Behind Her Silence

Chapter Three

Another morning to feel like I'm being forced to live, I get surprised by how I think most times. A part of me wishes to not be like this, maybe I should have cried that day or done something than keeping it in.

I stood up from the bed I once never got up from for weeks, then I heard voices and I became confused as to why that is so. I was about to open my door with anger because I really dislike noise only to realise I had some guests.

Eddy and his partner came to visit yesterday but I didn't pay much attention to them and went to bed, probably that's why I forgot at first. I opened the door and saw they were a few meters away from my room, giggling and chatting about what I don't care to find out about.

I calmly told them they were sounding like mice who just got a bountiful harvest after being starved for days, Eddy who obviously knows I still have that sense of humour in me laughed immediately but his partner took it as an insult.

I did all I usually do, cleaned my room, bathed, groomed and sat down for a while to look outside the window for anything that might give me a slight sense of joy for the day.

After almost thirty minutes of staring at a place full of nothing other than cars and a road, I went downstairs to get something to eat.

I wasn't planning on going to work, but I couldn't stay at home with those two either.

Arrived at the hospital and stared at the name " Jane Royal Medical Center", I sometimes wondered how I thought of the name. I wonder and think a lot, sigh. While in my thoughts, I didn't realise someone was standing beside me trying to understand why I'm outside staring at the name of the hospital.

I turned to look at him and saw he was smiling. "Who smiles at a person that looks sad and confused?", he obviously wasn't ready to ask me what my objective was and kept staring at the sign.

He started looking more weird than I was, " Good morning Doctor James, what are you doing?", I was always less formal with him that i never for once thought about why.

" I was trying to see what you were looking at, Good morning, I've been meaning to talk to you about something will you be free later?", he was always shy around me, always. I am just glad we are in different departments, it would be weird having him act like I'm a goddess that shouldn't be made eye contact with. " Sure, let's go in".

As we entered, everyone around who knew him started greeting. I wasn't used to that at all, this is the first time he and I have walked into the hospital together.

The sense of being popular made me feel so weird, I wasn't much of an extrovert before and I still am not. I hardly party or go out, the feeling of peace I get being alone or with the person I love feels like I won a lottery sometimes. Other times, I just feel calm and happy.

I looked at Doctor James who kept smiling and enjoying the greeting and pleasantries while I walked away.

" It would be interesting swapping characters with other people and still have a sense of your true self, this is where being a scientist feels cool to me" I smiled at my own crazy thought.