Paladin

BEFUDDLED

I woke up at 6 am the next day , guess I had completed my sleep . Jumped out of the bed had a nice bath , ate 2 chicken sandwiches and a kiwi  with a can of ginger and mint soda as usual . I was feeling nervous today for some reason I didn't seem to know as if I have too much of responsibility on me and felt restless too  ,  I don't know maybe it's just that I have been too stressed lately thinking that I went on drive wearing a white t-shirt and camouflage trousers . All of a sudden a  bright light  blocked my path , I couldn't see anything and shut my eyes for a few seconds and opened them slowly . The light outcast me in a different place where I had never been before . I got out of my car and saw people rushing with big guns in their hands . I could hear a parade of  heavy footsteps marching ,all of them in army uniforms  it seemed like there was something going on there . I walked in to ask someone where was I because I had no clue and just wanted to go back home but that didn't seem possible for a while . I entered the gate and the man saluted me and opened the gate , I got in still confused why he did that ? I was about to ask him when an old looking guy grabbed me by the arm and said '' great of you to be here major , now you better handle your mess.'' and left me alone. when another female solider approached me and said ''morning  major  , allow  me to  lead the way '' and I followed quietly in hope of help . She led me into a hall  it was like the locker hall we had in school  , I saw my name on the very first locker written in bold . she left without saying anything , I turned around to see a guy I seemed to know '' hey! aren't you dasher_380" I shouted out to him , '' eh yes major, it is embarrassing to know that you know my game id !'' he said, '' no stop! don't call me major . what's going on here, why wouldn't any one tell me . Why am I here what's going on ?'' I bursted out in anger, confusion and fear . '' woah major  calm down  , we are at war with Russia '' he managed to say that , '' well why ?'' I interrogated him. '' Because they have.....''his words started to fade away , I felt a sudden pain in my head , my vision blurred out of focus and everything blacked out . All  I  heard was people rushing towards me . I woke up after 10 mins or so with my head still  dizzy  , I couldn't walk properly . Somehow I managed to go back to the locker because it had my name on it , I wanted to see what it had . What was weird was that I felt I knew my way around the whole place where I had never been , I walked into the locker room and swung open the locker . It had a jacket, a cap , a badge with my name on it in bold and the g*n I always used  in my game! this must seem normal except it wasn't , this g*n never actually existed ! It was just in the game but since nothing here  seemed to be  real anyways  I wore the jacket, took the cap and the badge and hung the g*n over my shoulder because the only thing I was sure of was to get the hell out of here . I walked out confidently and to counter my newly developed confidence  a group of soldiers marched right up to me stamped their feet to the ground  and said  '' good morning major '' in a chorus  with a salute. They were all waiting for my next command , me confused asked them to go equip themselves with guns and all the things they needed , as they marched off I was relieved and panicked at the same time . I went to a side of the camp and called Zoey but she dint seem to pick up . I cut the call frustrated and before I could do anything again I felt the same pain penetrate through my head . I had a flashback of the accident of the scene where with tears in her eyes and fear on her face mom said it was just a game and if I won she would give a big present , and it disappeared just like  it came . I sat down surrounded with anxiety, restlessness , anger, fear, confusion. I knew  I couldn't do anything right now  and that these people needed me , there's a reason why they kept on respecting me and calling me major . It wasn't that bad , this was what I always wanted to do  , yes I always wanted to go into the army but I never made it inside , now that I have I can't waste my opportunity and somehow convinced myself to do this job efficiently . I knew this wasn't sensible but nothing else here made sense either ! It is what it is , I had to believe it , this was my chance to prove myself , I couldn't back then but maybe god gave my a chance to prove myself, to re-do everything.