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Chapter 13 - Probably Creepy, Definitely Desperate part 2

POV - Axel

Back to the morning

but oh f**k she's so sexy f**k me. as she continued to grind on my leg her leg between mine rubbing against my c**k bringing me pleasure and her moans as well of f**k. My wolf growling wanting more. I want more too but we can't. This isn't right she doesn't know what she is doing. But I also can't leave.

I bit my fist keeping my groans silent as to not wake her. She was dreaming and calling out my name and it was just so hot. I would move if I could without waking her but I can't get caught here. She was getting faster and more erratic. Was she f*****g me in her dream? oh goddess I wish I was f*****g her. With that she screamed "Axel I think I'm going to c*m" and I felt her juices soak into my pants. f**k. I came in my pants. This is going to be hard to explain

She let go snuggling her head against me and I slowly wiggled out... slowly. Trying to stay flaccid after that whole thing is hard even after finishing in my pants like a 13 year old having a wet dream. i still want more and so does my wolf but we have to wait for her.

I got out and quietly snuck out the door and down to Amelia's room knocking lightly. She opened the door pulling me in quickly and hitting me over the head.

"what the f**k were you thinking..." she yelled looking me up and down then meeting my eyes with disgust and surprise as I looked at her with guilt rushing through me.

"I know how this looks. I know she doesn't want to see and she definitely does not want to bring me pleasure but... She was having a dream about me and like... just started humping me" I'm not sure I'm making this better and I was starting to go red a sweat "look at least the dream was definitely about me. i just couldn't go..."

"Why cause you wanted to damage her trust even more and mine or because you wanted to get your rocks off you desperate i***t" i deserve that. this whole scenario is so he said she said. She knows what she heard and I can only say what I said but she would have to take my word for it. No one other than my father knows what was said that morning and he's not going to clear s**t up. This is how HE wants it to turn out. And I am stuck here filled with fear unable to make the final announcement about Dee without Felix by my side as I don't want the pack to panic over this... i can't prove how I fell about her because I am too scared about the consequences for the pack... I can't just say trust me I have my fated mate but she not talking to me and she's also wolfless.

"look I know I know I know. It looks so so bad but I can't help it. She was asleep and I woke up to her f*****g my leg and if I left she would have woken up and caught me I thought this was the best option."

"Okay. Next time you will not be going into her f*****g room creep. now get out of my house and go to Alpha school. You need to rest you start tomorrow."

as I was outside the front door I heard my little mate enter the kitchen.

"Hey Felix how'd you sleep." Amelia asked

"Better than I have since the incident. Like I was on cloud 9. This is the first time I've felt refreshed in so long" she said with a happy tone. i felt myself smirking she needed it too. imagine how well we both would have slept if we...

"maybe it's not so bad what I did?" I mind linked Amelia

"maybe. Now get the f**k off my property before your mate finds you because it still smells like campfire long after it's been out"

and with that I ran. Back to Alpha school.

When I arrived my pants had dried at least it wasn't obvious that I had c*m on and in my pants as I walked in. The set up was for future Alphas and their future Betas to attend for 3 years. each pair got a dorm to share with a bathroom which I was greatful for but other than that once we start we get 1 Saturday off every 2 weeks and other than that have 10 hours of course, 4 hours training, 2 hours of eating time and 8 hours of sleep everyday for 3 years. though I hear it gets mixed up with camping and 'emergency state' practice which I can only assume is 0 hours sleep from my experience so far next to my father.

I got into my room and Jake looked me up and down breathing in and shaking his head.

"You are a right i***t" he seethed. I assume he's angry because I clearly smell of his sister after I agreed to give Felix the space to think. I technically agreed to reject her because that's what she wants but I'm holding out hope on that one.

"I am getting that a lot lately. She didn't even know I was there man. She still hasn't wanted to talk. I just needed to see her and smell her. The rest was a mistake." well not a mistake but you know. his eyes softened as if it was okay as long as she didn't know which was so different to how Amelia felt. it was weird how Jake was acting about Felix. He wasn't that shocked about the mate thing and now he wanted me to hide from her and said she wanted me to reject her at the end of school but didn't want me to talk to her about it. He was acting like he didn't care that I was covered in her as long she didn't know. Why wasn't he worried about how she would feel? I know I broke her trust again but he doesn't seem to mind that part... I push the thought back as I have more pressing matters to attend to. Like showering and sulking in bed for the rest of the day.

POV - Felix

I woke up refreshed and ready and after greeting everyone I sat down at the kitchen island and watched Philip and Lilly prepare eggs. I hope they take Lilly's last name if they marry. Lilly Mae is so much better than Lilly Long. Sounds weird. Seems like an odd thought but looking at my two friends cooking and laughing all I can think is how beautiful Lillys name is as it is.

Lilly marked Philip and Philip I guess also marked Lilly in his own way. It was cute. Now I have to get use to two couples under the same roof. Or at least most of the time. Lilly will work and stay at the pack during the week then come here Friday night untill Monday morning. It works well for them and it works okay for me. Amelia and James are cool with it.

James and Amelia were cuddling on the sofa in the lounge clearly having a conversation through mind link and laughing away. I however was just around. It's only 3 years of this.

Three years feels like forever.

I still haven't heard from Ferra too. would I have 3 years without anyone? everyone else in my life has their mates close by and are making it work but I am alone. entirely. Not even my wolf for company.

"I'm just going for a walk" I stand up from the island giving them a smile. I hadn't really taken in everything when I first arrived but now I really had the chance to explore and maybe take my mind off a few things. The pack was about 8 hours away by car separated by the mountains and the pack forest which were all spanning out south. Amelia built her house on the very edge of the pack lands just before the city if you head north it takes about 30 minutes to walk to the nearest shops. The Uni was in the city about 45 minutes walk.

last night during the bonfire I was able to take in the forest a bit from where we are. the section we were at the edge of was not so much for forestry but it was an edging forest intended to create a barrier to the parts we work in. With a number of curious beings in the city many drawn to forests it was decided by the council that the edging was a necessity for the safety of others to prevent accidents during the felling and milling of the trees.

The milling facility which I would be working at part time while studying was only 20 minute walk south into the forest which made Amelia's spot perfect for me in the coming years. Though I would need a car for getting to and from uni. I couldn't walk for over an hour everyday before work. I needed to be presentable.

"Stay safe" Lilly mumbled out as she went back to Philips attention. Knowing that my friends were happy and safe bought me some peace and hopefully after I clear my mind I can get my own type of peace before going back to class.

The forest is usually my place of calm but today I would head north and see what the city is like. I have a plan for my spare time I just need to go in person and work it all out.