Dominion

Mate

Everywhere is bright and a warm light had engulfed the whole place. It felt warm... and cozy...

Everything that has been weighing my heart now feels light. All my worries now fade at this moment.

""Raziel.... Raziel.." a voice called. The familiar voice that I haven't heard from a long time now calls me.

I've longed to hear His voice again. His loving voice.

I immediately felt my heart warmed up and my knees tremble down.

"Father..." I called out to nowhere even if my eyes search for him.

"You've been very brave, Raziel." He calmly stated.

"Your ears have been deceived yet your heart stays true. You are here for a purpose and you've taken the right path.  Follow your heart and never falter to trust what it says.

I'll be with you until the end."

I suddenly woke with a tear falling from my eyes after hearing the last word.

He finally spoke to me.

I then felt his arm from underneath my nape moved and then his other hand grab the side of my arm, making me turn and snuggle closer to him.

"What's wrong?" He asked, whispering before wiping the tears off.

"Nothing... I'm just happy..." I answered in a hoarse voice, cracking in every word.

"You have to wake up in the middle of the night just to cry because you're happy?" He looked totally confused as he asked but there was a soft smile lingering on his lips.

"Mhmm." I replied before I buried my face on his chest.

Ever since I became mundane, He's become silent. I never heard His voice again until now.  

I felt incredibly lost back then. I never knew that it's that difficult without His presence. But I learned that faith would still connect me to him. Even without seeing or hearing Him, faith and trust that his purpose of giving me this life would bring me back to love, to His kingdom. 

However, I'm no longer the same. 

Now that I had fallen for a demon, 

Do I still want to be an angel again when it would mean separation from Jacob?

But my dream says I'm on the right path... which means that choosing to change him and, loving him is the right path.

However, what does he mean that my ears were deceived? Is Jacob still trying to deceive me with the things he says? But his actions say otherwise.

Everything also seems too easy for me which is far from my expectation.

Jacob isn't trying anymore with William. Even if he would still be rude, he never again interrupted what Gabe and I had been teaching the boy. I'm glad about it but it still baffles me.

He also stays true to his word to only drink from the blood bags. He's also become very clingy lately. Instead of turning his attention to William like his mission compels him to do, he leeched on to me like a newborn babe that needs his mother.

He's sometimes a pain since I can't do what I'm supposed to do especially when I need to work especially when my presence is needed in the office.

At daybreak, Jacob waited for me to wake before he left my room.

There are so many things I've gotten used to about him. The little things he does, from accompanying me to the office and to watching over me when sleeping. He's slowly changing and I'm really delighted about it.

However, these things would probably hurt me when the day comes that we have to separate.

If I succeeded, he would be back in hell while I, restoring my position as the Keeper of Secrets.

Can I even refuse that reward? 

If I succeeded in my mission and changed Jacob, what will happen to him?

---** Jacob's POV:

Everything is not making sense anymore. I've let go of my scheme and I no longer feel like I'm compelled to influence William. I don't care if my old man finds out I'm not trying anymore, I'm not afraid of his wrath... I already lived in hell, what could be worse?

But isn't losing hope also considered a sin? I mean, what's the use? The boy is good.

I don't know how but I feel like I'm not the same.

I wanted to be with Rosé all the time. She's quite addicting...

Everything about her...

Now I'm sure that its' not due to my craving for her blood.

Is this what she called love?

I stared at them with all these thoughts in my head. Watching her, specifically. I watch her soft, silky hair fell to the side of her shoulder whenever she leans down and when she carefully tucks it behind her ear.

Then, a sudden action made my heart beat irregularly. She smiled. The kind of smile that makes her eyes disappear... The kind of smile that is always sincere, happy...

It reminds me of the day she smiled at me in the middle of the lawn, telling me things that I never imagine to hear from someone...

She told me she believed in me. She believes I'm not pure evil, she believes there's good in me.

"Still too f*****g bright," I muttered to myself, referring to her smile.

" Jacob, she's gonna melt sooner or later," Gabe stated as he continued to slowly pull a Jenga block, eyes focused on pulling the piece, too careful of his movement.

What he said caught Rosé and William's attention and both then turn their gaze at me.

I, on the other hand, move a block with my mind at the same time he was about to pull out the block he was holding, making the whole tower crumble down.

"You lose, Gabe!" William exclaimed with both hands in the air.

Gabe then turned to look at me with his resting b***h face, as if he knew I did something naughty.

"What? You just suck at Jenga..." I shrugged, playing innocent.

I've grown used to his presence in the house. He's still annoying and I know I feel the same way with me but we've come to just ignore each other. Tho, when it comes to Rosé, we would both lose our temper especially when he's really touchy.

"Jake... come join us." She invited as she waves her hand, gesturing for me to come over and sit on the floor while William starts rebuilding the tower.

Jake... when did it sound like music? I used to hate that name but then again, it's not annoying when she says my name, especially when she calls out my name to me... and the way she calls out my name... a melody.

It's not even my real name yet, it felt like it is.

I shook my head and crossed my arms while slouching on the couch.

"Oh C'mon..." She whined before standing up and walk towards me. She leaned down and reached for my hands before pulling but her strength is not enough to even lift my back from the backrest.

"Why don't you have some fun with us?" She muttered, pouting... cutely.

"I have enough fun with you..." I smirked.

"That's not what I meant. C'mon, let's play."

"We'll play later." I then wiggled my brows.

"Jacccoooob?" She whined as she called out my name again and continued to pull me from the seat.

However, I pulled her forcefully and she falls on to me. I lift her legs so she could sit properly on my lap then wrap my arms around her. She then glared while pouting and tried to pull away from me, 

"You know there's no use in trying." I scoff.

I blew on her neck and she tilted her head, trying to hide the skin that was grazed by my breath.

"Stop..." she whispered but she was smiling, even giggling softly.

"Psshh... you like that didn't you," I whispered as I bury my face on the crook of her neck.

"There's a kid in here. If you're just gonna flirt, do it in another room." Gabe then scoffed.

Rosé then pushed me and glared even more. This time I let her go since I saw Gabe's expression. He had a poker face on but his eyes can't hide the sadness.

I kind of pity him but that's all he'll get from me. Pity. For he can never have Rosé.

She's mine.

She then went back to sit the carpeted floor beside William.

However, a realization hits me. A sudden enlightenment will all the questions I've been asking...

I've been wondering why I quickly felt something irregular for a demon like me towards a human girl. How I've been acting is somewhat territorial, like she was a property no one could have. How she suddenly became everything to me even if I try to refuse that truth. 

And it all took one smile. That bright f*****g smile I couldn't erase from my mind.

"f**k," I muttered to myself.

That's why I'm too sexually attracted to her. That's why I can't kill her even if I crave her blood. Why I wanna be with her all the time. Why she suddenly became the most important to me.

I've found my mate.

Earthly demons mate. And I am half mundane.  

Damn it!

I leaned forward and bite my nail anxiously because of the sudden realization.

I wouldn't feel like this if I'm a pure demon.

Damn you, Gabriel. You should've killed me when you had the chance. 

I stood up and went to the kitchen to get some blood, "This can't be happening." I told myself.

Once an earthly demon found his mate, a whole new purpose would take his existence. He will exist for her alone and the same goes for her if she's a demon.

But Rosé isn't a demon. She does not feel the same compelling force that I'm feeling. If I die, she would move on and go on with her life like what humans do.

She would find someone else to be with her... Gabe.

Fuck!

"If she dies, I die." I rip the blood bag open and drink all the blood in seconds, not caring if it drips from my mouth and dirtied my shirt.

Earthly demons are compelled to be with their mate for the rest of their lives. That's the point of their existence. If the mate dies, the other would live in despair and would waste away.

I grab another one and rip it open once again, gulping everything, hoping that it would somehow ease my anxiety and frustration. I became so thirsty so quickly because I was stressing over the fact that I found a mate. 

Whenever I'm stressed or agitated, I feel thirsty and it's a terrible feeling, to begin with. It's hard to think of ways to avoid wasting away if I'm thirsty. 

"I have to mark her sooner or later to protect her. I have to make her an immortal... will she agree to it?" I asked myself, grabbing another bag.

Even I knew to myself that she won't agree to it. But will she do it for me?