Arranged Imperfectly

Chapter 5-The Talk

Mrs Muskan.

I felt like running away from this room to some calm place, sometimes when we have many people we feel lonely like there's something missing within us.

You just don't wake up and become a butterfly.

We all have our own struggles no one is perfect.

"Please have this at least," I whispered and kept for him the other dish next to him and he finally glanced towards me but I stared down immediately.

"I don't feel like eating," he commented and my mood disappeared, I had done so many preparations, waited for him, prepared dinner, which I hardly did for anyone before.

I gulped, a lump formed in my throat, I felt like just smashing everything but I calmed myself. I didn't want us to argue. He was being damn stubborn at the moment.

"Now don't shed those crocodile tears, they won't have any effect on me," his cold voice shivered me and I became numb, I just didn't know how to create a polite conversation with him; I hardly had any problem conversing with opposite gender but now it seemed like whatever I tried failed, he just despised me maybe he had other reasons also I know I have hurt him deeply including his family.

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An alarm snapped me from my dream and I rubbed my eyes while searching for an alarm to snooze but then I remembered I had kept an alarm to wake up for tahajud I glanced towards the side next to me and it was empty.

"Where is Imad?"I asked my self and stretched my arms I sat my eyes landed on a figure who was busy that he hadn't even noticed me staring at him. He looked so calm and relaxed while praying there was total silence.

We keep alarm and snooze because we feel like oh no! we will wake up for fajr or for work so there's still some more time, but we should make it a point and start praying tahajud how lucky we are to pray in the middle of the night while everyone else is asleep?

I rushed silently towards bathroom did ablution and stood behind him he must have noticed my presence but I was glad he didn't comment anything about it in fact when he stood up to pray I followed him, once done we made dua, my heartfelt at ease and relaxed, I felt like I was praying after so many months and that too with my life partner a smile formed on my face.

A figure stood up and I looked up at him he states back at me with an emotion I could even comprehend. There was so much to discuss yet no words were coming out of our lips.

"I thought you didn't pray on time?" he asked in that thick sexy voice of his and inwardly I was on cloud nine because of praying he started a conversation, I wanted to rush to my mother in law and share my happiness but I stopped myself from attempting any wrong step.

"I used to pray but not on time since a few days I have started praying namaz and tahajud, " I said in a low voice guiltily and he stared at me again.

"This doesn't change anything between us but we can pray together if you want

," he informed in a very polite manner, no matter how hard he tried to avoid me or ignore me, he surely had a soft spot for me, don't you think so?

Step one succeeded.

"Thank you, "I thanked him with a smile instead of smiling back he just folded te prayer mat and went to open his laptop. Who studies or works at 4.30 am?

"Just sleep I will wake you up for fajr," he uttered the words which I thought I would never hear from him.

"What?" he asked with a lifted eyebrow.

"Nothing, "I said and chuckled but he just shook his head and stared at his phone it was almost 5 am now.

"I am sorry for all the harsh words I spoke to you, "I apologised again.

"Just forget about it, it's okay, I am really mad at you, everything happened so unexpectedly, marriage, the paparazzi, but am struggling and I hope we would work out," he said and I nodded.

"When I was informed you were the one who was taken advantage of while you went against your father, against me I just couldn't control my anger but then I knew you were not at fault it was the circumstance and you got your punishments though no one deserved that treatment," he explained.

I listened attentively he began again in a sad tone and I hoped he didn't feel sympathy towards me.

"Mom and dad listened to your dad and they urged me to help you to find out about you and if it would have been anyone else I would have assisted same way, for now, some people are after you, you and your father have some enemies around, you have to stay indoors," he explained in a calm tone.

"I will support you, you are my wife my commitment and my dignity just don't break rules, or mistreat any of my parents, don't disclose out family matters to anyone," he completed with a lost face and finally I felt at peace since he has spoken so much to me in a short span of time I knew he rarely speaks a lot.

"Don't worry, I just need you," I said in a very low voice.

"Baby steps are helping," I thought to myself.

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Fajr Adhan was heard and we listened carefully we both did ablution and put prayer mat, he prayed in front leading the prayer while I prayed behind.

"I wanted to ask you a question since long," he said with curiosity in his voice.Which question he wanted to asked I wondered but didn't utter a word.

"Why have you been taking sleeping pills?" he inquired and my eyes widened with uncertainty, my hands began to tremble. No one knew about them then how did he find out?No he can't know but how long can I hide from him?

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Everything happens for a reason and you meet people for reasons