Chapter 36
With a huge sigh, I collapsed on the bed. I was devastated. Alone in a foreign country, just a simple country boy from Australia, I couldn’t speak the language, had no idea what to do, my best friend, in fact my only true friend, was dead and the love of my life had been kidn*pped by psychotic Russian gangsters.
Finally, I gave myself permission to grieve. I’m not ashamed to admit that I broke down sobbing on the bed. It had just gone ten years since my dad had died but it still felt like yesterday, as Chad’s death brought all those old feelings back to the surface. All the pain, anger and grief gripped me in an overwhelming sense of loss that turned me into a quivering mess, curled up in the foetal position rocking back and forth on the mattress.
Finally, my training took ov
