Returning Home

Chapter 09 - Time to Move.

POV - Felix

I sobbed and sobbed my heart ached. Even after Jake left and Amelia came in I couldn't talk I could only cry. I was like a f*****g tickle me Elmo except instead of laughing I just cried. Everytime Amelia made a move or said a thing I'd just sob in response.

I am not all alone though. I knew this would happen. I just never thought I would wear his mark. I could feel his sadness, his worry, his guilt. But that will fade. I know now he feels that way not because of what he's doing to me but what this is doing to the pack. To Dee. His soon to be Luna.

His Fiancee.

His Love.

He said he loved me.

But he left without so much as a word.

I had watched out the window I saw his hope, I felt his f*****g hope, what was that about. I saw and felt it fall. He didn't see me. He had obviously wanted to reject me then. Get it over with. But I didn't come.

He left.

I would be tortured by feeling what he felt. If he betrayed the bond I would feel this too. But Axel and Atlas would feel nothing. They will move on untill the ties are broken officially and I will be left with this mark for my life.

"He loves us I know it" Ferra finally said something but I hated it.

"Ferra. f**k you." I pushed her back. I had wanted her comfort but this was her fault. This was her doing. She did this and she is feeling what I feel what HE feels. f**k her. f**k him.

Fuck this.

I hadn't realised I stopped crying untill I looked up at Amelia. I could f*****g blind her. Her eyes were his. She felt pitty for me. I wasn't angry at her but her eyes, it was like he was looking at me with love and pitty.

"Amelia. Please stop looking at me with so much pitty. I am okay." my voice was normal. Calm even. She looked scared for a second and I forced a smile. I will not let this ruin me I will push though. Her eyes softened and warmed with love again. This is what I need.

"I am glad. Jake said you wouldn't want to talk but you know I am here for you. I won't force you to do anything. I am on your side. I can't believe he marked you though. I wish this had been a time of excitement... it should have been... and I am only sorry for that right now." I understood her. When she got marked we celebrated and laughed and had a great time. I also wish it had been like that for me.

"It's okay. Thank you for being here. I am okay now..." I paused waiting for her to say something but she just pulled me into a hug taking all the air out of my lungs. I coughed and choked as her shoulder landed on my throat. "okay I can't breathe. On the goddess if you are trying to kill me I will haunt you for an eternity." she pulled back and we both fell on the floor laughing.

"you know we can still celebrate. Not for Axel but for us. We need to go shopping and get ready for the new year and school. As much as I loved this look..." I was wearing dad shorts and a big shirt with my docs I looked a bit like Adam Sandler but with a nicer face. "we need to get you some hot clothes and some stationary for school. We can't have house parties if all the boys are scared of you. How will we find someone for you to hook up with like this huh?"

I was surprised by her casualness over me moving on from my mate. Her brother. I will one day tell her what happened but for now her support was all that mattered. However I was forever ruined for men. Axel was many things to me but in the end he is the reason I can't trust men. That I can't move on. "do I have to change to go shopping?"

she looked me up and down again "yes." she said with no emotion and I punched her shoulder laughing and she pointed at the bags Jake had dropped. "Anything is better than this Felix. or should I say Daddy?" she smirked c*****g her eyebrow at me.

"alright I get it, I'll go nude." she laughed getting up and grabbing my bag the grabbing my hand and pulling me into the bedroom. My bedroom sorry.

The outside of the house was gothic and dark but the inside was so bright and homey feeling. the main colours were Green with so many house plants and every wall ceiling and door painted in varying shades of the colour with little to no black details. It was adorned with reds and oranges throughout. Dark leather couches in a chocolate brown colour covered the living room with green and tan throws and pillows what had been keeping me company.

I had also helped myself to the kitchen. All of the cabinets were made of a light blonde timber with a beautiful grain. Oak I think. it had green artisanal tiles to full height of the walls and the island was also almost entirely tiled. It was stunning. The counter top was a terrazzo stone with orange, white, black and red pieces through out with a grey base. I felt at home here it was much nicer than anything I had ever seen before.

The bedroom was no different full height oak cabinets for more clothes than I could ever own. A huge Californian king bed with a balcony leading off the room and an ensuite. my bedding was entirely oranges which I knew Amelia planned with it being my favourite colour. I was in shock at the whole house. I never wanted to leave.

The Wood family were known to be rich but it never really clicked how well off. This house was Amelia's masterpiece. it was beautiful.

"Oh my goddess Amelia. This house is beautiful" she put my bag on the bed spilling out the contents to rummage through.

"I know it's dreamy. Axel helped..." she trailed off looking worried "anyway, looks like you need a whole new wardrobe. Lucky for me I have this bad boy" she held up her black card. Of course she earned money from her shares in the forestry also. She had been gifted them for her 18th and they were bringing in millions. On top of that she had always had money from mum and dad so I was in no way surprised.

"You're so dramatic they are fine."

"Ah no" she scoffed as her face looked light shed found what she wanted. suddenly the full force of my jeans and crop top hit me in the face taking me by surprise making me stubble back "put those on and let's go. no arguing. I will not let my house mate look so ragged. It was fine at the pack but now it's going to look like you're my servant and i can't have that"

we both laughed as I went into the bathroom. I pulled on the jeans and they fit perfectly but they had no holes. I found it hard to believe they were mine. I thought back to if they were and called out "have you been slowly replacing my clothes with new ones" there had been the odd time in the months leading up to school that i felt like this had happened and now putting the pieces together it all fit.

"No don't act crazy" she yelled making us both laugh.

Her laugh reminded me of his. I wanted to make him laugh. I felt my chest tighten. My heart racing. His mark flashed before me in the mirror as I felt like I was having a heart attack I will never escape this. I have to get out of here.

Breathe Felix.

Big breath in.

Big breath out.

You can do this.

I calmed and stepped out with a smile and a twirl "let's see if you can beat this master piece hot stuff" as I showed off my 'new' outfit.

I need to keep moving.

I need to keep going.

I have to get through this.

I won't move on but I will pretend and it will be close enough.

Always moving never moved on.