

"Yes. Isaiah." Diretso kong sagot habang nakatingin sa kan'ya.

Muling umalon ang kan' yang lalamunan.

Bumuntong hininga bago muling tumingin sa akin. At nang magtagpo ang mga mata namin ay parang ako naman ang gustong mag iwas ng tingin. His eyes were cold and dark. They didn't reflect any specific emotion, yet they made me feel guilty for reasons I couldn't quite understand.

"Why do I need to fall in love, Ria? Hindi pa ba enough a ititigil na natin ang..." Bumuntong hininga siya at nag iwas ng tingin.

Why does he need to fall in love again? I suddenly forgot the answer, so I had to ransack my mind to find it. Ah, right. He needs to fall in love to divert his attention away from me and his sister. It's not about preventing him from being a caring brother to Irene or a protective friend to me. It's more about helping him realise that what's happening is normal. These things happen whether he likes it or not, and he'll only understand once he goes through it himself.

Besides that, it's also a good way to end our secret rendezvous. By falling in love, he will simply understand why we need to stop while we still can, while we still have some self-control.

Pero hindi sa tigas ng ulo ng lalaking 'to, alam kong hindi niya maintindihan kung ipapaliwanag ko pa sa kan ya isa isa. Mas magging madali kung mararanasan niya mismong magkagusto sa isang tao para siya na mismo ang magkusa.

Siguro naman makakahanap din siya g babaeng magugustuhan niya ng higit pa sa pisikal na aspeto. Someone he will like enough to make him fall in love.

"Ri."

"You might not understand it now, but you will once you fall in love. You don't have to force yourself, but at least give it a try." Sabi ko habang pilit na pinipigilan ang pag nginig ng boses.

"It's not f*****g easy, Aria!"

"I know! P-pero pwede mo namang subukan."

Naalala ko 'yong mga naririnig kong usapan tungkol don sa babaeng laging nakabuntot sa kan'ya.

"I'm sure m-may makikita ka, Isaiah. lyong iba,

'yong hindi tulad sa mga nakasanayan mo—"

"Stop."

"Isaiah—"

"I said stop. I'll f*****g try so just just stop, Ri."

Bumuntong hininga siya at bago pa man ako makapagsalita ulit ay mabilis a siyang lumabas ng aking kwarto. Iniwan akong mabigat ang dibdib.

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