Dominion

Fallen

--- ***  Rosé's POV:

I couldn't answer immediately. Words seem suddenly so foreign that it couldn't help me explain.

I wanted to tell him who I really am, especially when he marked me but then, I can't because I was afraid.

I'm afraid that he'll turn away from me and treat me indifferently.

At first, it was for the mission. I hid who I am even if he already doubted me. I did it for everyone, for their second chance to repent and to change. 

I have all this on my shoulder so I'd do what it takes to succeed in this mission. I'd lie about it so my mission wouldn't be compromised. Without the promise of redemption for myself, I'd still take the task.

But I never knew I would feel something for my rival... It's out of my expectation. And despite all these, I wouldn't give up both the mission and him,

I know he may feel betrayed. Or even feel like I've used him. It's also what I'm afraid of especially when he told me about his past.

I never planned for him to fall for me. I never plan to love him. All I wanted was to change him because I know he has a soul that needs to be redeemed.

But I fell hard for him in the process.

I just regret that I wasn't able to admit who am I when he gave me the chance, when he made me his mate. 

I should've told him then.

"Jaco-" I was cut off when he glared. It pierced through my soul. His eyes full of rage and it made me freeze, not knowing what don't know what to do.

"How did you do it?" He asked muttering.

"You accused me of enchanting you yet now I was the one victimized by your enchantment. How d'you do it?" He then grabbed my shoulders tightly. I whimpered instantly from his grasp while he lifted me from kneeling.

"I did not enchant you. H-how could I?" I whimpered as tears began falling, voice cracking at every word. I couldn't contain myself any longer so my tears start streaming like a waterfall from my cheeks.

Why didn't I tell him when I had the chance?

I now regret not telling him. I could've just told him when he asked why he can't make me an immortal. I tried to reach for him, for his cheek but his grasp was too tight.

"I've told you everything... my weakness, my past... I told you because I thought I can trust you. Even if I knew from the very beginning that you're not on my side, I trusted you because I thought you really love me like you said you do." 

"But I do! I love you!" I cried and tried to reach for him once again but he pushed me to the wall. As soon as my back hit the cold wall, he quickly punched it near beside my head and I heard it shatter, cracking, shattering.

He then rests his forehead upon mine. He shut his eyes tightly while I was able to finally to touch his cheeks. I look up to him and my heart breaks, even more, to see tears fall from his eyes.

"You're supposed to be divine but you're very good at lying." He whispered, pain evident with how he finally let his tears fall. I shook my head furiously before I tiptoed to kiss his cheek because I could no longer say words anymore. The overwhelming feeling of regret, fear, and worry has taken over my words and I could just cry in front of him.

It's true that I lied about many things but not about loving him. I've loved him since he first kissed me. I felt it and tried to deny it since he's a demon. We're supposed to be natural enemies but I can't oppose what I'm feeling.

I love him with my entire heart.

"And after you succeed in your mission, you'll leave me. You'll become an angel once again as you've always wanted and left me here even if I already told you I can't live without you."

"No... Jacob, I want to be with you." I cried again.

"Stop lying..." he whimpered. "You never wanted me in the first place. You wanted me to lose so you could go back to heaven... That's why you didn't want to be turned right? So you could go back to heaven?"

I breathed deeply as even if words are hard to find, I can't just let him think I used him.

"No. I'm already an immortal, Jacob, I refused for you to turn me because I can already live forever with you... I wasn't able to admit it because I'm afraid that it'll hurt you like this... now I know that I should've told you when I got the chance"

He shook his head gently "Once your mission is over, you'll leave me."

"I don't know what will happen to us if I succeeded in the mission, Jacob. Nothing is definite for me. I hid my identity 'cause I know you'll kill me as you've always threatened you would. And I admit... I admit I was afraid of you, but..." I paused briefly.

Now I learned that hiding it from it had only made it worse. He must think that that I'm really just using him.

I couldn't handle my emotions anymore. My knees tremble and will give away at any second, my chest hurt so much and my sight blurs by the minute.

"...but, everything changed when I fell for you. I knew very well that it's forbidden yet, I let myself fall for you... I let myself love you. I love you."

He didn't respond immediately. His head then falls on my shoulder and sobs.

I was about to wrap my arms around his nape but all of a sudden, he swiftly pulled away from me.

----** Jacob's POV:

"Hmmm... this looked familiar... when have I seen this scene before?" My father's voice echoed in the back of my head.

I was hurting so much when I found out about her but it hurts even more now that she's in front of me.

She's become my everything. She's filled the longing in my heart. She's fixed what was broken. She's become my whole purpose... but, it's different for her.

I'm not her purpose.

I'm not her everything.

She wants redemption.

She wanted to get out of the cursed life of being feeble immortal.

And she has only one chance.

Why would she ever choose a demon like me? After all, my rival is heaven.

I couldn't listen to her clearly but I heard her when she said she let herself love me. However, with every word that comes out of her mouth, his voice then rings louder in my head.

"Ah! I got it! Your mundane father had almost killed you but your mom protected you and saved you, she said she loves you and promised to protect you but look where she is now and look at what you've become. Hahahaha! That back-stabbing lying bitch." He laughed.

"Chaeyoung..." I cried, calling her out, pleading.

"You think this girl is different? Let's see it in the end. Go and take a risk son! It's just your life in the line here. When she beats you and leaves you, I'm gonna rub it all over you face before you waste away.

Your life doesn't mean anything to anyone. Not with your human dad, not with you b***h mom and not with the b***h in front of you.

In the end, your old man will always come for you. I'm the only one who cared."

"Jacob, please," she pleaded. Her tears were endless. She slowly walked towards me and touch my cheek once again.

"I may have lied and hidden my identity but please believe me when I said I love you. Because it's the truth. Please..." she pleaded more, sobbing.

I may still be alive right now but it hurt even more compared to the stabs my mother left in my body. It hurts more than dying.

"Tss..Women." He scoffed.

"All of them will do anything, say anything to get what they want."

"But I can sense your hunger, son. You're still incredibly thirsty and it's driving you crazy."

Indeed, my throat's still dry even if I had just feed.

"I know you, son. When you're mad, frustrated or melancholic... you become hungry, you become thirsty because you need strength in your weakest state. It's your curse together with those cheap sentiments and human emotions. It's your curse for being half mundane. But don't fret son. Your old man will get rid of that curse soon..."

My gaze then fall on her neck. I can see all those veins clearly, underneath her milky, soft flesh where here sweet blood flowed. I can see it all, I can almost taste it.

"And only one person will quench that thirst. It's not only her blood that you thirst for isn't it?" He chuckled.

"She's already in front of you, and only with a towel. What are you hesitating for? Make her blood sweet then, feed... only then will you'll be strong and powerful again."

I immediately grab her waist and kiss her lips vigorously. She was trembling, but she kisses back even if her whole body trembles as my arms wrap around her waist tightly.

However, upon tasting the sweetness of her lips, upon smelling the saccharine scent of her skin, my whole consciousness was taken by my thirst.