The car pulled into the old community, and I first rolled down the window to check if my luggage had been moved out by Mi Cai. To my satisfaction, despite my failure to keep the appointment, there was no sign of my belongings downstairs. It seemed that my previous warning had been effective.
I floated up the stairs and opened the door to find the house in complete darkness. I peeked into Mi Cai's room, and not a sliver of light came from the door c***k. She hadn't come home tonight. No wonder her car wasn't downstairs, and no wonder she hadn't moved my luggage out.
It was also good that she didn't come back. I could stay for another night, perhaps the only consolation from the heavens as the day was about to end.
After a quick wash, I lay on the bed. The moment I turned off the light and closed my eyes, the world suddenly fell silent. I thought I would quickly fall asleep in this state, but some fragments of memories barged into my mind.
These fragments were all about the past. Recalling the past, it brought out the emptiness and desolation of the present. I didn't understand why Fang Yuan and Yan Yan could persist after graduation and eventually get married, while Jian Wei and I ended so bleakly. What did I do wrong? I really hoped Jian Wei could tell me personally, but such a simple request had become a luxury!
So I suffered in confusion for two years, and I've been in decay for two years.
...
I wiped my face hard, sat up from the bed, sat idle for a long time, got up, and found that dusty old guitar from the cabinet. I wanted to sing a song, for myself... and for Jian Wei.
After tuning the guitar with a tuner, I strummed the strings, and the melody of "Lost" by Ying Hao came out of my mouth.
"Who can see through this prosperity, once again, eyes are blurred; who can escape this noise, once again, eroding you; who has mentioned this past, once again, forgetting you; who will meet again in the next life, once again, fall in love with you.
I'm lost, can't find a map, this path of love is so hard; I'm lost, can't find a way back, how the world has become so numb; I'm lost, can't find the way back, the people around are like strangers; I'm lost, pacing in place, and your heart has flown far away..."
When I sang the last sentence, a warm sensation came from the corner of my eyes. I was lost, really lost. I thought I had gone far in these two years, but I was just pacing in place on a map called love, but her heart had flown far away...
I lit a cigarette, just took a puff, and the door was suddenly knocked, scaring me almost to break the guitar strings. Isn't there no one at home?!
Mi Cai's voice came from outside the door: "If you're in the mood for singing, please find a place where there's no one, this is a residential area."
I put on my slippers, opened the door, and Mi Cai stood in front of me wearing a spaghetti-strap nightgown. Her figure was as attractive as Yan Yan's, and her pretty face was so quiet under the dim light, which made her temperament unparalleled.
"You didn't hear me singing: I'm lost? How can I find a place where there's no one when I'm lost!" I said with a smirk.
"Sophistry!"
Ignoring Mi Cai's dissatisfaction, I asked, "Why are you at home?"
"I've been here all along."
"I didn't see your car downstairs!"
"Parked it on the vacant lot across the street."
"No wonder!" I exclaimed, immediately wanting to close the door, fearing that Mi Cai would mention moving out with me. It was almost one o'clock in the morning, and where could I move to.
Mi Cai pushed the door with both hands, not letting me succeed.
I glared at her and asked, "You're not really planning to make me move out at this time, are you?"
"No." Mi Cai paused and then said, "Aren't you lost and want to sing? I can take you to a place where there's no one, so you can vent as much as you want."
"Really? Are you that nice?" I asked warily.
"Anyway, I'm not sleepy because of your noise. If you're still in the mood, I can be your audience." She thought for a moment and added, "Your voice is not bad!"
I felt that Mi Cai was taking the initiative to repair the relationship with me, or she was amazed by my singing, or she pitied me, this decadent man. Anyway, no matter what the motive, I felt I could agree to her request because I was also suffering from insomnia, so let's go crazy together!
...
After a while, Mi Cai changed her clothes, I was wearing pajamas, slippers, holding the guitar, and walked up and down the stairs with her one after the other.
Mi Cai drove her own car, I opened the car door and sat in the passenger seat. I'm not unfamiliar with luxury cars, but it was my first time in a Q7, so I couldn't help but take a few more glances.
Before I could fasten my seatbelt, Mi Cai had already stepped on the gas, and the strong thrust of the Q7 almost knocked me against the car window.
"In the middle of the night, do you want a corpse sitting next to you?" I touched my aching head and angrily said to Mi Cai.
"Who told you not to wear a seatbelt? Those who don't follow the rules deserve to be hit!" Mi Cai said with a neutral tone.
I pointed at Mi Cai, angry but helpless, and said, "You're just taking revenge on me, aren't you?"
Mi Cai ignored me and continued to drive with no expression on her face.
...
After about twenty minutes, Mi Cai really took me to a deserted suburban wasteland where no one would come. She stopped the car, pulled up the handbrake, and finally turned off the engine and said to me, "There's no one here, sing as much as you want."
"The space in the car is too small, I can't fully express myself."
"Then get out and sing."
"You think I'm silly, if you drive away later, where will I go to complain?" I said warily. Ever since she deliberately started the car suddenly when I didn't have my seatbelt on, I suspected she had ulterior motives.
"You have a lot of nonsense!" Mi Cai said as she released her seatbelt, getting out of the car first, looking like a gentleman while I was the one being overly cautious.
I also got out of the car and stood side by side with Mi Cai. Looking at the sky, I realized that the weather was quite good tonight, with a bright moon and sparse stars, and the air was also nice. I felt like I had finally escaped the hustle and bustle.
My heart gradually quieted down, and I was really grateful to Mi Cai for having the interest to bring me to this quiet place. I needed to vent, to vent my unhappiness and dissatisfaction with reality.
I played the guitar and started with Jin Wu Lin's "The Metamorphosis."
After the song was over, Mi Cai unexpectedly applauded and asked, "Do you also like serious music?"
"Yes, it would feel even better with more instruments," I said, also surprised that Mi Cai knew this song. You have to know that serious music is not popular, it has strong artistic and academic qualities, and both the performers and the audience need a certain aesthetic ability.
Mi Cai nodded and said, "You're not as useless as you look!"
"Judging people by their appearance is your narrow-mindedness."
Mi Cai didn't care about my confrontation with her and said to me, "Please continue."
I put down the guitar and said to Mi Cai, "You should know music well, can you play the guitar? Come on, play one."
"I agreed to be the audience, you continue."
I nodded, in such a dim night, in the boundless wilderness, there is a woman who is too beautiful to be my audience, it is a gift from God!
Thinking this way, I suddenly felt more guilty about being so rude to Mi Cai before. In fact, she has been quite good to me, lending me money, and additionally accommodating me for another night. Now she is accompanying me to vent my depression. Perhaps my violent temper really needs to change!
A gust of cold wind blew, and Mi Cai subconsciously pulled her slightly thin clothes.
I couldn't bear to say to her, "You get in the car, I'll vent by myself."
"Are you sure?"
I nodded.
Mi Cai opened the car door and got into the car, but she didn't completely isolate herself from me. She pressed the car window and propped her chin with one hand, looking at me as if she was looking forward to my next song.
I played the guitar and sang another song, and while I was immersed in it, the car behind me suddenly started, and I turned my head abruptly to see Mi Cai had already fastened her seatbelt.
She said to me with a smile that wasn't quite a smile, "Your voice is really very good... but I have to leave first. This is a punishment for your failure to keep promises and your rudeness." After saying that, the car broke through the dark night like an arrow.
"Damn you!" I took off my slippers and threw them at her car, but it didn't hurt at all.
"You aunt, you b***h, I knew you didn't have good intentions... You used my sympathy, you should be careful of divine retribution... Damn it! I'm not done with you!" I was so anxious that I turned around and cursed Mi Cai who had already disappeared from my sight incoherently.
...
I have always been familiar with everyone, easy to trust, and I don't like to be on guard, and I ended up in such a situation, I really deserve it!!